Volume 2 Chapter 6 (1/2)

Spring of Yearning Part II

After finishi+ng with reports, the sun was already setting

It was about tily opened his mouth to speak

”I will be going to the battlefield once spring comes around”

”Eh?”

I was stunned for an instant by those words

Although the battlefield near the border is intensifying as a result of that battle, it should not be at the point where apprentices needed to be sent in

That is still a long way off

Even though the eney, there is still quite a difference in national strength

Besides there is another issue

”In order to go to the battlefield as a knight, don't you have to be at least sixteen?”

”The training facility can only provide so much I have already learned all I can The rest will be froician”

”……Is that so”

If that is what Atlas wanted, then there is no problem with that

But given Gil-sae, this decision is still far too early

He was suppose to train in row up a bit more before this, but if he decided to take the option of becoht beco relationshi+p with Gil-sama

―――It's strange It's definitely strange

With this, the story wouldn't be progressing as in the original

”I think ill likely be sent to the sa each other’s backs Therefore, there is soht apprentice'”

His stiff voice drew hts back

As a knight apprentice and not a ician―――what does that mean?

Focusing on his brown eyes, he spoke each word as if he were carefullyover it

”I don't like you, I dislike those who brandish their strength and oppress the weak”

These feelings that were conveyed straight to me by one of the people I had admired inflicted quite a wound upon my heart

Although this is due to character of 'Origa', but even so, the disgust in the words he spoke is directed towards me

To what I have done His feelings about the crimes I have committed

”……Is this because of Gilford Irvis, or is this…”

Because of those people I burned away in that battle

Whether he had guessed ave the answer

”It was so that could've been resolved without sacrifices if you hadn't rushed the situation Both Gil, and the fort”

If he is aware of what had happened to Gil-sama, then hehis birth

So that's why he was so hostile towards me the first time we met

That’s right

It has already been a year since he returned to the faressed to a certain extent at this point

If so, then hiht then?

”No matter how much time passes, he will never be worthy of the Rujil narasped under my name And I believe it was the best course of action”

”Many lives could've been saved Or are you saying that everything you decide is correct?”

His sharp gaze felt like it was stabbingloudly

The righteous eyes, the pure heart, the character alks the path of justice

This conversation was suppose to have happen several years later,a distortion now in the story――――this conversation was suppose to have happen just before Origa destroyed this country

Impossible This alone, must not be possible

Because I have not started the attack on this country yet

It is still not the time for us to declare the differences in our beliefs

But even so, 'Origa's' answer has already been decided

And it is impossible to answer any other way

”If, I were to deny those sacrifices, wouldn't it be blasphe”

A commander doesn’t just carry the sins of their subordinates

But in order to not let the lives already robbed to be in vain either, I have to holdmy actions

I have to keepforward so that my subordinates do not falter

That's why I cannot waver I have to be a villain

I cannot be the weak ‘a'

I have to hide what's within my heart

”………I understand what I aht I cannot forgive you”

He averted his gaze and let out a large sigh

I also understood that

I aood since the beginning So there is no way he can understand me

Nothing would be solved even if he understood me

Even though it is soaze turned away, instead of feeling relieve, my heart protested in pain

Even though I don’t have the time to be hurt and waver like this

A villain listening to the voice of condea’ would never show such a ridiculous sight

”―――But froician's standpoint I understand There was no choice but to kill the people in that fort……and you protected Gil”

”Eh……”

“Unlike my clan or the clan of wind, it is the Rujil’s If you hadn’t banished Gil from the clan like that, the clan would probably have lost control and he would’ve been killed”

It's true that the other clans are more tolerant than the clan of fire

They are slowly losing the power oftheir bloodline with ordinary people

Therapidly, and in the future, the power of their ician blood will not even manifest

Although the e, unlike the Rujil, theto the other branches are able to marry freely

That's why someone like Gil-sama would've been allowed to exist

But Gil-sa of the Rujil's head

I don’t think……you did what you did without reason So I also decided to……believe that there was some circumstances with Gil In the first place, since it is aI should interfere in”

Atlas's voice was hesitant and quiet, as if he were talking to hihts

Yes, I was trying to save Gil-sama――――since I love him

Yes, I do have my own circumstances――――but I wanted him to live

――Why was 'I' thinking this?

My emotions are a mess

It was disgusting Just dis…gusting

”So I wanted to apologize At that tis to you I am sorry

”I also…went too far I'm sorry”

I faked a smile to hide my nausea

It is doubtful that he was speaking to 'Origa' but rather he was speaking to 'me'

My mind was blank, and Atlas' words flowed into my head

I have to end this conversation as quickly as possible

”But you don't have to worry too much about him Since he is already separated the Rujil, there is no one trying to do anything to him now”

“This has nothing to do with you being Gil’s little sister”