Part 23 (1/2)

Don't do this to me, Momma. Please.

She heard a sc.r.a.ping noise against the floor, then shuffling, growing ever nearer her location. Her heart thudded, her blood pounding in her ears. She covered her ears with her hands, willing the nightmare to go away.

'Gina, come to me.'

She wasn't real. She wasn't. Yet she could still smell her, could feel her mother's presence.

'Sweetheart, let me take you out of here. Let me take us someplace safe.'

Her hands dropped to her sides and she stood, then, needing this. To h.e.l.l with demons and nightmares. She wanted her mother. 'Momma. Where are you?'

'I'm right here. Listen to my voice. Follow it.'

She did, winding her way through the darkness, ignoring everything but the sweet call of her mother. Soon she'd fall into her arms and everything would be all right.

The light. She saw the light, and a shadow in front of it. Long hair falling over her shoulders, her arms outstretched.

'Is that you, Momma?'

'Yes, it's Momma. Come to me.'

She was almost running now, afraid to look back, afraid the demons would get to her before she reached her mother.

Almost there, her arms outstretched. The fog was lifting now, the light illuminating the shadows around her mother.

Gina skidded to a halt only inches away from the woman whose arms she'd almost thrown herself into.

Thatthing was not her mother. Hideous, its face was twisted into a demon's mask.

It was her mother's voice, but not her mother's face. It was ugly, with fangs dripping blood, clawlike fingers reaching for her.

'Come to me.'

Revulsion filled her. Gina shook her head, tears flowing from her eyes. Her stomach hurt. Her heart hurt.

'Momma, what did they do to you?'

'They made me better. Stronger. Let me hold you. I'll make you just like us.' Her mother lunged for her, evil filling her eyes.

'No! Don't touch me!'

'Gina.'

'Stop it! Get away from me. Don't touch me!'

'Gina, wake up!'

She shot up in bed, a part of the dream still with her, her face wet as she blinked back tears. Derek was right there, his arms tight around her.

'Baby, it's okay. It was just a dream.'

A dream. Her mother was gone. It was just a dream.

A horrible, awful nightmare.

'I know.' She brushed her hair away from her face and allowed Derek to pull her back down. The room was dark, though she knew it was daylight outside by now. Somewhere during the early dawn hours he must have pulled the window shades and closed the shutters, blanketing the room in cooling darkness.

The dream had been so vivid, she still shuddered as she recalled every detail. She hadn't dreamed of her mother in years. Why now?

'Tell me about it.'

'I was in a dark place, hiding from demons, and my mother called out to me. At first I didn't believe it was her, but then I went out to find her, and when I did, she had the face of a demon.' It hurt again just to think about it.

Derek pulled her tighter against him. 'I'm sorry. I know how painful it is to think about them taking her.'

For the first time, she realized someone really did know how she felt. She turned around and switched on the bedside lamp, then faced him. 'How have you coped all these years, knowing they took your brother?'

He swept her hair away from her face, then smoothed his hand over her shoulder and down her arm, continuing to caress her skin. 'When I was little, it was mostly fear that they would come for me next. Then I felt safer when we moved. But when I spotted one as an adult, it all came rus.h.i.+ng back.'

She lifted up on her elbow. 'You spotted one? You mean in public?'

'Sort of. I was in the Navy and out on leave in Chicago with some of my buddies. It was about three in the morning and I'd just left a bar and was heading toward the parking lot by cutting through an alley. There it was. Same kind of ugly f.u.c.ker I'd seen the night Nic was taken. At first I couldn't believe what I was seeing, thought it was the alcohol. I hid behind a Dumpster, scared s.h.i.+tless and shaking, convinced I was having some kind of psychotic break. But when I watched it take a human and disappear down a manhole cover, I knew d.a.m.n well I wasn't drunk and seeing things.'

'Oh, my G.o.d. I can't believe it.'

He nodded, squeezing her hand. 'Then I saw Lou and a few hunters go in after it, and I followed them. They fought off a bunch of demons, and Lou found me. He didn't seem surprised to see me there, almost as if he'd been expecting me.'

'Well, he did say he had psychic abilities. Maybe he had a premonition about you or knew about your background like he did ours.'

'Yeah, something like that. I just wanted to kill those b.a.s.t.a.r.ds. Not too long after I met Lou I got out of the service and joined up with the Realm of Light and have been doing this ever since.'

Whenever he talked about demons his face went hard, the lines of his forehead more p.r.o.nounced, the gray of his eyes darkening like an approaching storm. She smoothed the furrows on his brow with her fingertips. 'It's been a difficult life for you.' Would she become the same way? Would the drive for revenge against the creatures who'd stolen her mother become what she lived for?

'It's a choice I made a long time ago, even before I saw the demon and found Lou. I knew I had to find the thing that took Nic, had to figure out what happened to him. Even if just to prove to myself it hadn't been a dream, that Nic hadn't died that day like my mother claimed.'

She stared at the smooth expanse of his chest. 'I never searched.'

'What do you mean?'

'For my mother. I never looked for her.'

'You were a child, Gina. What were you supposed to do?'

'I don't know. Nothing at first. But when I grew up, I never hired anyone to try and find out what happened to her. I had just pushed it all out of my memories. The authorities had no leads and had closed the file on her by then. I just gave up. It was so painful, thinking about that night, waking up alone and not knowing where she was.'

He reached for her chin and lifted her head, forcing her to meet his gaze. 'You were a child. It was a trauma. What happened to you after that?'

'Since I had no other living relatives, I was sent to foster care. Hated my foster parents, hated the other kids. Of course they were all nice enough, not abusive or anything. G.o.d knows they tried to reach me, but I didn't want them to. I'd already had a mother and didn't want another one. All I wanted was to be left alone.'

She hadn't wanted anyone to love her ever again, hadn't wanted to risk the possibility of opening her heart to anyone, to take the chance that they, too, would be taken from her.