Volume I Part 8 (1/2)
CHAPTER X.
LOVE THE LIFEGIVER.
It was about four o'clock in the morning, or nearly twelve hours after his frightful fall, that Marmaduke Heath first woke to consciousness.
Mr. Long and myself were pa.s.sing the night in his apartment, which was a very roomy one, my tutor upon a sofa, and I in a comfortable arm-chair.
I had begged that for that once at least it should be so, for I knew the dear lad would like to set his eyes upon me when he first opened them.
Dr. Sitwell and his a.s.sistant, both agreed that if he woke at all from his heavy stertorous slumber, it would be in his sane mind; and it was so. Mr. Long was asleep, but I had so much to think about in the occurrences and disclosures of the preceding evening, that slumber had refused to visit me.
I was as unused as happy youth in general is to sleeplessness. I did not know at that time what it is to lay head upon pillow only to think upon the morrow with a brain that has done its day's work, and would fain be at rest; or worse, only to let the past re-enact itself under the wearied eyelids; to watch the long procession of vanished forms again fill the emptied scenes, and yet to be conscious of their unreality. How different in this respect alone is the experience of age and youth, and again of poverty and competence! A young man in tolerable circ.u.mstances, and who does not chance to be a sportsman, may never have seen the sun rise, that commonest of splendid spectacles to all men of humble station. For my own part, I had never done so in England until the occasion of which I speak, and I remember it very particularly. The weary time spent in listening to the various noises of the house, now to those consequent upon the retiring to rest of its inmates, and then to those more mysterious ones which do not begin till afterwards--the crickets on the hearth, the mice in the wainscot, the complaining of chairs and wardrobes, and the clocks, which discourse in quite another fas.h.i.+on than they do in the day. The slow hours consumed in watching the rushlight spots, first on the floor and then on the wall, and at last exchanged for the cool grey dawn, stealing in through cranny and crack, and showing my companions still in the land of dreams; later yet the drowsy crowing of c.o.c.ks, and presently, as the light grows and grows, notwithstanding shutter and curtain, the indescribably welcome song of the early robin, the busy chirping of the house-sparrow, followed by the whole tuneful choir of birds; then the lowing of cattle in the distance, and the distant barking of the watch-dog, so strangely different from that sad and solitary howl with which the same animal breaks the awful stillness of the night. About four, I say, as I looked for the thousandth time towards Marmaduke's bed, I saw him sitting up supporting himself on his elbow, and pus.h.i.+ng his other hand across his brow, as if trying to call to mind where he was. In an instant I was at his bedside.
”Marmaduke, I am here,” said I; ”Peter Meredith.”
”I am not at Fairburn Hall, am I?” asked he, in a hoa.r.s.e whisper.
”No, Marmaduke, you are amongst friends.”
”Then he is not here,” gasped he--”nowhere near.”
”He is miles away, my friend, and he will never come under this roof.”
”Thank Heaven--thank Heaven!” cried the poor boy, sinking back upon the pillow; ”it was only a dreadful dream, then. I shall die happy.”
”You need not talk of dying, Marmaduke. On the contrary, let us hope you are about to begin a life unshadowed, natural, without fear.”
”No, Peter, I must die. I feel that; but what is death to what I have been dreaming? Do you remember that poem which came down in the box of books, from Mr. Clint, last week, about a wretched man that was bound upon a wild horse and sent adrift in the Ukraine?” And then he repeated with some difficulty--
”'How fast we fled, away, away, And I could neither sigh, nor pray, And my cold sweat-drops fell like rain Upon the courser's bristling mane, But snorting still with rage and fear, He flew upon his far career; At times I almost thought indeed, He must have slackened in his speed; But no; my bound and slender frame Was nothing to his angry might, And merely like a spur became.'
Well, Peter, that was I. But instead of the wolves which followed upon his track, it was my uncle Ma.s.singberd who followed me. He had chosen to kill me as the Count Palatine would have killed Mazeppa, but he wanted also to see it done.
'All through the night I heard his feet, Their stealing rustling step repeat.'
Great Heaven, I hear them now!”
”Nay, Marmaduke, it is only I, your old tutor,” said Mr. Long, tenderly, who had not been able to leave his sofa entirely without noise. ”You must not give way to these fancies; you had a fall from Panther, that is all.”
”Ay,” returned the poor boy, ”it was Panther, only I thought he was a wild horse, and not my pony at all.
'But though my cords were wet with gore, Which oozing through my limbs ran o'er; And in my tongue the thirst became A something fiercer far than flame;'
that was nothing; nothing to the knowledge that that man was close behind. Now that I am awake, I feel bruised from head to heel, my bones ache, my head seems as though it were about to burst, but that is nothing to--” the poor lad could not finish the sentence, but exclaimed with piteous vehemence--”do, Mr. Long, do promise me that I shall never see him more.”
”You shall never see him more, if I can help it,” returned my tutor, with unusual energy. ”Yes, I think I can promise that you never shall.”
I well knew that so cautious a man as Mr. Long would not have said so much without full warrant; it was evident to me at once that he had heard from Mr. Gerard all that had pa.s.sed between that gentleman and the baronet in the drawing-room, and was now determined to act with vigour in Marmaduke's behalf. Perhaps the coincidence of the lad's dream with what had in fact occurred, may have helped my tutor's decision, but now that he had once pa.s.sed his word, I felt sure that he would stand by Marmaduke to the last.
The sick boy seemed to feel this too, for he uttered many expressions of grat.i.tude and contentment, while he kept fast hold of his new protector's hand.