Part 4 (1/2)

About half a mile away there was a slight hill, noticeable at once because it had a crown of trees. And the sandy-looking track that she had taken, when she saw it from the train, for a back lane into a farmer's field-that must be the road. Now she saw the low shapes of buildings here and there in the trees-and a water tower, which looked from this distance like a toy, a tin soldier on long legs.

She picked up her suitcase-this would not be too difficult; she had carried it, after all, from Exhibition Road to the other railway station-and set out.

There was a wind blowing, but this was a hot day-hotter than the weather she had left in Ontario-and the wind seemed hot as well. Over her new dress she was wearing her same old coat, which would have taken up too much room in the suitcase.

She looked with longing to the shade of the town ahead, but when she got there she found that the trees were either spruce, which were too tight and narrow to give much shade, or raggedy thin-leaved cottonwoods, which blew about and let the sun through anyway.

There was a discouraging lack of formality, or any sort of organization, to this place. No sidewalks, or paved streets, no imposing buildings except a big church like a brick barn. A - 40*

painting over its door, showing the Holy Family with clay-colored faces and staring blue eyes. It was named for an unheard-of saint-Saint Voytech.

The houses did not show much forethought in their situation or planning. They were set at different angles to the road, or street, and most of them had mean-looking little windows stuck here and there, with snow porches like boxes round the doors.

n.o.body was out in the yards, and why should they be? There was nothing to tend, only clumps of brown gra.s.s and once a big burst of rhubarb, gone to seed.

The main street, if that's what it was, had a raised wooden walk on one side only, and some unconsolidated buildings, of which a grocery store (containing the Post Office) and a garage seemed to be the only ones functioning. There was one two-story building that she thought might be the hotel, but it was a bank and it was closed.

The first human being she saw-though two dogs had barked at her-was a man in front of the garage, busy loading chains into the back of his truck.

”Hotel?” he said. ”You come too far.”

He told her that it was down by the station, on the other side of the tracks and along a bit, it was painted blue and you couldn't miss it.

She set the suitcase down, not from discouragement but because she had to have a moment's rest.

He said he would ride her down there if she wanted to wait a minute. And though it was a new kind of thing for her to accept such an offer, she soon found herself riding in the hot, greasy cab of his truck, rocking down the dirt road that she had just walked up, with the chains making a desperate racket in the back.

”So-where 'd you bring this heat wave from?” he said.

She said Ontario, in a tone that promised nothing further.

”Ontario,” he said regretfully. ”Well. There ' tis. Your hotel.”

He took one hand off the wheel. The truck gave an accompanying lurch as he waved to a two-story flat-roofed - 41*

building that she hadn't missed but had seen from the train, as they came in. She had taken it then for a large and fairly derelict, perhaps abandoned, family home. Now that she had seen the houses in town, she knew that she should not have dismissed it so readily. It was covered with sheets of tin stamped to look like bricks and painted a light blue. There was the one word HOTEL, in neon tubing, no longer lit, over the doorway.

”I am a dunce,” she said, and offered the man a dollar for the ride.

He laughed. ”Hang on to your money. You never know when you'll need it.”

Quite a decent-looking car, a Plymouth, was parked outside this hotel. It was very dirty, but how could you help that, with these roads?

There were signs on the door advertising a brand of cigarettes, and of beer. She waited till the truck had turned before she knocked-knocked because it didn't look as if the place could in any way be open for business. Then she tried the door to see if it was open, and walked into a little dusty room with a staircase, and then into a large dark room in which there was a billiard table and a bad smell of beer and an unswept floor.

Off in a side room she could see the glimmer of a mirror, empty shelves, a counter. These rooms had the blinds pulled tightly down. The only light she saw was coming through two small round windows, which turned out to be set in double swinging doors. She went on through these into a kitchen. It was lighter, because of a row of high-and dirty-windows, uncovered, in the opposite wall. And here were the first signs of life- somebody had been eating at the table and had left a plate smeared with dried ketchup and a cup half full of cold black coffee.

One of the doors off the kitchen led outside-this one was locked-and one to a pantry in which there were several cans of food, one to a broom closet, and one to an enclosed stairway. She climbed the steps, b.u.mping her suitcase along in front of her - 42*

because the s.p.a.ce was narrow. Straight ahead of her on the second floor she saw a toilet with the seat up.

The door of the bedroom at the end of the hall was open, and in there she found Ken Boudreau.

She saw his clothes before she saw him. His jacket hanging up on a corner of the door and his trousers on the doork.n.o.b, so that they trailed on the floor. She thought at once that this was no way to treat good clothes, so she went boldly into the room- leaving her suitcase in the hall-with the idea of hanging them up properly.

He was in bed, with only a sheet over him. The blanket and his s.h.i.+rt were lying on the floor. He was breathing restlessly as if about to wake up, so she said, ”Good morning. Afternoon.”

The bright sunlight was coming in the window, hitting him almost in the face. The window was closed and the air horribly stale-smelling, for one thing, of the full ashtray on the chair he used as a bed table.

He had bad habits-he smoked in bed.

He did not wake up at her voice-or he woke only part way.

He began to cough.

She recognized this as a serious cough, a sick man's cough.

He struggled to lift himself up, still with his eyes closed, and she went over to the bed and hoisted him. She looked for a handkerchief or a box of tissues, but she saw nothing so she reached for his s.h.i.+rt on the floor, which she could wash later. She wanted to get a good look at what he spat up.

When he had hacked up enough, he muttered and sank down into the bed, gasping, the charming c.o.c.ky-looking face she remembered crumpled up in disgust. She knew from the feel of him that he had a fever.

The stuff that he had coughed out was greenish-yellow-no rusty streaks. She carried the s.h.i.+rt to the toilet sink, where rather to her surprise she found a bar of soap, and washed it out and hung it on the door hook, then thoroughly washed her hands.

She had to dry them on the skirt of her new brown dress. She - 43*

had put that on in another little toilet-the Ladies on the train- not more than a couple of hours ago. She had been wondering then if she should have got some makeup.

In a hall closet she found a roll of toilet paper and took it into his room for the next time he had to cough. She picked up the blanket and covered him well, pulled the blind down to the sill and raised the stiff window an inch or two, propping it open with the ashtray she had emptied. Then she changed, out in the hall, from the brown dress into old clothes from her suitcase. A lot of use a nice dress or any makeup in the world would be now, in these surroundings.

She was not sure how sick he was, but she had nursed Mrs.

Willets-also a heavy smoker-through several bouts of bronchitis, and she thought she could manage for a while without having to think about getting a doctor. In the same hall closet was a pile of clean, though worn and faded, towels, and she wet one of these and wiped his arms and legs, to try to get his fever down. He came half awake at this and began to cough again. She held him up and made him spit into the toilet paper, examined it once more and threw it down the toilet and washed her hands. She had a towel now to dry them on. She went downstairs and found a gla.s.s in the kitchen, also an empty, large ginger-ale bottle, which she filled with water. This she attempted to make him drink. He took a little, protested, and she let him lie down. In five minutes or so she tried again. She kept doing this until she believed he had swallowed as much as he could hold without throwing up.

Time and again he coughed and she lifted him up, held him with one arm while the other hand pounded on his back to help loosen the load in his chest. He opened his eyes several times and seemed to take in her presence without alarm or surprise-or grat.i.tude, for that matter. She sponged him once more, being careful to cover immediately with the blanket the part that had just been cooled.

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She noticed that it had begun to get dark, and she went down into the kitchen, found the light switch. The lights and the old electric stove were working. She opened and heated a can of chicken-with-rice soup, carried it upstairs and roused him. He swallowed a little from the spoon. She took advantage of his momentary wakefulness to ask if he had a bottle of aspirin. He nodded yes, then became very confused when trying to tell her where. ”In the wastebasket,” he said.

”No, no,” she said. ”You don't mean wastebasket.”

”In the-in the-”

He tried to shape something with his hands. Tears came into his eyes.

”Never mind,” Johanna said. ”Never mind.”

His fever went down anyway. He slept for an hour or more without coughing. Then he grew hot again. By that time she had found the aspirin-they were in a kitchen drawer with such things as a screwdriver and some lightbulbs and a ball of twine- and she got a couple into him. Soon he had a violent coughing fit, but she didn't think he threw them up. When he lay down she put her ear to his chest and listened to the wheezing. She had already looked for mustard to make a plaster with, but apparently there wasn't any. She went downstairs again and heated some water and brought it in a basin. She tried to make him lean over it, tenting him with towels, so that he could breathe the steam.

He would cooperate only for a moment or so, but perhaps it helped-he hacked up quant.i.ties of phlegm.