Part 28 (2/2)

”I don't know what you mean by love.” Her voice was carefully toneless.

Philip's eyes lighted. ”Don't you want me here beside you? Don't you warm to my kisses? Isn't there an awakened tenderness in you at my touch? Isn't there, dearest?”

Claire's hands moved nervously up and down the edge of the comforter.

”If I should stay here with you, that would be the highest proof that I loved you, wouldn't it?”

”What else?” He looked at her, hope giving his face a renewed glow.

Was that all that love meant to him? ”Is that what your years of thought have taught you?” she said aloud.

”Why, yes, Claire, the return of pa.s.sion for pa.s.sion, of warmth for warmth, of tenderness for tenderness, must be the last test, mustn't it?”

Despite her resolution her eyes narrowed ironically.

Philip started, and stared at her.

”Would you ever be jealous of my husband?” she asked, slowly.

His head dropped. ”No--and yes. Of course, I wish he hadn't been your husband, but we can't help what fate has decreed.” He raised his eyes, and then suddenly he smiled. ”Claire, is it because of him that you are unwilling to tell me you love me?” he asked softly. ”I think I can understand. You'll have to be freed from him in some way, and we must be married, of course.”

”I am free from him. To him, I am dead. Isn't that enough?”

”Yes,” he answered judiciously, ”if your own conscience is satisfied.”

She smiled a little, her eyebrows lifting in amus.e.m.e.nt. ”Oh, my own conscience dictates my every act, Philip.”

”I know it does,” he agreed, earnestly. ”But your lips were cold to my kiss.” He bent over to test the truth of his remark.

”Do you forget Lawrence so easily?” Claire raised a hand over her face.

”Certainly I cannot.”

”I beg your pardon,” Philip said, rising hastily. ”Of course he is to be remembered. We will wait until we are alone to talk of our future.”

”Yes,” she said. ”I should prefer that greatly.”

He touched his lips to her forehead tenderly, then stepped silently into the room beyond.

She heard him as he moved quietly to replenish the fire, and it seemed to her that he made enough noise to echo from the mountains across the lake. She must think her situation through. She was studying the look she had read on Philip's face, and was angry with herself, yet she could not help thinking of it and its meaning. Suddenly she remembered the same expression on her husband's face, and she shuddered. She had thought it beautiful then, why not now? And why should she be so contemptuous when probably the same look had been in her own eyes when she had raged at Lawrence because he had not taken her in his arms.

Philip was sitting out there beyond the curtain dreaming ecstatically of the days when they would be alone in the cabin, and she smiled ironically. After all, there was but one way out. He would find little comfort in her ghost, and her drowned body would scarcely fire him to pa.s.sion.

She rose and slipped out into the room. Lawrence was still asleep. She did not even glance toward Philip because she foresaw his look of proprietors.h.i.+p. She went straight to Lawrence, and bending over him as if to arrange something about his blanket, she whispered softly: ”Beloved, when I am alone with him, I shall be more with you.”

Philip came and stood beside her, his hand resting lightly on her shoulder.

”It looks like a serious fever,” he said softly.

Claire listened to Lawrence's breathing and felt his temperature. She stood up, gray with anxiety. ”I'm afraid for him,” she said, and there was that in her voice which Philip did not understand.

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