Part 14 (1/2)

There was a little silence.

”One admits that the arguments against the suffrage ARE extraordinarily strong,” said a girl opposite, leaning forward and crumbling her bread.

”Are they? I never follow any arguments. I am only too thankful not to have a vote myself.”

”We didn't mean the vote, though, did we?” supplied Margaret. ”Aren't we differing on something much wider, Mrs. Wilc.o.x? Whether women are to remain what they have been since the dawn of history; or whether, since men have moved forward so far, they too may move forward a little now. I say they may. I would even admit a biological change.”

”I don't know, I don't know.”

”I must be getting back to my overhanging warehouse,” said the man.

”They've turned disgracefully strict.”

Mrs. Wilc.o.x also rose.

”Oh, but come upstairs for a little. Miss Quested plays. Do you like MacDowell? Do you mind his only having two noises? If you must really go, I'll see you out. Won't you even have coffee?”

They left the dining-room closing the door behind them, and as Mrs.

Wilc.o.x b.u.t.toned up her jacket, she said: ”What an interesting life you all lead in London!”

”No, we don't,” said Margaret, with a sudden revulsion. ”We lead the lives of gibbering monkeys. Mrs. Wilc.o.x--really--We have something quiet and stable at the bottom. We really have. All my friends have. Don't pretend you enjoyed lunch, for you loathed it, but forgive me by coming again, alone, or by asking me to you.”

”I am used to young people,” said Mrs. Wilc.o.x, and with each word she spoke the outlines of known things grew dim. ”I hear a great deal of chatter at home, for we, like you, entertain a great deal. With us it is more sport and politics, but--I enjoyed my lunch very much, Miss Schlegel, dear, and am not pretending, and only wish I could have joined in more. For one thing, I'm not particularly well just to-day. For another, you younger people move so quickly that it dazes me. Charles is the same, Dolly the same. But we are all in the same boat, old and young. I never forget that.”

They were silent for a moment. Then, with a newborn emotion, they shook hands. The conversation ceased suddenly when Margaret re-entered the dining-room; her friends had been talking over her new friend, and had dismissed her as uninteresting.

CHAPTER X

Several days pa.s.sed.

Was Mrs. Wilc.o.x one of the unsatisfactory people--there are many of them--who dangle intimacy and then withdraw it? They evoke our interests and affections, and keep the life of the spirit dawdling round them.

Then they withdraw. When physical pa.s.sion is involved, there is a definite name for such behaviour--flirting--and if carried far enough it is punishable by law. But no law--not public opinion even--punishes those who coquette with friends.h.i.+p, though the dull ache that they inflict, the sense of misdirected effort and exhaustion, may be as intolerable. Was she one of these?

Margaret feared so at first, for, with a Londoner's impatience, she wanted everything to be settled up immediately. She mistrusted the periods of quiet that are essential to true growth. Desiring to book Mrs. Wilc.o.x as a friend, she pressed on the ceremony, pencil, as it were, in hand, pressing the more because the rest of the family were away, and the opportunity seemed favourable. But the elder woman would not be hurried. She refused to fit in with the Wickham Place set, or to reopen discussion of Helen and Paul, whom Margaret would have utilised as a short-cut. She took her time, or perhaps let time take her, and when the crisis did come all was ready.

The crisis opened with a message: Would Miss Schlegel come shopping?

Christmas was nearing, and Mrs. Wilc.o.x felt behindhand with the presents. She had taken some more days in bed, and must make up for lost time. Margaret accepted, and at eleven o'clock one cheerless morning they started out in a brougham.

”First of all,” began Margaret, ”we must make a list and tick off the people's names. My aunt always does, and this fog may thicken up any moment. Have you any ideas?”

”I thought we would go to Harrods or the Haymarket Stores,” said Mrs.

Wilc.o.x rather hopelessly. ”Everything is sure to be there. I am not a good shopper. The din is so confusing, and your aunt is quite right--one ought to make a list. Take my notebook, then, and write your own name at the top of the page.

”Oh, hooray!” said Margaret, writing it. ”How very kind of you to start with me!” But she did not want to receive anything expensive. Their acquaintance was singular rather than intimate, and she divined that the Wilc.o.x clan would resent any expenditure on outsiders; the more compact families do. She did not want to be thought a second Helen, who would s.n.a.t.c.h presents since she could not s.n.a.t.c.h young men, nor to be exposed like a second Aunt Juley, to the insults of Charles. A certain austerity of demeanour was best, and she added: ”I don't really want a Yuletide gift, though. In fact, I'd rather not.”

”Why?”

”Because I've odd ideas about Christmas. Because I have all that money can buy. I want more people, but no more things.”