Part 35 (1/2)

Delphia's face showed the marks of sleeplessness and tears, though she was composed now, like a painting of grief. Irrith's countenance was formed of something colder and more brittle: marble, perhaps, veined with flaws, that would shatter under the wrong tap of the hammer.

Lune had offered her formal condolences to Delphia before, in full view of her court; now she offered her informal sympathy. ”I lack the words to tell you how grateful I am to Galen. That's little comfort to you, I'm sure; no doubt you wish he were still alive. Or even that he'd never wed you at all, so that you'd be spared this sudden loss, and the knowledge of how it came about.”

The young widow shook her head. ”The loss, yes. Galen was a good man, and I mourn his pa.s.sing. But had I not wed him, I would have faced something much worse; and more, I would never have known of this world.” She hesitated. ”I-I know you permitted me among you because of him. If it would be possible, though, I'd like to stay.”

It had never occurred to Lune that Delphia might think her place revoked. It occurred to Rosamund and Gertrude, though. It occurred to Rosamund and Gertrude, though. She blessed the absent brownies for their insight. ”Galen may have been the means by which you came to our attention, but that does not make you his servant, to be turned out once he is gone. You will always be welcome among us, Lady Delphia.” She blessed the absent brownies for their insight. ”Galen may have been the means by which you came to our attention, but that does not make you his servant, to be turned out once he is gone. You will always be welcome among us, Lady Delphia.”

The woman's plain face flushed a delicate pink. Brus.h.i.+ng one hand over the book that lay upon the table, she said, ”Indeed, if it isn't too presumptuous... the academy Galen suggested to you, on our wedding day. He and I had spoken of it before. I'd like to see that done.”

Faerie and mortal scholars, furthering the work Galen had begun here. Dr. Andrews was dead, and Savennis, but there were others. If Delphia would work with an Arab, Lune suspected Abd ar-Ras.h.i.+d would be happy to lend his aid. ”Granted, and with pleasure.” It would be a more fitting memorial than a simple flame.

Through this all, Irrith had stood stiffly to one side, with none of the loose grace that characterized her usual posture. Her hands fiddled with a shard of porcelain, collected from the floor. Lune searched for the right words, that wouldn't shatter her composure. ”Irrith... I'll understand if you wish to leave. The deed you performed on this court's behalf is not one that people can praise, however necessary it was. But know that you, too, are always welcome here, if you wish to return.” There was no question now of punis.h.i.+ng her for the Sanist affair, even if Lune had intended to.

The sprite nodded, saying nothing. What haunted her? It wasn't the agony of a heart lost to death; Lune was sure of that much. Yet some shadow hung over Irrith, its claws hooked deep.

Hoping to draw the sprite out, she said gently, ”Indeed, I owe you a great debt. Ask anything of me, and it will be yours.” Save the abdication of her throne-but after Valentin Aspell, Irrith would never ask it.

Unfortunately, the effect was not what she intended. The green eyes sickened, and Irrith dropped her chin. ”You can't give me what I want, your Grace.”

”Perhaps another could?” The sprite shook her head, a quick jerk with hunched shoulders. Refusal of more than just that possibility. ”We've known each other for a century, Irrith. Whatever it is, you needn't fear saying it in front of me.”

”Not you.” The wince that followed made it clear that had slipped out against her will.

There were only three of them in the room, and Delphia could count as well as any. With the abruptness of a woman who must force the words out of her mouth, she said, ”The ladies of this court gossip, in the manner of ladies everywhere. I know you shared his bed. And I-I won't begrudge you your grief.”

The sprite shook her head vehemently, auburn tangles whipping. ”No. I didn't love him. Not in the way that we do-not real real love, the sort that hurts forever.” love, the sort that hurts forever.”

But there was grief in her voice, even if it was of a transient kind. Delphia, folding her hands like one at prayer, offered up a misplaced mortal rea.s.surance. ”We may comfort ourselves that he is with-that he is in a better place now.”

It was the wrong thing to say. Not just a Christian comfort, and meaningless to fae; no, this was the hammer stroke, shattering Irrith's mask and laying bare the horror beneath it. ”No, he isn't! He killed himself, and now he's in h.e.l.l h.e.l.l!”

The word rang through the room like a thunderclap-and then the air changed.

Irrith thought at first that tears were blurring her vision. And so they were; but the shape remained even when she blinked the moisture away.

It formed above the carpet, in the center of the triangle the three of them created. White mist at first, almost too faint to see; then it thickened, solidified, color seeping through it like slow dye, never quite attaining the vibrancy of life.

Delphia sank to the floor in shock, and Irrith almost did the same.

Those bound to the fae sometimes lingered among them after death.

The ghost of Galen St. Clair seemed puzzled at first, unsure of where he was. Then he saw Delphia on the floor; then Irrith and Lune, standing to either side. He turned from one to the other, half-drifting, and Irrith's heart tried to burst from relief when she saw his eyes, clear of any flame.

”The Dragon,” he whispered.

She had to try three times before the word came out. ”Dead. Do-do you remember?”

The question sent a shudder down his spine. Galen was dressed as he had been in death, free from all the armor of elegance, but his s.h.i.+rt was whole; no mark of the beast's flame showed on him anywhere. ”I... I remember pain.”

”You were burning,” Irrith said, voice wavering so badly it was almost unintelligible. ”It would have killed you eventually. And maybe that would have killed the Dragon. But I-”

”Destruction.” Galen might not have heard anything she said; he was lost in the fog of his own memories. ”For its own sake, at first; that was the fire of the Dragon. Then destruction for the sake of making others suffer. And that was my my fire.” fire.”

His gaze pinned Irrith, swift as an arrow. ”I hurt you.”

She shook her head so hard, pain flared in her neck. ”No. That wasn't you.”

”It was. The me that was the Dragon. The two of us as one...” He trailed one ghostly hand across his chest, where she had stabbed him. ”The ice put out the flames. I think some part of it is still in me-I remember the comet, and the vastness of s.p.a.ce. But there is no more fire.”

The tears were coming again. She'd done this much for him, then: that beast would not add to his torments. Scant comfort.

The ghostly substance of Galen's body rippled, then firmed once more. Looking around as if seeing his surroundings for the first time, he said, ”I thought I would be in h.e.l.l.”

Lune smiled. A strange radiance had suffused her: serenity, unshakeable as the foundations of the earth. ”No, Galen. Your soul is not bound for h.e.l.l.”

”But he killed killed himself,” Irrith said. ”Even I know where suicides go.” himself,” Irrith said. ”Even I know where suicides go.”

Delphia pushed herself to her feet, careful as a cripple walking for the first time. She said, ”I won't quote the words of scripture directly, not in this place-but it tells us the greatest love of all is to give up one's life for the sake of others.”

”For the sake of faeries.” The words tasted bitter in Irrith's mouth, all the more so because she wanted to hope, and didn't dare. ”We don't matter, in Heaven's eyes.”

”Yes, we do.” The joy in Lune's smile was like nothing Irrith had ever seen before. ”We are not creatures of Heaven, but when love joins our two worlds, even the angels do not condemn it. I have seen it myself, long ago.”

She sounded like a madwoman. The s.h.i.+ning certainty in her eyes, though, dissolved the ache that had lodged within Irrith's breast since Galen first offered himself for the sacrifice. He isn't d.a.m.ned. He's given up his life-but not his soul. He isn't d.a.m.ned. He's given up his life-but not his soul.

Through her own dignified tears, Delphia said, ”Go on, Galen. Heaven awaits you.”

He hesitated. Irrith thought some lingering fear held him back, until he shook his head.

”I don't want to leave you.”