Part 5 (2/2)

She was silent and watched him as he lay on his back, dreaming of days at home with his work. As he lay there, she studied his hands. They were practically healed, and she noticed they were well-shaped, the fingers long and tapering, yet with an appearance of unusual strength.

She knew already that they were sensitive; when he had cut out a piece of wood to heat water in, she had seen that. So they were sculptor's hands. What a revelation, and what a pity that he was blind! She fell to wondering if he really was good at his work, or whether he merely fancied he was and hewed away without real artistry, deceived by his blindness. She studied his face in repose. Then her mind came back to his hands, and she felt a sudden sense of displeasure, a little chagrin, and some wonder, accompanied by the feeling that she wished he had not carried her. She did not quite know why, yet the dependence on him made her restless. Suddenly she wondered poignantly what he thought of her.

The more she wondered, the more she wanted to know, and at last she ventured, ”Are you asleep?”

”No, dreaming.”

”Lawrence.”

”What is it?” He sat up and waited.

”What do you think of me?” She was surprised to find herself waiting eagerly for his answer.

He laughed outright, a gay, hearty laugh.

”Claire,” he said merrily, ”you embarra.s.s me dreadfully. You see, I haven't thought much about you. However, if you like, I'll study you for a week and report.”

Hot anger surged up in her. ”You needn't bother,” she said dryly. ”Our lives are so utterly different in every phase that nothing could be gained.”

He lay back carelessly. ”So I had decided,” he replied, and lapsed into silence again.

She could have cried with vexation. For the first time in her life Claire was utterly humiliated, and there grew within her an aggressive dislike for this man, a determination to make him feel her power and to punish him for his indifference. She did not want him to love her, by any means, but he had never even shown her the courteous deference, the admiration or regard that she was accustomed to receive from men. Her mind went back over the past week, and she grew more humiliated, more angry. Tears of vexation came to her eyes, but she brushed them away fiercely.

”Shall we take the remains of our meat and move on toward the habitats of men?” said Lawrence, sitting up.

She controlled herself to answer, ”As you please.”

He stooped to lift her into his arms. She flushed warm as his hands slipped under her, and he straightened up. She hesitated, and wanted not to do it, but realized the necessity, and put her arm around his neck.

”I shall be grateful when I can walk,” was her comment.

”It will make our progress more rapid,” he agreed, and she was angry again. She knew that he thought only in terms of the most efficient means of getting ahead. A longing possessed her to make him realize that he was physically distasteful to her.

”We are so vastly different,” she said, ”it is disagreeable to be carried this way.”

Lawrence flushed, and she was pleased. At least he understood now.

”Of course,” he admitted calmly, ”it isn't pleasant, but I suppose one must make the best of a bad bargain.”

There was silence for a while, then he said suddenly, ”I think I realize, Claire, that a blind man is at best a poor companion for a woman who is accustomed to being amused, and whose interests are those of the society glow-worm.”

Claire resented the picture, but she kept her voice steady. ”Surely at home you had your own social group,” she said pleasantly.

”Of a sort, yes. We were all workers, not going in much for form, entertainment, and that sort of thing. We generally sat in the gallery at the opera, and did mostly as we pleased everywhere. None of us were rolling in wealth. We worked for the love of it, and looked to the future for pay.”

”I see.” She was thinking fast. ”You were struggling young artists.” Her voice was sugar-coated.

”We were struggling young artizans,” he answered, seemingly indifferent to her irony.

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