Chapter 193 (1/2)

As Feng Luodi left Fog of Flowers while hugging Sonorous, she suddenly thought of Situ.

It wasn't that she'd 'suddenly' thought of him. Feng Luodi told herself in her heart. She was always thinking of him. She didn't know why but she missed him very much, especially at this moment. She hadn't seen him for a few days already. She missed him so much that she was on the verge of tears.

Her hand wrapped around the guqin suddenly tightened and her fingertips turned white, its blood drained from it.

While Feng Luodi stood before the entrance of Flowers of Fog, the pa.s.sers-by were all looking at her in puzzlement. They didn't understand why she was standing there in a daze, not entering or leaving. She simply stood there and they didn't see anyone from Flowers of Fog come out to chase her away.

Only after a while did Feng Luodi retract her gaze and walk away from Flowers of Fog.

She was heading back towards the Feng Residence.

The scenery along the way was still the same as before. Among the people who brushed past, no one threw her an additional glance. At this moment, it seemed as if she didn't know what exhaustion felt like. She had clearly not recovered from the cold but she continued walking forward, without stopping. It took her quite a while to return to the Feng Residence.

However, the housekeeper, Fu Bo, was surprised to see Feng Luodi home so early despite having gone out not too long ago.

This was also the first time that Feng Luodi wasn't in the mood to explain her behaviour and uphold her image. She went directly to her own courtyard, and as soon as she arrived, she was greeted with Jet's puzzled gaze.

”You should go to Mother's place; you don't come back for the time being.”

Feng Luodi only left these words behind before she entered the room.

Jet scratched her head and left with a perplexed look on her face.

Feng Luodi returned to the room, then she walked out and placed Sonorous on the stone desk before entering the room again.

After a while, Feng Luodi took out another famous guqin that she had played on before.

She still found it hard to calm her current state of mind. She sat under the Chinese parasol tree and played the guqin, over and over again. They were all pieces that she'd played after arriving in this world. The sound of the guqin contained a trace of shrouded bitterness and gloominess that was unforgettable.

When Feng Luodi held the last guqin in her hand, she felt more saddened than happy in her heart. She finally had to make a choice. It was really a tough choice to make.

If she called Phantom's name in her heart, would he immediately appear, tell her to take Sonorous somewhere to play a piece, and then take her home?

Going back home…how splendid did this sound? But, where exactly was her home? Was it the 21st century or the Xuan Kingdom's Feng Residence?

Nothing was perfect in this world. No matter what one did, it was hard to satisfy everyone. No matter how composed or indifferent she remained, in the end, she was unable to escape her fate.

Fate…she didn't even know her own fate.

When all the memories from her past lifetime and current lifetime gyred before her eyes, they converged to form only one person's silhouette. It was that lofty, cold and stern appearance, which was as compelling as usual.

That person always liked wearing black clothes and a golden belt. He didn't like to smile, but his smile would illuminate the entire world whenever he did. He was the man who treated and loved her wholeheartedly, yet she was ultimately going to let him down.

She would suffer retribution…her current deeds would definitely make her suffer retribution.

His name was currently stuck in her throat, urging to come out.

”Situ.”

I can't bear to part with you.

”Situ.”

What should I do?

”Situ.”

I love you. But, I'm sorry…

”I'm here.”

As Feng Luodi continued to call out that name in a low voice, a familiar voice sounded behind her.

Feng Luodi pressed on the zither strings. When she looked up, what entered her eyes was a person dressed in black clothes standing on top of the wall quietly. The sunlight that illuminated him was very dazzling.

It was so dazzling that tears uncontrollably started to stream down her cheeks.

”I'm here.”

Situ repeated. He leapt lightly and jumped down from the wall. He walked to Feng Luodi's side and gently caressed her face that was overflowing with tears. When his hand slowly stopped beside the corner of her eyes, he gently wiped away her tears. At that moment, an almost inaudible sigh escaped from his mouth.

He ultimately couldn't bear to see his beloved woman sad.

He had always been powerless before this person. When his marriage proposal was rejected in the deserts of the North, no matter how angry he was, he simply continued to think of ways to move the beauty's heart. When he obtained the imperial decree with great difficulty to marry his beloved woman, his heart still softened because she knelt in the rain. It was still the same now. He knew that when he left in a rage, it would cause everyone to pressurise her and force her to get married to him. But in the end, he still couldn't bear to leave her alone.

After the morning court a.s.sembly was dismissed today, he couldn't refrain himself from missing Feng Luodi, so he secretly came to her courtyard and hid in the dark to watch over her. He saw her leave the Feng Residence to go to Autumnal Ombre, and he saw her leave Autumnal Ombre and stroll down the city streets.

At that time, he had been standing on the rooftop, watching his beloved woman from a distance of about 300 meters.

But why did she seem so grieved and sad? Feng Luodi would never have thought that she looked that dispirited amongst the crowd. She appeared as if she had been abandoned by the whole world.

He had always thought that Feng Luodi was the one who'd abandoned the whole world but he should have known how painful it was for Feng Luodi, as she was the person making a choice.

He no longer wanted to see Feng Luodi's troubled expression. The expression that was so full of despair as if she was about to break down any moment.