Chapter 39: That was my dream once (2/2)

”Because I am not an ordinary human, the rules applied to me too.” He lifts my chin to meet his eyes. ”Eight years ago, I thought that I was the reason why you killed yourself. I wandered the streets to find your soul. I even learned the shaman art to see you again once more.”

I am shocked. Even in this life, he took the same path. ”Why...I asked you to live an ordinary life...didn't you want that too?”

”That was my dream once.” He appears to be lost and haunted as if recalling a nightmare.

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[Eight years ago]

Park In Ha is sitting across Sung Jun. His eyes are empty and dead. There is no will to live in his eyes. He doesn't even look at her when Park In Ha shows him an envelope.

”Your father sent this.” She is uneasy to see him like this. She is missing his bright smile. His soft but firm voice. The way his eyes twinkles each time he smiles genuinely. Even his passive coldness toward her. He never said the words, but Park In Ha knows that Sung Jun didn't like her.

She was fine but now...she sees him heartbroken and lost. Like he has lost something precious.

What kind of woman was Fang Aisa? It has been three months since she died. From what she heard from the people at school, they were not together for long. Fang Aisa was an illegitimate child. Her mother died when she was born. On top of it, she didn't have the background or looks to be Sung Jun's equal. Compared to her, Park In Ha is better. She is the top student. She is from an elite family like Sung Jun. She might not be extraordinary like Sung Jun when it comes to the spiritual powers, but she is still the youngest female exorcist of her generation. Everyone thinks that she is perfect for him.

Except him, of course.

Fang Aisa even harassed him. She ruined his reputation in both the human and supernatural worlds.

Then, why is he still thinking about her? He didn't even glance at her. He didn't close the door on her face when she turned up. He is treating her like...he isn't even seeing her.

Instead, she is seeing longing and grief in his eyes. Pain. Each moment of life is heavy for him.

When his father asked her to go to him, she was elated. Now, she doesn't know. Before he comes here, there was no woman in his life who could make him show this expression. She was fine with that. If there was no woman, she could still find a place. He didn't have to love her. It's fine if she was with him.

Now, how can she accept this?