Part 61 (1/2)
Neglect in some form or other was the common lot of the legally attached feminine. How could it logically be otherwise? In the turbulent, varied, restless, intensely interesting, deeply exciting life of the pioneer city only a poor-spirited, bloodless, nerveless man would have thought to settle down to domesticity. A quiet evening at home stands small chance, even in an old-established community, against a dog fight on the corner or a fire in the next block; and here were men fights instead, and a great, splendid, conflagration of desires, appet.i.tes, and pa.s.sions, a grand clash of interests and wills that burned out men's lives in the s.p.a.ce of a few years. It was a restless time, full of neglected women. This neglect varied in degree to be sure. Nan was lucky there. No other woman had thrust her way in, no other attraction lured Keith from her, as had happened to so many others. She possessed all his interest. But at present that interest seemed so attenuated, so remote!
After her revulsion of feeing the afternoon the Vigilantes first rose in their might, she withdrew within her pride. Nan was no meek and humble spirit. But the scales had dropped from her eyes as to affairs about her. San Francisco suddenly became something besides a crude collection of buildings. For the first time she saw it as a living ent.i.ty, strong in the throes of growth. She devoured eagerly all the newspapers, collected avidly all the rumours. Whenever possible, she discussed the state of affairs; but this was difficult, for nearly every one was strongly partisan for one side or another, and incapable of anything but excitement and vituperation. The Sherwoods were a great comfort to her here. While approving of the new movement, they nevertheless refused to become heated, and retained a spirit of humour.
Sherwood was not a member of the Committee of Vigilance, but he had subscribed heavily--and openly--to its funds; he had a.s.sisted it with his counsels; and it was hinted that, sub-rosa, he had taken part in some of the more obscure but dangerous operations.
”I am an elderly, peace-loving, respectable citizen,” he told Nan, ”and I stand unequivocably for law and order and for justice, for the orderly doing of things; and against violence, mob spirit, and high-handedness.”
”Why, John Sherwood!” cried Nan, up in arms at once. ”I'd never have believed you could be on the side of Judge Terry and that stripe.”
”Oho!” cried Sherwood, delighted to have drawn her. ”Now we have it!
But what made you think I was on that side?”
”Why--didn't you just say--”
”Oh,” said Sherwood comfortably, ”I was using real meanings, not just word tags. In my opinion real law and order, orderly doing of things, _et cetera_, are all on the other side.”
”And the men--” cried Nan, aglow.
”The men are of course all n.o.ble, self-sacrificing, patriotic, immaculate demiG.o.ds who--” He broke off, chuckling at Nan's expression.
”No, seriously, I think they are doing a fine work, and that they'll go down in history.”
”You're an old dear!” cried Nan, impulsively kissing his cheek.
”Take care,” he warned, ”you're endangering my gla.s.ses and making my wife jealous.”
Nan drew back, a little ashamed at having shown her feelings; and rather astonished herself at their intensity.
In the course of these conversations the pendulum with her began again to quiver at the descent. Through the calmly philosophical eye of the ex-gambler, John Sherwood, she partly envisaged the significance of what was happening--the struggling forth of real government from the sham. Her own troubles grew small by comparison. She began to feel nearer Keith in spirit than for some time past, to understand him better, even--though this was difficult--to get occasionally a glimpse of his relations toward herself. It was all very inchoate, instinctive, unformed; rather an instinct than a clear view. She became restless; for she had no outlet either for her own excitement or the communicated excitement of the times. It was difficult to wait, and yet wait she must. For what? She did not know!
On the crucial June evening she sat by the lamp trying in vain to concentrate her attention on a book. The sound of the door bell made her jump. She heard Wing Sam's shuffle, and his cheerful greeting which all her training had been unable to eliminate. Wing Sam always met every caller with a smiling ”h.e.l.lo!” A moment later she arose in some surprise as Mrs. Morrell entered the room.
Relations between the women had never been broken off, though the pretence of ordinary cordiality had long since been dropped. When Mrs.
Morrell found it expedient to make this call, she spent several hours trying to invent a plausible excuse. She was unable to do so. Finally she gave it up in angry despair.
”As long as it is not too bald, what difference does it make?” she said to herself cynically.
And out of this desperation, and by no means from cleverness, she hit on the cleverest thing possible. Instead of coming to make a friendly call, she pretended to be on an errand of protest.
”It's about your dog,” she told Nan, ”he's a dear good dog, and a great friend of ours. But cannot you shut him up nights? He's inclined to prowl around under my windows, and just the sound of him there keeps me awake. I know it's foolish; but I am so nervous these days--”
”Why, of course,” said Nan with real contrition. ”I'd no idea--”
Gringo was at the moment ingratiating himself with Wing Sam _in re_ one soup bone of no use to anybody but dogs. If he could have heard Mrs.
Morrell's indictment, he would have been both grieved and surprised: Gringo never prowled anywhere. Like most rather meaty individuals, he was a very sound sleeper; and in the morning he often felt a little uneasy in his conscience as to the matter of stray trespa.s.sing cats or such small fry. He had every confidence that his instincts would warn him of really important things, like burglars. Still, the important things are not all of life, nor burglars all the duty of a dog.
Having slandered the innocent Gringo, Mrs. Morrell stayed for a chat.
Apparently she was always just on the point of departure, but never went. Nan, being, as she thought, in the wrong as to the worthy Gringo, tried her best to be polite, but was miserably conscious of being snippy.
At the end of an hour the door bell rang again. If Nan had been watching, she might have seen Mrs. Morrell's body relax as though from a tension. After a moment Wing Sam shuffled into the room carrying a soiled folded paper.