Volume Iii Part 28 (1/2)
”Yes,” said Adalgoth; ”you two complete each other like light and shade.”
”Our natures are, indeed, equally emotional and fiery,” said the King.
”If Witichis and Hildebad,” continued Teja, ”went the straight way with a steady pace, we two were borne, by our impatient enthusiasm, as if on wings. And being so congenial, though so different, it pains me that, in thy sunny bliss, thou seemest to think that any one who cannot laugh like thee is a sick fool! Oh, my King and friend! whoever has once experienced certain trials and woes, and conceived certain thoughts, has for ever lost the sweet art of laughter!”
Totila, filled with a deep sense of Teja's worth, answered:
”Whoever has fulfilled life's n.o.blest duties with a heroism equal to thine, my Teja, may be pitied, but not blamed, if he proudly scorns life's light pleasures.”
”And thou couldst think that I was envious of thy good fortune or thy cheerful humour? O Totila! it is not with envy, but with deep, deep sadness that I observe thee and thy hopefulness. As a child may excite our sadness who believes that suns.h.i.+ne, spring-time, and life endure for ever; who knows neither night, winter, nor death! Thou trustest that success and happiness will be the reward of the cheerful-hearted; but I for ever hear the flapping of the wings of Fate, who, deaf and merciless to curses, prayers, or thanks, sweeps high above the heads of poor mortals and their futile works.”
He ceased, and looked out into the darkness, as if he saw the shadow of the coming future.
”Yes, yes,” said the young cup-bearer, ”that reminds me of an old adage which Iffa sang in the mountain, and which means something like that; he had learnt it from Uncle Wargs:
”'Good fortune or bad Is not the world's aim; That is but vain folly, Imagined by men.
On the earth is fulfilled A Will everlasting.
Obedience, defiance-- They serve it alike.'
”But,” he continued thoughtfully, ”if, with all our exertions, we can never alter the inevitable, why do we move our hands at all? Why do we not wait for what shall come in dull inaction? In what lies the difference between hero and coward?”
”It does not lie in victory, my Adalgoth, but in the kind of strife or endurance! Not justice, but necessity decides the fate of nations.
Often enough has the better man, the n.o.bler race, succ.u.mbed to the meaner. 'Tis true that generosity and n.o.bility of mind are in themselves a power. But they are not always able to defy other and ign.o.ble powers. n.o.ble-mindedness, generosity, and heroism can always consecrate and glorify a downfall, but not always prevent it. And the only comfort we have is, that it is not _what_ we endure, but _how_ we endure it, that honours us the most; it is often not the victor, but the conquered hero, who deserves the crown of laurels.”
The King looked meditatively at the ground, leaning on his sword.
”How much thou must have suffered, friend,” he then said warmly, ”before thou couldst embrace such a dark error! Thou hast lost thy G.o.d in heaven! For me, that would be worse than to lose the sun in the sky--I should feel as if blinded. I could not breathe if I could not believe in a just G.o.d, who looks down from His heavenly throne upon the deeds of men, and makes the good cause to triumph!”
”And King Witichis?” asked Teja; ”what evil had he done? that man without spot or blemis.h.!.+ And I myself, and----”
He suddenly became silent.
”Thy life has been a mystery to me since our early youth----”
”Enough for the present,” said Teja. ”I have this evening revealed more of my inmost heart than in many a long year. The time will surely come when I may unfold to thee my life and my thoughts. I should not like,”
he continued, turning to Adalgoth, and stroking his s.h.i.+ning locks, ”to dim too soon the bright harp-strings of the youngest and best singer of our nation.”
”As thou wilt,” said the King, rising. ”To me thy sorrow is sacred.
But, I pray thee, let us cherish our refound friends.h.i.+p. To-morrow I go to Taginae, to my bride. Accompany me--that is, if it does not pain thee to see me happy with a Roman woman.”
”Oh no--it touches me--it reminds me of---- I will go with thee!”
CHAPTER II.
Soon after this conversation, the King, Earl Teja, Adalgoth, and a numerous suite, arrived at the small town of Taginae, above which, on a precipitous and thickly-wooded height, stood the cloister founded by Valerius, in which Valeria still continued to reside.
For her the place had lost all its terrors. She had become used to it, not only physically but morally. Slowly but surely, her reluctant soul was influenced by the grave authority of the sacred precincts.