Part 8 (1/2)
”Why the hurry?” Nelly had asked. ”Why this sudden change in mind? I have no time to prepare your father. An Mei, have you really thought it through? It is not just about love and being with Hussein. It is also about giving up all that you have worked for, including your family, culture, religion...”
”Yes, yes, I have. We have been through it all. I promised that I would give him up if he did not marry me. But now that he has proposed... Aunt Nelly! You did say that you would help turn father around if we were to marry.”
”But not suddenly. Can't you wait? Give me time to prepare him.”
”I can't. Hussein, even his parents, seems to be suddenly anxious that we get on with the marriage.”
Nelly had then sat down in the armchair, giving out a sigh so loud it seemed that all the air had been forced out of her. She sat deflated, defeat etched deeply into every feature of her face, both hands at her temple. ”Yes, I did promise you. I suppose, now is as good a time as any if we are to do everything in a rush.” She had then got up and walked over to the phone. She moved slowly, her steps heavy as if weighed down by her legs. The ten or so feet pa.s.sage to the study seemed to be a major excursion. Eventually she had reached the phone, picked it up and dialled.
”h.e.l.lo, Ming Kong? This is Nelly. I have something to tell you.”
An Mei had kept very still. Smatterings of loud curses filtered through to her. She could see from the doorway her aunt's face, wan and apologetic. She could see her opening her mouth to try to explain the situation only to close it again as the tirade over the phone continued. Her fingers and knuckles grew white with clutching the phone. Still the rant continued. Finally, Nelly had put the phone down. ”He does not wish to see you. He said that we have deceived him and that he will never forgive us. He blamed me.”
Except for one occasion when An Mei was a small child, Nelly had never cried in front of her. That evening she did. Her face crumpled and she dissolved into tears that rolled down tracking the lines and planes of her cheeks. ”Your father blamed me,” she repeated. ”I have failed him. I am to be blamed.”
An Mei came out of her reverie. From her dais, she looked across the gathering at Nelly. She smiled and Nelly smiled in return. With an imperceptible nod of her head, Nelly gestured and mouthed, ”I love you. You look beautiful. Everything will be all right. Don't worry.”
The wedding was over. The guests had all left, including Nelly who, unlike Hussein's other family members, had not been invited to stay. An Mei had wanted a quiet moment with her aunt but there was no opportunity. The ceremony had gone on and on, and she felt herself glued to the dais like a doll on display. In her mind, the wedding had been surreal; the music, the recitations, the formality, the guests she did not know or recognise. She felt disconnected from it all. She was ushered like a puppet on a string through each stage. She felt like an onlooker even up to the moment of their departure for the honeymoon.
”Look after yourself,” Faridah said, embracing Hussein tightly, her back to An Mei. ”We will see you back here in a week.”
They were standing just outside the residence doorway, at the top of the flight of steps that descended down to a magnificent domed portico. A fleet of black limousines were lined up waiting like a row of s.h.i.+ny black beetles, their polished coachwork reflecting the splendid livery of the chauffeurs and attending valets.
”No, Mak, a fortnight,” Hussein reminded her.
”And call us,” Rahim added. ”We have work to do. Come back here. I don't want you to go to KL.”
They did not look at An Mei. It was as though she did not exist. She stood aside, alone, looking on. She wondered where her aunt Nelly was and wished she was there with her.
An Mei waited until Hussein's farewell to his parents ended. She stepped forward hesitantly and bowed. ”Good bye, Mak, Pak,” she said, following Hussein's informal address of his parents. She was not sure if she should embrace them. She stood with both her arms limp by her side. They did not look as they though they wanted to be embraced by her. They looked forbidding.
Faridah turned away pointedly as though she had been insulted. Rahim replied with a curt nod, his eyes sweeping over her summarily. He saw her hurt and his face softened momentarily. ”Selamat jalan, safe journey,” he said.
”Jangan beri dia muka! Don't give her face!” An Mei heard Faridah reprimand her husband. She turned to face An Mei and for just once that evening looked at her.
”Just remember to behave like a good Muslim girl. And keep your hijab on in public. We do not want you to flaunt your face in public.”
An Mei, stung by the remark, stepped back. A blush spread from her neck to her cheeks, colouring them as though she had been slapped.
”Mother, the hijab is not compulsory. Lots of women, even those in high office, don't necessarily wear them,” protested Hussein.
”Well, we do. On the east coast, we do.”
”Come,” Hussein said to An Mei, ”let's go.” He took her hand and guided her down the steps to the waiting Mercedes. ”Don't worry. Give them time. Mother is deliberately taunting you. The etiquette is not as alarming as she makes it out to be.”
Faridah overheard him. She shouted to their departing backs, ”If you aim to be in high office, it is exactly as daunting as I say.”
Chapter 18.
An Mei got out of the pool and made her way to the sun lounger. She sat down and draped a robe around herself. The brilliant white of the robe stood out in sharp contrast to the azure-blue water behind her. She had swum about ten laps. Invigorated, she raised her face to the sun and sighed. ”I'm so happy. And you?” she asked turning to her husband.
He was lying on his back on the lounger next to hers, his lanky body half-sprawled, his brown legs placed carelessly on the rolled up towels at the tip of the extended chair. His hair had grown out during the two weeks of the honeymoon.
”Of course,” he answered, with a smile. ”You swim well.”
”Yes, I had a lot of practice in Oxford. Casey and I used to go to the Oxford City Swimming Club at the Temple Cowley Pool. She introduced me to sports and I have tried to keep at it whenever I can.”
”You can certainly keep it up here. No problem,” he a.s.sured her. He traced his fingers gently on her arm, drumming little b.u.t.terfly tattoos.
”I know. But we are in Bangkok and this is the Dusit Thani Hotel.” She looked around the pool and at the people perched or sprawled on the towel-covered loungers. Drifts of English, American, Australian and the occasional German conversation reached her ears. ”But what about when I am back home?”
He looked away. Two deep furrows appeared on his forehead. ”Let's not talk about it on the last day of our honeymoon.”
”But we must.”
”Before I went to Oxford. I do not recall that there were problems with girls swimming in public pools in Malaysia,” said Hussein. ”Perhaps I took it for granted. I did not consider a girl by her race. They were all girls and if they swam, they swam. Apparently things have changed quite a bit, perhaps not so much in Kuala Lumpur but back home in Kemun, it is definitely more conservative, particularly so for Muslims.”
”So? Does it mean that I will always have to wear the hijab? Does it mean that I must not swim because a swimsuit is considered indecent or play netball because I would be wearing shorts?” An Mei shuddered. Faridah's words still haunted her.
”Perhaps, we will have to be careful when we are with my parents but you would probably be fine in KL. The conservative dress mode has still to catch on there. People generally wear what they want.” He swallowed hard as he said those words, remembering his mother's caution: ”You are expected to be a good Muslim, pray five times a day, and your wife as well. Modesty is the most important thing for a woman and your wife should best follow my example.”
”What about when I go to my office? Can I wear skirts, an office suit, like I did before?”
”Perhaps, if they are long, to the ankle, like the Baju Melayu,” teased Hussein, tapping her foot with his own. He wanted to lighten her mood and not spoil the last day of the honeymoon with a discussion of how a Muslim woman was expected to dress. He had not given much thought to clothes until An Mei reminded him. He did not consider it an important issue.
”But do you still want to continue working? I had thought that you would give it up,” he continued.
An Mei looked at him in surprise. She had taken it for granted that she would continue to work. When they were in Oxford, they had always discussed the careers that they had in mind. She reached out and tapped him playfully on the shoulder. ”You are pulling my leg. You are, aren't you? Of course, I want to work. You have never said I should give it up. What about you? Are you going to continue to work?”
”Of course! Didn't you hear my father? He has already set up a rota of meetings for me immediately on our return.”
”Well then.”
”Work if you wish. I just thought that you might want to be with me and support me in my role as a budding politician,” he countered. He grinned and she smiled in response, but in those few minutes both saw the chasm that separated them.
”It will be alright,” he a.s.sured her again. ”It would be good for you to continue working because I will be busy myself. Let's take things as they come and not spoil this last day with worries about the future.” He leaned over and kissed her. ”Come,” he said, drawing her to her feet, ”siesta time.” He grinned.