Volume VI Part 88 (1/2)
After this the poorto take our dinner I asked hiion would not allow his, fruit, and soe he had in his pocket He only drank water because he was not sure that the as unadulterated
”You stupid fellow,” I exclaimed, ”how can you ever be certain of the purity of wine unless you have ain he said that if I liked to come and stay with him, and to content myself with such dishes as God had not forbidden, he would make me more comfortable than if I went to the inn, and at a cheaper rate
”Then you let lodgings to Christians?”
”I don't let lodgings to anybody, but I will make an exception in your case to disabuse you of some of your ive you two good ivefor them as extras”
”Certainly; I have a Christian cook, and ”
”You can give ras every day, if you will eat it with me”
”I knohat you think, but you shall be satisfied”
I got down at the Jew's house, wondering at myself as I did so However, I knew that if I did not like my accommodation I could leave the next day
His wife and children aiting for hiave him a joyful welcome in honour of the Sabbath All servile as forbidden on this day holy to the Lord; and all over the house, and in the face of all the family, I observed a kind of festal air
I elcomed like a brother, and I replied as best I could; but a word froed their politeness of feeling into a politeness of interest
Mardocheus shewed me two roo them both I said I would take the two for another paul a day, hich arrangeh pleased
Mardocheus told his e had settled, and she instructed the Christian servant to cook my supper for me
I had my effects taken upstairs, and then ith Mardocheus to the synagogue
During the short service the Jews paid no attention to o to the synagogue to pray, and in this respect I think their conduct worthy of iue I went byover the happy time which would never return
It was in Ancona that I had begun to enjoy life; and when I thought it over, it was quite a shock to find that this was thirty years ago, for thirty years is a long period in a man's life And yet I felt quite happy, in spite of the tenth lustrum so near at hand for me
What a difference I found between nize myself I was then happy, but now unhappy; then all the world was before eous dreaed to confess that ht live twenty years more, but I felt that the happy time was passed away, and the future seemed all dreary
I reckoned up my forty-seven years, and saw fortune fly away This in itself was enough to sadden me, for without the favours of the fickle Goddess life was not worth living, for me at all events
My object, then, was to return to led to undo all that I had done All I could hope for was to soften the hardshi+ps of the slow but certain passage to the grave
These are the thoughts of declining years and not of youth The young man looks only to the present, believes that the sky will always shs at philosophy as it vainly preaches of old age, misery, repentance, and, worst of all, abhorred death
Such were o; what must they be nohen I am all alone, poor, despised, and impotent They would kill ood or illOf what use are desires when one can no longer satisfy the Whether I write sense or nonsense, what h