Part 21 (1/2)

”O, yes, yes, you rich; but we poor? No. We must live, and eat and drink, and have clothes; and Jean, there, has ruined me in medicine.

What do we want with favourites, we poor? But that they help to keep us, I would sell the dogs. We are all slaves here, we poor; and we sell ourselves, our work, our hands, our beauty, some of us,--is it not so?

and you rich buy,--or we starve. It is a bad world for us old and ugly.

I am not like the doll upon the floor down-stairs.”

A sharp angry glance pa.s.sed between mother and son, as the former rose from her seat, and with a short quick step left the room, driving back the dogs as they tried to follow; while it was evident that her words jarred painfully upon the curate. ”Our beauty, some of us,” seemed to ring in his ears again and again, and he could not help a.s.sociating these words with the latter part of her speech.

”How do you get your birds, Jean?” said the curate, making an effort, and breaking the silence.

”From him,” said the young man, nodding across the court to where Bill Jarker sat half out of his trap-door, still keeping up his pigeons, for a stray was in sight, and he was in hopes of an amalgamation, in spite of the efforts being made by neighbouring flights. ”From him: he goes into the country with his nets--far off, where the green trees wave, while I can only read of them. But the book; did you bring the book?”

Thinking of other birds breasting their prison-bars: now of the fair bright face that he had seen at the window below, now of that of the cripple before him, the curate produced a volume from his pocket, and smiled as he watched the glittering eyes and eager aspect of the young man, as, hastily grasping the volume, he gazed with avidity upon the t.i.tle.

”You love reading, then, Jean?” said the curate.

”Yes, yes,” cried the cripple. ”What could I do without it? Always here; for I cannot walk much--only about the room. Ah, no! I could not live without reading--and my birds. She is good and kind,” he continued, nodding towards the door; ”but we are poor, and it makes her angry and jealous.”

The lark burst forth with one of its sweetest strains as it heard its master's voice, and then, rising, the curate left the attic, closing the door after him slowly, and peering through the narrowing slit to look upon the cripple eagerly devouring a page of the work he had brought.

The Frenchwoman was upon the first landing, and saluted the curate with a sinister meaning smile as he pa.s.sed her and thoughtfully descended.

”But he is mean, I tell you,” cried _ma mere_ angrily, as she once more stood beside her son. ”What does he give us but words--words which are worth nothing? But what is that? My faith, a book he brought you? You shall not read; it makes you silly, and to forget your mother, who does so much for you. But I will!”

”Ah!” cried Jean, painfully starting from his seat, and s.n.a.t.c.hing back the volume, and just in time, for the next moment would have seen it flying from the open window.

”Then I will sell the lark when you are asleep,” cried the woman spitefully.

The youth's eyes glittered, as, with an angry look, he hissed between his teeth, ”Then I will kill the dogs!” But the anger pa.s.sed from his countenance in a few moments, and smiling softly, he said, ”No, no, _ma mere_; you would not sell my poor bird, because I love it, and it would hurt me;” and then, casting down her knitting, the woman sprang across the room, throwing her arms round the cripple, and kissing him pa.s.sionately, calling him by every endearing name, as she parted the hair from his broad forehead, and gazed in his bright dark eyes with all a mother's fondness.

But the curate heard nothing of this--nothing but the loud song of the lark, which rang through the house--as slowly and thoughtfully he descended the worn and creaking stairs, while the woman's words seemed to keep repeating themselves in a slow measured way, vibrating in his ears, and troubling him sorely with their cutting meaning; and more than once he found himself forming with his lips, ”Our beauty, some of us.”

Volume Two, Chapter VI.

SHADES.

The lark was silent once more; and now from the open door of the first-floor, rising and falling, with a loud and rapid ”click, click, click,” came the sound of Lucy Grey's sewing-machine--”click, click,”

the sharp pulsations of the little throbbing engine, whose needle darted in and out of the soft material held beneath it by those white fingers.

But as one of the stairs gave a louder crack than ordinary, the machine stopped, and the quiet, earnest, watching face of Lucy Grey appeared at the door, which she now held open, bowing with a naive grace in answer to the curate's salutation.

”My mother wished me to watch that you did not go down without seeing her to-day,” said Lucy apologetically; for Mrs Hardon was far from well that week, and, since the long discussion that morning between old Matt and Septimus, she had been bemoaning her lot in a weak spiritless way, till, finding all his attempts at consolation of none effect, Septimus had taken his hat and gone out for a walk with his boy. To-day Mrs Septimus would be tolerably well; to-morrow, in a weak fit, exacting sympathy from husband and child in a way that would have wearied less loving natures. Now she would refuse food, upon the plea that it could not be afforded for her; consolation, because she was a wretched, miserable burden; and medicine, because she was sure that it would do her no good.

”Be patient with her, my darling,” Septimus would say to Lucy--a needless request. ”Think of the troubles she has gone through, and then look at me.”

”What for?” Lucy would cry, laughingly prisoning him by seizing his scrubby bits of whisker in her little fingers, and then kissing him on either cheek,--”what for? To see the dearest father that ever lived?”

And then memories of the past would float through Septimus Hardon's brain as he smoothed down the soft braided hair about the girl's white forehead. But there were tearful eyes above the smiling lips, and Septimus Hardon's voice used to tremble a little as he said, ”G.o.d bless you, my darling!”

”Our beauty, some of us,” seemed vibrating in the curate's ears as Lucy spoke; but the bright look of welcome, the maidenly reserve, and sweet air of innocence emanating from the fair girl before him, seemed to waft away the words, and, returning to the present, he followed her to where Mrs Hardon was lying down. Drawing a chair to the bedside, he seated himself, to listen patiently to the querulous complaints he had so often heard before--murmurings which often brought a hot flush to Lucy's cheek as she listened, until rea.s.sured by the quiet smile of the curate--a look which told her how well he read her mother's heart, and pitied her for the long sufferings she had endured,--sickness and sorrow,--which had somewhat warped a fond and loving disposition.

Perhaps it was unmaidenly, perhaps wrong in the giver and taker, but, seated at her sewing-machine in the next room, Lucy would watch through the open door for these looks, and treasure them up, never pausing to think that they might be the pioneers of a deeper understanding. She looked forward to his visits, and yet dreaded them, trembling when she heard his foot upon the stairs; and more than once she had timed her journeys to the warehouse so that they might take her away when he was likely to call; while often and often afterwards, long tearful hours of misery would be spent as she thought of the gap between them, and bent hopelessly over her sewing-machine.