Part 19 (2/2)
I seek peace.”
Again the echo. Again the silence. He moved cautiously towards the sound of water, and his groping fingers touched the stone rim of the well. He stooped towards the water. Breaths of mist furred and fumed from the smooth gla.s.s of the surface. He bent nearer. Below that gla.s.s the clear depths, darkly s.h.i.+ning, led the eye down, away from the mist. At the bottom of the well was the gleam of silver, the offerings to the G.o.d.
From nowhere came a memory: the pool below the ancient tomb where Morgause had bidden him watch the depths for vision. There he had seen nothing but what should rightly be there. Here, on the holy hilltop, the same.
He straightened. Mordred, the realist, did not know that a burden had dropped from him. He would have said only that Merlin's magic was no doubt as harmless as Morgause's. What he had seen as a cursed fate, foreseen with grief by Merlin and twisted into evil by Morgause, dwindled in this world of clear water and lighted mist into its proper form. It was not even a curse. It was a fact, something due to happen in the future, that had been seen by an eye doomed to foresee, whatever the pain of that Seeing.
It would come, yes, but only as, soon or late, all deaths came. He, Mordred, was not the instrument of a blind and brutal fate, but of whatever, whoever, made the pattern to which the world moved. Live what life brings; die what death comes. He did not see the comfort even as cold.
Nor did he, in fact, even know that he had been comforted. He reached for the cup that stood above the water, filled it and drank, and felt refreshed. He poured for the G.o.d, and as he returned the cup to its place said, in the tongue of his childhood, ”Thank you,” and turned to go.
The mist was thicker than ever, the silence as intense. The sun was right up now, but the light, instead of sweeping the air clear, blazed like a fire in the middle of a great cloud. The hillside was a swirl of flame and smoke, cool to the skin, clean to the nostrils, but blinding to the eye and filling the mind with confusion and wonder. The very air was crystal, was rainbow, was flowing diamond. ”He is where he always was,” Nimue had said, ”with all his fires and travelling glories round him.” And ”If he wishes it, you may find him.”
He had found, and been answered. He began to feel his way back towards the head of the cliff. Behind him, invisible, the falling drops of the spring sounded for all the world like the sweet, faint notes of a harp.
Above him was the swirl of light where the sun stood. Guided by these he felt his way forward until his foot found the drop to the path.
When he reached the base of the hill he turned east and rode straight and fast for Caerleon and his father.
10.
BY THE TIME MORDRED REACHEDCaerleon matters had begun to settle themselves. The King had been very angry over Lamorak's murder, and it was certainly to Agravain's advantage that his wound would keep him, and Gaheris with him, in the north until it was healed. Drustan duly sent an account of the incident to Arthur, but its bearer was not a royal courier, it was Gareth; and Gareth, though far from trying to excuse his brothers, pleaded successfully with the King for their pardon. For Gaheris he pleaded madness; Gaheris, who had loved Morgause and had killed her. Gareth, out of his own grief, could make a guess at what had pa.s.sed in his brother's bruised mind as he knelt there in his mother's blood. And Agravain, as ever, had acted as the s.h.i.+eld and dagger alongside his twin's sword. Now that Lamorak was dead, urged Gareth, it was surely possible that Gaheris could put the b.l.o.o.d.y past behind him, and take his place again as a loyal man. And Drustan, though sorely provoked, had held his hand, so it might well be that now the swinging pendulum of revenge could be stilled.
Unexpectedly enough, the main opposition to Gareth's pleading came from Bedwyr. Bedwyr, deploring the blood tie that linked Arthur to the Orkney brothers, disliked and distrusted them, and lost no chance to set the King on guard against them. He was known throughout the court to be using all his considerable influence to prevent the twins from being recalled. And where, Bedwyr insisted, with growing suspicion, was Mordred? Had he, too, perhaps, a.s.sisted in the murder, and fled before Drustan and Gareth came on the scene? Mordred himself arrived in Caerleon in time to save confusion about his part in the affair, and eventually, in spite of Bedwyr, Gareth was sent north again, to bring his brothers back to court when they were both, in mind and body, whole once more.
Gawain came back, briefly, soon after the court returned to Camelot, while Agravain and Gaheris were still in the north. He had a long interview with Arthur, and after it another with Mordred, who told him what he had seen of Lamorak's murder and its aftermath, and finished by urging Gawain to listen to the King's pleas and show the same restraint as Drustan, and to refrain from adding another stone to the b.l.o.o.d.y cairn of revenge.
”Lamorak leaves a young brother, Drian, who rides with Drustan's men. By the kind of logic that you use, he has the right now to kill either of your brothers, or you yourself. Even Gareth,” said Mordred, ”though I doubt if that is likely. Drustan will have seen to it that Drian knows what happened, and that - the G.o.ddess be thanked! - Gareth kept his head and acted like a sensible man. He could see - as indeed any man could who was there - that Gaheris was crazed in his wits. If we make much of that circ.u.mstance, it is possible that when he comes back healed, no one will attempt to strike at him.” He added, meaningly: ”I believe that neither of the twins will ever be trusted again by the King, but if you can bring yourself to forgive Gaheris for our mother's murder, or at any rate not to take action against him, then you may, with Gareth and myself, stay within the edges of the King's favour. There may yet be a n.o.ble future for you and for me. Do you ever want to rule your northern kingdom, Gawain?”
Mordred knew his man. Gawain was anxious that nothing should interfere with his t.i.tle to the Orkneys, or eventually to the kingdom of Lothian. Neither t.i.tle would be worth anything without Arthur's continued support. So the matter was settled, but when the time came for the twins' return, the King saw to it that their elder brother was away from Camelot. Queen Morgan, at Castell Aur in Wales, provided him with just the excuse he needed. Gawain was dispatched there, ostensibly to investigate complaints from the peasants about abuses of authority by Morgan's guardians, and carefully kept there out of the way until the dust on the Lamorak murder should settle.
It was apparent, though, to Mordred, that Bedwyr's doubts about him were not quite resolved. In place of the guarded friendliness that Arthur's chief marshal had lately shown, Mordred was to observe a return to the wary watchfulness that Bedwyr also accorded Agravain and certain other of the Young Celts.
The phrase ”Young Celts,” used lightly enough at first to denote the young outlanders who tended to stick together, had by this time taken on the ring of a sobriquet, a t.i.tle as clearly defined as that of the High King's companion knights. And here and there the two lines crossed; Agravain was in both, and Gaheris, and so, eventually, was Mordred. Arthur, as Mordred had antic.i.p.ated, sent for him and asked him, once his half-brothers were back at court, to keep watch on them, and on the others of the Young Celts' party. A little to Mordred's surprise he found that, though there was still discontent with some of Arthur's home policies, there was no talk that could be called seditious. Loyalty to Arthur's name and fame still held them; he was duke of battles still, and enough of glory and authority hung about him to keep them loyal. His talk of wars to come, moreover, bound them to him. But there was enmity for Bedwyr. The men from Orkney who had come south to join Lot's sons in Arthur's train, and others from Lothian who hoped for Gawain's succession there (and who had some small grievances, real or imagined, against the Northumbrian lord of Benoic), knew that Bedwyr distrusted them, and that he had done his best to block the return of Agravain and Gaheris to court; had advocated, rather, their banishment back to their island home. So when, as was inevitable among the young men, the talk turned to the gossip about Bedwyr and the Queen, Mordred soon realized that this was prompted mainly by hatred of Bedwyr, and the desire to shut him out of the King's favour. When Mordred, moving carefully, let it be known that he might be persuaded to take their part, the Young Celts a.s.sumed his motive to be the natural jealousy of a King's son who might, if Bedwyr could be discredited, become his father's deputy.
As such, Mordred would be a notable acquisition to the party.
So he was accepted, and in time regarded as one of the party's leaders, even by Agravain and Gaheris.
Mordred had his own rooms within the royal palace at Camelot, but he had also, for the last year or so, owned a pleasant little house in the town. A girl of the town kept house for him, and made him welcome whenever he could spare the time for her. Here, from time to time, came the Young Celts, ostensibly to supper, or for a day's fowling in the marshes, but in reality to talk, and for Mordred to listen.
The purchase of the house had in fact been the King's suggestion. If Mordred was to share the party's activities, this was not likely to happen in his rooms within the royal palace. In the easier atmosphere of his leman's house Mordred could more readily keep in touch with the currents of thought that moved the younger men.
To his house one evening came Agravain, with Colles, and Mador, and others of the Young Celts. After supper, when the woman had placed the wine near them and then withdrawn, Agravain brought the talk abruptly round to the subject that, of late, had obsessed him.
”Bedwyr! No man in the kingdom can get anywhere, become anybody, without that man's approval!
The King's besotted. Boyhood friends, indeed! Boyhood lovers, more like! And still he has to listen whenever my lord high and mighty Bedwyr chooses to speak! What d'ye say, Colles? We know, eh?
Eh?”
Agravain, as was usual these days, was three parts drunken, early as it was in the night. This was plain speaking, even for him. Colles, usually a hopeful sycophant, tried an uneasy withdrawal. ”Well, but everyone knows they fought together since years back. Brothers-in-arms, and all that. It's only natural-”
”Too natural by half.” Agravain gave a hiccup of laughter. ”Brothers-in-arms, how right you are! In the Queen's arms, too... , Haven't you heard the latest? Last time the King was from court, there was my lord Bedwyr, snugged down right and tight in the Queen's bed before Arthur's horse was well out of the King's Gate.”
”Where did you get that?” This, sharply, from Mador.
And from Colles, beginning to look scared: ”You told me. But it's only talk, and it can't be true. For one thing the King's not that kind of a fool, and if he trusts Bedwyr-and trusts her, come to that-”
”Not a fool? It's a fool's part to trust. Mordred would agree. Wouldn't you, brother?”
Mordred, with his back to the company, pouring wine, was heard to a.s.sent, shortly.
”If it were true,” began someone, longingly, but Mador cut across him.
”You're a fool yourself to talk like that without proof. It can't be true. Even if they wanted to, how would they dare? The Queen's ladies are always there with her, and even at night-”
Agravain gave a shout of laughter, and Gaheris, lounging back beside him, said, grinning: ”My poor innocent. You're beginning to sound like my saintly brother Gareth. Don't you ever listen to the dirt?
Agravain's been laying one of Guinevere's maids for nigh on a month now. If anyone hears the gossip, he should.”
”And you mean that she says he's been in there at night? Bedwyr?”
Agravain nodded into his wine, and Gaheris gave a crow of triumph. ”Then we've got him!”
But Colles insisted: ”She saw him? Herself?”
”No.” Agravain looked round defiantly. ”But we all know the talk that's been going round for long enough, and we also know that there's no fire without smoke. Let us look past the smoke, and put out the fire. If I do get proof, will you all act with me?”
”Act? How?”
”Do the King a service, and get rid of Bedwyr, from the King's bed and and the King's counsels!” the King's counsels!”
Calum said doubtfully: ”You mean just tell the King?”
”How else? He'll be furious, who wouldn't, but afterwards he's got to be grateful. Any man would want to know-”
”But the Queen?” This was a young man called Cian, who came from the Queen's own country of North Wales. ”He'll kill her. Any man, finding out...” He flushed, and fell silent. It was to be noticed that he avoided looking at Gaheris.
Agravain was confident and scornful. ”He would never hurt the Queen. Have you never heard what happened when Melwas of the Summer Country took her and held her for a day and a night in his lodge on one of the Lake islands? You can't tell me that that lecher never had his way with her, but the King took her back without a word, and gave her his promise that, for that or even for her barrenness, he would never put her aside. No, he'd never harm her. Mordred, you know him better than most, and you're with the Queen half your time as well. What do you say?”
”About the King's tenderness towards her, I agree.” Mordred set the wine jug down again, and leaned back against the table's edge, surveying them. ”But all this is moons.h.i.+ne, surely? There is talk, I've heard it, but it seems to me that it comes mostly from here, and without proof. Without any kind of proof. Until proof is found, the talk must remain only talk, concocted from wishes and ambitions, not from facts.”
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