Part 64 (1/2)
”If you call it love,” said Bertie. ”He is always in love with someone.”
Dot's eyes expressed enlightenment. She seemed to have forgotten their difference of opinion. ”So that was why he was so cut up,” she said. ”Of course--of course! I was a donkey not to think of it. What a mercy Sir Giles is dead! Has anyone written to tell him?”
”No,” said Bertie shortly.
”But why not? Surely he has a right to know? Lady Carfax herself might wish it.”
”Lady Carfax would be thankful to forget his very existence,” said Bertie, with conviction.
”My dear boy, how can you possibly tell? Are you one of those misguided male creatures who profess to understand women?”
”I know that Lady Carfax loathes the very thought of him,” Bertie maintained. ”She is not a woman to forgive and forget very easily.
Moreover, as I told you before, no one knows where he is.”
”I see,” said Dot thoughtfully. ”But surely he has a club somewhere?”
”Yes, he belongs to the Phoenix Club, New York, if they haven't kicked him out. But what of that? I'm not going to write to him. I don't want him back, Heaven knows.” There was a fighting note in Bertie's voice. He spoke as if prepared to resist to the uttermost any sudden attack upon his resolution.
But Dot attempted none; she abandoned the argument quite suddenly, and nestled against his breast. ”Darling, don't let's talk about it any more! It's a subject upon which we can't agree. And I'm sorry I've been so horrid to you. I know it isn't my fault that we haven't quarrelled. Forgive me, dear, and keep on loving me. You do love me, don't you, Bertie?”
”Sweetheart!” he whispered, holding her closely.
She uttered a little m.u.f.fled laugh. ”That's my own boy! And I'm going to be so good, you'll hardly know me. I won't go out in the rain, and I won't do the Clothing Club accounts, and I won't overwork. And--and--I won't be cross, even if I do look and feel hideous. I'm going to be a perfect saint, Bertie.”
”Sweetheart!” he said again.
She turned her face up against his neck. ”Shall I tell you why?” she said, clinging to him with hands that trembled. ”It's because if I let myself get cross-grained and ugly now, p'r'aps someone else--some day--will be cross-grained and ugly too. And I should never forgive myself for that. I should always feel it was my fault. Fancy if it turned out a shrew like me, Bertie! Wouldn't--wouldn't it be dreadful?”
She was half-laughing, half-crying, as she whispered the words. Bertie's arms held her so closely that she almost gasped for breath.
”My precious girl!” he said. ”My own precious wife! Is it so? You know, I wondered.”
She turned her lips quickly to his. There were tears on her cheeks though she was laughing.
”How bright of you, Bertie! You--you always get there sooner or later, don't you? And you're not cross with me any more? You don't think me very unreasonable about Nap?”
”Oh, d.a.m.n Nap!” said Bertie, for the second time, with fervour.
”Poor Nap!” said Dot gently.
That evening, when Bertie was at Baronmead, she scribbled a single sentence on a sheet of paper, thrust it into an envelope and directed it to the Phoenix Club, New York.
This done, she despatched a servant to the postoffice with it and sat down before the fire.
”I expect it was wrong of me,” she said. ”But somehow I can't help feeling he ought to know. Anyway”--Dot's English was becoming lightly powdered with Americanisms, which possessed a very decided charm on her lips--”anyway, it's done, and I won't think any more about it. It's the very last wrong thing I'll do for--ever so long.” Her eyes grew soft as she uttered this praiseworthy resolution. She gazed down into the fire with a little smile, and gave herself up to dreams.
CHAPTER V
THE SLOUGH OF DESPOND