Part 5 (1/2)
And reflecting on the vicissitudes of all human affairs, Meditate on eternity.
I never recollect to have heard that Dr. Johnson wrote inscriptions for any sepulchral stones except Dr. Goldsmith's, in Westminster Abbey, and these two in Streatham Church. He made four lines once on the death of poor Hogarth, which were equally true and pleasing. I know not why Garrick's were preferred to them.
”The hand of him here torpid lies, That drew th' essential form of grace; Here clos'd in death th' attentive eyes, That saw the manners in the face.”
Mr. Hogarth, among the variety of kindnesses shown to me when I was too young to have a proper sense of them, was used to be very earnest that I should obtain the acquaintance, and if possible the friends.h.i.+p, of Dr.
Johnson, whose conversation was, to the talk of other men, ”like t.i.tian's painting compared to Hudson's,” he said: ”but don't you tell people, now, that I say so,” continued he, ”for the connoisseurs and I are at war, you know; and because I hate _them_, they think I hate _t.i.tian_--and let them!” Many were indeed the lectures I used to have in my very early days from dear Mr. Hogarth, whose regard for my father induced him, perhaps, to take notice of his little girl, and give her some odd particular directions about dress, dancing, and many other matters, interesting now only because they were his. As he made all his talents, however, subservient to the great purposes of morality, and the earnest desire he had to mend mankind, his discourse commonly ended in an ethical dissertation, and a serious charge to me, never to forget his picture of the ”Lady's last Stake.” Of Dr. Johnson, when my father and he were talking together about him one day, ”That man,” says Hogarth, ”is not contented with believing the Bible, but he fairly resolves, I think, to believe nothing _but_ the Bible. Johnson,” added he, ”though so wise a fellow, is more like King David than King Solomon; for he says in his haste that 'all men are liars.'” This charge, as I afterwards came to know, was but too well founded. Mr. Johnson's incredulity amounted almost to disease, and I have seen it mortify his companions exceedingly.
But the truth is, Mr. Thrale had a very powerful influence over the Doctor, and could make him suppress many rough answers. He could likewise prevail on him to change his s.h.i.+rt, his coat, or his plate, almost before it came indispensably necessary to the comfort of his friends. But as I never had any ascendency at all over Mr. Johnson, except just in the things that concerned his health, it grew extremely perplexing and difficult to live in the house with him when the master of it was no more; the worse, indeed, because his dislikes grew capricious; and he could scarce bear to have anybody come to the house whom it was absolutely necessary for me to see. Two gentlemen, I perfectly well remember, dining with us at Streatham in the summer, 1782, when Elliot's brave defence of Gibraltar was a subject of common discourse, one of these men naturally enough began some talk about red-hot b.a.l.l.s thrown with surprising dexterity and effect, which Dr. Johnson having listened some time to, ”I would advise you, sir,” said he, with a cold sneer, ”never to relate this story again; you really can scarce imagine how _very poor_ a figure you make in the telling of it.” Our guest being bred a Quaker, and, I believe, a man of an extremely gentle disposition, needed no more reproofs for the same folly; so if he ever did speak again, it was in a low voice to the friend who came with him. The check was given before dinner, and after coffee I left the room. When in the evening, however, our companions were returned to London, and Mr. Johnson and myself were left alone, with only our usual family about us, ”I did not quarrel with those Quaker fellows,” said he, very seriously. ”You did perfectly right,” replied I, ”for they gave you no cause of offence.”
”No offence!” returned he, with an altered voice; ”and is it nothing, then, to sit whispering together when _I_ am present, without ever directing their discourse towards me, or offering me a share in the conversation?” ”That was because you frighted him who spoke first about those hot b.a.l.l.s.” ”Why, madam, if a creature is neither capable of giving dignity to falsehood, nor willing to remain contented with the truth, he deserves no better treatment.”
Mr. Johnson's fixed incredulity of everything he heard, and his little care to conceal that incredulity, was teasing enough, to be sure; and I saw Mr. Sharp was pained exceedingly when relating the history of a hurricane that happened about that time in the West Indies, where, for aught I know, he had himself lost some friends too, he observed Dr.
Johnson believed not a syllable of the account. ”For 'tis _so_ easy,”
says he, ”for a man to fill his mouth with a wonder, and run about telling the lie before it can be detected, that I have no heart to believe hurricanes easily raised by the first inventor, and blown forwards by thousands more.” I asked him once if he believed the story of the destruction of Lisbon by an earthquake when it first happened.
”Oh! not for six months,” said he, ”at least. I _did_ think that story too dreadful to be credited, and can hardly yet persuade myself that it was true to the full extent we all of us have heard.”
Among the numberless people, however, whom I heard him grossly and flatly contradict, I never yet saw any one who did not take it patiently excepting Dr. Burney, from whose habitual softness of manners I little expected such an exertion of spirit; the event was as little to be expected. Mr. Johnson asked his pardon generously and genteelly, and when he left the room, rose up to shake hands with him, that they might part in peace. On another occasion, when he had violently provoked Mr.
Pepys, in a different but perhaps not a less offensive manner, till something much too like a quarrel was grown up between them, the moment he was gone, ”Now,” says Dr. Johnson, ”is Pepys gone home hating me, who love him better than I did before. He spoke in defence of his dead friend; but though I hope _I_ spoke better who spoke against him, yet all my eloquence will gain me nothing but an honest man for my enemy!” He did not, however, cordially love Mr. Pepys, though he respected his abilities. ”I know the dog was a scholar,” said he when they had been disputing about the cla.s.sics for three hours together one morning at Streatham, ”but that he had so much taste and so much knowledge I did _not_ believe. I might have taken Barnard's word though, for Barnard would not lie.”
We had got a little French print among us at Brighthelmstone, in November, 1782, of some people skating, with these lines written under:--
”Sur un mince chrystal l'hyver conduit leurs pas, Le precipice est sous la glace; Telle est de nos plaisirs la legere surface, Glissez mortels; n'appayez pas.”
And I begged translation from everybody. Dr. Johnson gave me this:--
”O'er ice the rapid skater flies, With sport above and death below; Where mischief lurks in gay disguise, Thus lightly touch and quickly go.”
He was, however, most exceedingly enraged when he knew that in the course of the season I had asked half-a-dozen acquaintance to do the same thing; and said, ”it was a piece of treachery, and done to make everybody else look little when compared to my favourite friends the _Pepyses_, whose translations were unquestionably the best.” I will insert them, because he _did_ say so. This is the distich given me by Sir Lucas, to whom I owe more solid obligations, no less than the power of thanking him for the life he saved, and whose least valuable praise is the correctness of his taste:--
”O'er the ice as o'er pleasure you lightly should glide, Both have gulfs which their flattering surfaces hide.”
This other more serious one was written by his brother:--
”Swift o'er the level how the skaters slide, And skim the glitt'ring surface as they go: Thus o'er life's specious pleasures lightly glide, But pause not, press not on the gulf below.”
Dr. Johnson seeing this last, and thinking a moment, repeated:--
”O'er crackling ice, o'er gulfs profound, With nimble glide the skaters play; O'er treacherous pleasure's flow'ry ground Thus lightly skim, and haste away.”
Though thus uncommonly ready both to give and take offence, Mr. Johnson had many rigid maxims concerning the necessity of continued softness and compliance of disposition: and when I once mentioned Shenstone's idea that some little quarrel among lovers, relations, and friends was useful, and contributed to their general happiness upon the whole, by making the soul feel her elastic force, and return to the beloved object with renewed delight: ”Why, what a pernicious maxim is this now,” cries Johnson, ”_all_ quarrels ought to be avoided studiously, particularly conjugal ones, as no one can possibly tell where they may end; besides that lasting dislike is often the consequence of occasional disgust, and that the cup of life is surely bitter enough without squeezing in the hateful rind of resentment.” It was upon something like the same principle, and from his general hatred of refinement, that when I told him how Dr. Collier, in order to keep the servants in humour with his favourite dog, by seeming rough with the animal himself on many occasions, and crying out, ”Why will n.o.body knock this cur's brains out?”
meant to conciliate their tenderness towards Pompey; he returned me for answer, ”that the maxim was evidently false, and founded on ignorance of human life: that the servants would kick the dog sooner for having obtained such a sanction to their severity. And I once,” added he, ”chid my wife for beating the cat before the maid, who will now,” said I, ”treat puss with cruelty, perhaps, and plead her mistress's example.”
I asked him upon this if he ever disputed with his wife? (I had heard that he loved her pa.s.sionately.) ”Perpetually,” said he: ”my wife had a particular reverence for cleanliness, and desired the praise of neatness in her dress and furniture, as many ladies do, till they become troublesome to their best friends, slaves to their own besoms, and only sigh for the hour of sweeping their husbands out of the house as dirt and useless lumber. 'A clean floor is _so_ comfortable,' she would say sometimes, by way of twitting; till at last I told her that I thought we had had talk enough about the _floor_, we would now have a touch at the _ceiling_.”
On another occasion I have heard him blame her for a fault many people have, of setting the miseries of their neighbours half unintentionally, half wantonly before their eyes, showing them the bad side of their profession, situation, etc. He said, ”She would lament the dependence of pupilage to a young heir, etc., and once told a waterman who rowed her along the Thames in a wherry, that he was no happier than a galley-slave, one being chained to the oar by authority, the other by want. I had, however,” said he, laughing, ”the wit to get her daughter on my side always before we began the dispute. She read comedy better than anybody he ever heard,” he said; ”in tragedy she mouthed too much.”
Garrick told Mr. Thrale, however, that she was a little painted puppet, of no value at all, and quite disguised with affectation, full of odd airs of rural elegance; and he made out some comical scenes, by mimicking her in a dialogue he pretended to have overheard. I do not know whether he meant such stuff to be believed or no, it was so comical; nor did I indeed ever see him represent her ridiculously, though my husband did.
The intelligence I gained of her from old Levett was only perpetual illness and perpetual opium. The picture I found of her at Lichfield was very pretty, and her daughter, Mrs. Lucy Porter, said it was like. Mr.
Johnson has told me that her hair was eminently beautiful, quite blonde, like that of a baby; but that she fretted about the colour, and was always desirous to dye it black, which he very judiciously hindered her from doing. His account of their wedding we used to think ludicrous enough. ”I was riding to church,” says Johnson, ”and she following on another single horse. She hung back, however, and I turned about to see whether she could get her steed along, or what was the matter. I had, however, soon occasion to see it was only coquetry, and _that I despised_, so quickening my pace a little, she mended hers; but I believe there was a tear or two--pretty dear creature!”
Johnson loved his dinner exceedingly, and has often said in my hearing, perhaps for my edification, ”that wherever the dinner is ill got there is poverty or there is avarice, or there is stupidity; in short, the family is somehow grossly wrong: for,” continued he, ”a man seldom thinks with more earnestness of anything than he does of his dinner, and if he cannot get that well dressed, he should be suspected of inaccuracy in other things.” One day, when he was speaking upon the subject, I asked him if he ever huffed his wife about his dinner? ”So often,” replied he, ”that at last she called to me, and said, 'Nay, hold, Mr. Johnson, and do not make a farce of thanking G.o.d for a dinner which in a few minutes you will protest not eatable.'”
When any disputes arose between our married acquaintance, however, Mr.
Johnson always sided with the husband, ”whom,” he said, ”the woman had probably provoked so often, she scarce knew when or how she had disobliged him first. Women,” says Dr. Johnson, ”give great offence by a contemptuous spirit of non-compliance on petty occasions. The man calls his wife to walk with him in the shade, and she feels a strange desire just at that moment to sit in the sun: he offers to read her a play, or sing her a song, and she calls the children in to disturb them, or advises him to seize that opportunity of settling the family accounts.