Part 29 (1/2)

After going to dinner and then Club 78 at 78 Rue so and I called Jon Gould at Paramount Pictures in LA when I was drunk and I think I said a lot of wrong things

Monday, April 6, 1981-Paris Saw the Christian Dior show and the Valentino show With the ay, and all the really gay-looking ht And Christopher and I decided that we should start telling people that despite hoe look and talk, that we're not gay Because then they don't knohat to do with you

Wednesday, April 8, 1981-Vienna I got up early I'd dreamt about Billy Na under the stairs atwas very colorful It was so weird, because his friends sort of invadedcrazy in colorful costu so much fun and they took over, they took over my life It was so weird It was like clowns Everybody was a clown in a funny way, and they were just living there without lettingwhen I wasn't there and they'd have a lot of fun and then they'd go back and live in the closet And so I got up and Christopher had left all the lights on, and the ere open and it was very beautiful

Went to hunt for the loden coat I was trying to buy for Jon Gould And Bruno Bischofberger said the best loden coats were in Zurich and Fred said the best were in Paris But I think the best ones are in Vienna

Then we had to old records and he owns all these paintings and wantsus down underground to show us dead people who're petrified and they're all in their eighteenth-century clothes Fred said it et ideas there

So we ave us about twenty boxes of candy Then ent down into the catacombs and we had to oooh and ahh at all the dead bodies, and it was really cold down there and he'd made us leave our candy behind and we didn't want to do that but we did, and this place was just hateful I hated it a lot Fred loved it

Then Bruno took us back to the hotel Fred wanted to go for another walk, but Christopher wanted to go cruising in the park, so we just threw our stuff down and walked the whole park and that was good exercise

Thursday, April 9, 1981-Vienna Bruno ca at 10:30 at the ministry with the lady Minister of Culture in Vienna We met the curator of my Reversals show at the Vienna Museuet his naues that they printed for the Reversal shohich are really long and slim Then ent to the hotel and freshened up before the show at 6:00 I talked to Vincent in New York and he said my headsheet had come in from Zoli Have I told the Diary I've decided to becoht-he thinks I' I want to do so I ignored hiot to the museum and it was an unbelievable crush, open to the public, and I'd never been in Vienna before so this was ”See Andy now or you'll never see hin shoes and asses, and I didn't even look up once

Then finally Christopher couldn't stand it anymore and said that we had to leave, so we ran out past all the TV people and jumped into the car and it took us to a Viennese restaurant where we had hot dogs Then to a great club called Chaca-all young, good-looking kids Tangos and old Elvis songs and it was just the greatest

Chris and I took this adorable boy, Martin, back to the hotel We got hiot him to take his pants off, too, and he had the craziest sort of Op Art underwear on and we took pictures and he did the best poses and then we gave hi I've learned fro, they just do it Especially models and actors And then I saw a Telex from Jon Gould, he's back in New York, and it was a really nice note and then I felt great

Monday, April 13, 1981- Paris-New York I'd packed till 2:30 in the ood sound sleep Then Fred was knocking at o Chris is just the perfect co I've ever wanted He's pushy but then he's not pushy And he's a child And he goes off to sex parties and comes back satisfied with his pipes cleaned, and he's so in love with his lover, Peter, he's really considerate, and when he goes places he can't wait to leave-just like h he's now gothis his knapsack, I don'tI've offered Chris a reward-this wristwatch he wants-if he can get Jon Gould to fall for e, he tells ay, that he can'tbut Iand heI've offered Chris a reward-this wristwatch he wants-if he can get Jon Gould to fall for e, he tells ay, that he can'tbut I ot home at 9 AM AM on the dot I called Jon Gould and he said he couldn't talk, his tub was overflowing

Cabbed (4) don Talked to Marc Balet, he was at the office, he designed the Zoli agency book that I'ot some job offers, I'an came to work And then I looked out theand I saw Ron walking along the street alone and he earing bright red, and I mean, if I could pick hi was, she said, ”There's three Secret Service in the front and four in the back” They walked up the stairs because the elevator was broken

And then I wanted to see Barbara Stanwyck that night at Lincoln Center, she was getting the Film Society annual award, and so I called Sue Salter the publicist and she was just rotten She said, ”Oh my dear, they're all sold out,” and I told her, you know, ”We've really done so much for you,” and she said she would try to find one ticket, but that I would have to pay, and that she could get me two tickets but that they would cost 250, so I said, ”That'll be just fine” At least now they can't askto do is always pay, and then they can't ask you for a thing But last year they gave me free tickets

Jon Gould asked me to pick him up so Chris Makos and I did We walked over to Alice Tully Hall and there were a lot of e Sue Salter down to ood, row J And the Barbara Stanwyck clips were great, although at the end it got boring because they used the same ones too much At 11:30 Chris dropped me off

Tuesday, April 14, 1981 Worked till 5:30 Jon Gould invited iving for his crowd Cabbed to Paramount (7) Lady McCrady and Jonathan Roberts were there, and Katy Dobbs as also in that Radcliffe publishi+ng course that all those kids took that he was giving for his crowd Cabbed to Paramount (7) Lady McCrady and Jonathan Roberts were there, and Katy Dobbs as also in that Radcliffe publishi+ng course that all those kids took

And I ran into a guy who'd seen my picture in the Zoli book and offeredthousands for endorsing products, not working forfees But I think it's funny to be just another pretty face in the Zoli book I told hihten up

Wednesday, April 15, 1981 Had a sleepless night Watched the astronauts co back on the shuttle on the Today Show Today Show They're really cute Did you ever notice how old they look after the space flights? They send up these good-looking guys and get back these tired-looking people

Went up to Carl Fischer's forup And they were talking about the other artists they'd like to get for the series, they mentioned Duchamp and Picasso Seriously I honestly don't think they knew they were dead Maurice Sendak was the only other live one they mentioned besides me And Peter Max

And they had some food in another roo in eating cheese and saying things like, ”This is a good spread,” things that sound just like the commercials And people really do talk that way, they really are like ad people

Everyone was telling me hoonnnnnnderful I looked thin, but I feel so weak

Went to Xenon and that was fun I irl, Maura, and her roohter-her mother's a Mellon And then hs) (laughs) I kneas time to leave I kneas time to leave

Thursday, April 16, 1981 Got up early and it looked beautiful out, but I'm in this period where I think, What is it all about? You do this and what does it mean, and you do that and what does it mean? What is it all about? You do this and what does it mean, and you do that and what does itthe Diary aboutall the fights with Jed and heabout it, and now I' alone and in a way I' house with just Nena and Aurora and Archie and AAnd then I decide that I should try to fall in love, and that's what I' noith Jon Gould, but then it's just too hard I mean, you think about a person constantly and it's just a fantasy, it's not real, and then it gets so involved, you have to see them all the ti else, so I don't know But Jon is a good person to be in love with because he has his own career, and I can develop movie ideas with him, you know? And maybe he can even convince Paraht? So ood for business

Oh, and theLou Reed on the street in the Village with his wife She's nothing special, just a little sexy girl I told hi about him in People People and I asked him why he doesn't come over and see us, and he said it's because he doesn't know any of the people anymore, and then he asked if Ronnie was still around, and I said yes, and then if Vincent was still around, and I said yes, and if PH was still around, and I said yes, so it was funny Went home and I asked him why he doesn't come over and see us, and he said it's because he doesn't know any of the people anymore, and then he asked if Ronnie was still around, and I said yes, and then if Vincent was still around, and I said yes, and if PH was still around, and I said yes, so it was funny Went home

I cooked an early Easter dinner and it smelled like the old days when PH used to coe with caraway seeds and onions Jon was a little late because he had to go to Macy's to return soht ave hi like crazy that it could all be his, that there was a room with his name on it

Then ent to see Excalibur Excalibur The sex scenes were a little corny but beautifully done He had his ar sex And then the focus was so soft And I was so confused, I always thought Camelot was a real place So after the iven Jon a rabbit puppet and he aving at people with it He's going to his family's house in Massachusetts for Easter

Friday, April 17, 1981 I was depressed, I decided to pass out Interviews Interviews After I did that I went to the office and I ran into the Moynihan girl, Maura, as arriving two days late for lunch (cab 5) And now that the Soho News Soho News had Dominique Sanda on its cover this week, it'd be too tacky to have her as our cover girl, so irl as our cover because she's cute and smart-she went to Harvard-and she has a rock band had Dominique Sanda on its cover this week, it'd be too tacky to have her as our cover girl, so irl as our cover because she's cute and smart-she went to Harvard-and she has a rock band

Chris Makos called me from Palm Beach where it was so sunny and he ith his boyfriend Peter and that depressed otten there

Worked till 6:30 Rupert invited me to an all-boy party on Bleecker Street, but I was too depressed Ate at the Brasserie (40) Went home lonely and despondent because nobody loves me and it's Easter, and I cried

Saturday, April 18, 1981 Chris Makos had called me at 9:00 froain I'm up to ten pushups but my situps are really bad I moped around, my mind was somewhere else Started work at 12:30 and worked till 7:00 Rupert got thirty calls and I didn't get one

Picked up John Reinhold and ent to meet Tom Baker at the Playhouse on West 48th Street to see Sylvia Miles's one-woman show (cab 5, tickets 45) The sets were done well, it was a reproduction of her apartment, it had my Marilyn and the play e and Sylvia had telegrams up and flowers and posters and that's just the kind of thing she loves, and I was so e like that for her, I'll have to send her chane Then we dropped John Reinhold at houilty because it was Passover Tom and I talked about Jiirls and then Jim would pass out and he'd have to fuck them all Stayed till 4:00 Cab dropped Tom (5)

Sunday, April 19, 1981 Easter I was in a really depressed s for the day I cried three tio to church

Monday, April 20, 1981 The weather was slightly coolish so I had on a jacket and my backpack Vincent talked to our landlord at 860 and he said the fifth floor that's vacant rents for 7,500 a month! We pay about 2,300 for our floor, so IWe needWe need more room for Interview Interview and rents are ridiculous And when our lease is up, ours'll really go up, too and rents are ridiculous And when our lease is up, ours'll really go up, too

Janet Villella called and said she'd pickat Lincoln Center

Suzie Frankfurt called and said that they foreclosed on John Samuels's father's 79th Street house It was sold on the courthouse steps to the Brazilians

Tried to find my black tie Janet pickedthat happened at the ballet was this woman came over and said, ”Hi, do you knoho I am?” and I said no, and she said, ”Lila Davies” I went to school with her at Carnegie Tech, and she was one of the people e all lived together with on 103rd Street in the fifties She had her eighteen-year-old son with her They live in Cleveland And then I felt old, because her son looked like she did when I knew her I felt old and grey and tired and out of it And I invited her to lunch at the office And now I've been thinking that allall these young kids just budding So I've pinpointed the problem

Godunov sprained his back so he was out, and Gelsey Kirkland was really good Then Misha did ”Push Comes to Shove” and everybody loved that because he's a star Afterward they were having a free dinner across the way Sondra and Chris Gilarde was there She's in the autograph business now and when I told her how ned a day she said to stop ined a day she said to stop inature will be worthless

Tuesday, April 21, 1981 They just found another body in the Atlanta killings, the twenty-fifth, I think And I was thinking about it: If I had a little kid and she was o out and kill the person myself, even if I landed in jail I would do that I'm sure of it It's just incredible that they don't have any clues at all in twenty-five id had invited Rod McKuen to lunch, he used to sleep on her sofa when he was broke He just moved to town and he called her up She went to Balducci's and was really putting on the dog So we sat there and had lunch and gee, I tried to figure out as fascinating about hi, and I just couldn't

And John Wallowitch called I raved to hi the piano on cable TV, and I told hi to tell me that his brother Eddie, o-that he just went down to Florida to visit Eddie and found hione off AA and had a fit He always got depressed and I never knehy because he was good-looking and he was a photographer John didn't want to look at the body, so a friend came over and identified it

I went to Ashton Hawkins's dinner at 17 East 89th Street, hborhood, so it made me feel funny The real howdy-doody heavy duties were there-Brooke Astor, Laurance Rockefeller, Alice Arlen And Mike Nichols's hair, I don't think it's fake, it looks so great, so really great Ashton had a rent-a-maid, one of those old Irish types like from Schrafft's, the cute Irish ladies with the dykey Vassar haircuts in black unifor to save the South Bronx-the old people and the poor people Mary McFadden was there with her escort, Stephen Paley, and Iabout her divorce, about the guy stealing all her stuff I said, ”You look pretty,” and she said, ”I'o out and buy herself a new Yves St Laurent dress and she started to hit

Then I asked her if she wanted to arm wrestle and we did and then she started to like e I felt bad because I think I hurt her hand

Went home I called Jon Gould at the Beverly Wilshi+re Then I went to bed and had the lass of brandy and a Valium

Wednesday, April 22, 1981 Didn't sleep well, I'll have to stop drinking so much coffee and just eat more healthy food and cut out liquor, too I did ht and eight situps

Lila Davies called and cancelled co to lunch because she had tickets to Amadeus Amadeus

Friday, April 24, 1981 Passed out Interviews Interviews thisHad to meet Donald Trump at the office (cab 550) Marc Balet had set up this ave up architecture to become an art director, but he still builds ue for all the stores in the atrium at the Trump Tower and he told Donald Tru over the entrance to the residential part So they caood-looking A girl nae, these people are so rich They talked about buying a building yesterday for 500They raved about the Balducci's lunch, but they just picked at it I guess because they go around to so s where there's food And they didn't have drinks, they all just had Tabs He's a butch guy Nothing was settled, but I's, anyway, and show the Had to meet Donald Trump at the office (cab 550) Marc Balet had set up this ave up architecture to become an art director, but he still builds ue for all the stores in the atrium at the Trump Tower and he told Donald Tru over the entrance to the residential part So they caood-looking A girl nae, these people are so rich They talked about buying a building yesterday for 500They raved about the Balducci's lunch, but they just picked at it I guess because they go around to so s where there's food And they didn't have drinks, they all just had Tabs He's a butch guy Nothing was settled, but I's, anyway, and show them to them