Part 33 (1/2)

”What is?”

In spite of all his old dull certainties, he felt the shock of wonder.

He looked at her, her scarlet cheeks and widening eyes. Even her pretty hair seemed to have acquired a nervous life, and stood out in a quivering aureole. Myron was much bound to his Caddie in his way of being attached to his own life and breath. A change in her was horrible to him, like the disturbance of illness in an ordered house.

”What is it?” he inquired again. ”What is it you feel?”

”It's that,” she said, with an added vehemence. ”It's my double personality.”

Myron Dill could have wept from the surprise of it all, the a.s.sault upon his wondering nerves.

”You spread up the bed in the bedroom, Caddie,” he bade her, ”and go lay down a spell.”

”No,” said his wife, ”I sha'n't lay down, and I sha'n't give up to you.

It's riz up in me, the one that's goin' to beat, no matter what comes of it, same as old Abner Kinsman stood up ag'inst the British. Mebbe it'll die fightin', same's he did, and I never'll hear no more from it,--and a good riddance. But Myron, it's goin' to beat.”

Her husband was frowning, not harshly now, but from the extremity of his distress. He spoke in a tone of well-considered adjuration.

”Caddie, you know what you're doin' of? You're settin' up your will in place o' mine.”

”Oh, no, I ain't, Myron,” she responded eagerly, with an earnest motion toward him, as if she besought him to put faith in her. ”It ain't me that's doin' it.”

”It ain't you? Who is it, then?”

”Why, it's my double personality. Ain't I just told you so?”

Myron stood gazing at her in the futility of comprehension he had felt years ago, when Caddie, who had been ”a great reader,” as the neighbors said, before the avalanche of household cares had overwhelmed her, propounded to him, while he was drawing off his boots for an hour of twilight somnolence before going to bed, problems that, he knew, no man could answer. Neither were they to be illumined by Holy Writ, for he had offered that loophole of exit, and Caddie had shaken her head at him disconsolately, and implied that the prophets would not do. But when she had seemed to forget that interrogative att.i.tude toward life, he had settled down to unquestioning content in knowing he had the best housekeeper in the neighborhood. Now here it was again, the spectre of her queerness rising to distress him.

She looked at him with wide, affrighted eyes.

”You set here with me a spell,” she adjured him. ”I'll lay down on the sofy, and you take the big rocker. If you see it comin' up in me, you kinder say somethin', and mebbe it'll go away.”

Myron, though in extreme unwillingness, did as he was bidden. He wanted to bundle the whole troop of her imaginings out of doors, and plod off, like a sane man, to his fencing; but somehow her earnestness itself forbade. When they were established, she on the sofa, with her bright eyes piercing him, and he seated at an angle where a nurse might easiest wait upon a patient's needs, the absurdity of it all swept over him. The clock was ticking irritatingly behind him. He looked at his watch, and took a.s.surance from the vision of the flying day.

”Now, Caddie,” said he, in that specious soothing we accord to children, ”you lay right still, and I'll go out a spell and do a few ch.o.r.es, and then mebbe I'll come in and see how you be.”

Caddie put out a hand, and fastened it upon his in an inexorable clasp.

”No, Myron,” said she, ”you ain't goin'. If I should be left here to myself, and it come up in me, I dunno what I might do.”

Myron felt himself yielding again, and clutched at confidence as the spent swimmer reaches for a plank.

”What do you think you'd do, Caddie?” he demanded. ”That's what I want to know.”

”I can't tell, Myron,” she returned solemnly. ”True as I'm a livin'

woman, I can't tell you. Mebbe I'd go over to the Turnbull house and set it a-fire, so 't I shouldn't ever live in it. Mebbe I'd take my bank-book, and go up to the Street, and draw out that money aunt Susan left me, and give it to Hermie, so 's he could run away, and take Annie with him. If that other one come up in me, I dunno what I'd do.”

Myron gazed at her, aghast.

”Why, Caddie,” said he, ”you can't go round settin' houses a-fire.

That's arson.”