Vol 3 Chapter 33 (1/2)

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The couple just after watching ”Brokeback Mountain” (Note: BL film)

It was Sat.u.r.day, a good holiday. Mai Ding was surfing the internet while waiting for meals. Since Auntie Yuan has been there, he was so bored. Sometimes, he really missed the time that he was busy with something. People always spent so much time on past time, afterall, it was in vain.

Li Ming recommended a movie called ”Brokeback Mountain” to Mai Ding. Actually, Mai

Ding knew that it was a nice movie, but he hasn't watched it.

Today, he had nothing to do, and An Ziyan was just reading some profound books. So, why not enjoy the movie? After having meals, he rented the movie, turned off the light, and watched it in his room.

Ennis and Jack met each other in Wyoming, where they were hired to watch over a large herd of sheep on Brokeback Mountain. Alone in nature's grandness, they were drawn to each other almost without their knowledge. They were about to have an innocent relations.h.i.+p.

Mai Ding was touched by this scene. He pressed the pause b.u.t.ton and bawled ”An Ziyan, come here!”

”For what?”

”I have something important to say.”

”Say it.”

”Come here.”

An Ziyan then put down his book and walked to the door of Mai Ding's room. Mai Ding made An Ziyan sit down and close the door. ”Let's enjoy the movie. It's really good.”

”That's it?” An Ziyan said, coldly. He wanted to stand up, but was pulled back by Mai Ding. ”Let's watch it together. I am not pus.h.i.+ng it onto you.”

”Why should I do that?”

”Because you are my man.” Mai Ding threw himself on An Ziyan.

”Come on.”

In the end, An Ziyan opted for a compromise. He siat down on the sofa with a long face. It was kinda silly to watch a movie in halfway. The movie continued.

They had to say goodbye, because they finished work. Ennis hid himself in the alley when Jack went away by car. Mai Ding felt sad about it.

Ennis married his sweetheart Alma, and Jack, moving to Texas, married Lureen, a rodeo rider with a well-to-do father. They thought that what happened on Brokeback Mountain was over, but it was not. They stumbled upon their greatest love of their lives, with all the problems and complications in store for them.

So, they begun a steady and tormented affair in which the two meet once or twice a year for fis.h.i.+ng trips in which no fish are caught. Jack urged that they forsake their marriages and set up a ranch together, but Ennis was paralyzed in fear and shame, until one day, Jack was killed in an accident. His only wish is to spray his bone ashes on Brokeback Mountain. Ennis found Jack's old s.h.i.+rt from their Brokeback days.

The s.h.i.+rt seemed heavy until he saw that there was another s.h.i.+rt inside it. It was his plaid s.h.i.+rt. The pair liked two skins, one inside the other, and two in one. What Ennis had now was only the memory of Brokeback Mountain, which was what he had on his hands.

In the end, Ennis got divorced. He hung up Jack's clothes in his closet neatly.

Mai Ding has been crying a lot. He cannot accept this ending. The reason why he was into nice movies was that they have happy endings. He looked so vulnerable that he felt sorrowful when he watched tragedies. He couldn't get out of it cleanly. The sorrow would only accompany him.

He couldn't figure out why innocent love didn't have a happy ending.

An Ziyan felt emotionless while watching the movie. This was the second time that he saw Mai Ding cry. ”Why are you crying?”

”You don't know anything. Why did they have to separate in the beginnin? Or why did they keep everything a secret? Why did Jack died? And why don't they treat their love seriously? Why does such a good movie end with a bad ending? They shouldn't have fallen in love with each other if they were under so much pressure.” Mai Ding said, exhilaratingly.

”The movie should be like that, or else no one would've watched it.”

”Aren't you being kind?” He felt depressed over the movie, but An Ziyan thought eitherwise.