Chapter 347 - Title *secret* (1/2)

Rain falls like God's own poetry, each drop like a letter in a song that's singing the tale of love. And with it came the earthy fragrance. Natural. Soothing. Calming. The melody and the fragrance bring serenity as the two love birds untangled the chaos of their life. Blessed by the God. Witnessed by the heavens.

”Why, Suyin?” Wang Shi held his breath as he lifted his eyes to meet hers. Beautiful. Deep. Yet so unsure. ”Why do you want me? What exactly changed?”

”I changed,” Suyin said. ”I thought I was doing right by staying away from you until I came to know mom isn't with dad because of me. She knew already what Qi Wren did to me, and still holds dad responsible for getting me married to that monster. Or maybe she thinks it would be unfair to me if she gets back with dad. Just whatever it is-- her reasons are all related to me.”

”Just like yours is related to Honey?”

”Yes. And I realized how baseless they are. She loves dad, yet she's stopping herself just like me.”

”So you love me?”

”Argh,” She tucked her hair in anger. ”You dumb man, why do you think I agreed to therapy? Why did I push myself with heavy medicines when the treatment was already a bottleneck? Why do you think I lost control in the waterfall cave? Why I came to your office in the middle of the night? Why do my eyes shine when I see you? Why, dammit?”

Wang Shi licked his lips. ”I don't know.”

She moved like a bolt of light. Slipped her hand around his neck, curling her fingers in his hair. Rose to her foot and kissed.

A wild kiss that drew blood. A punishment. Anger.

She pulled back for breath, panting, eyes narrowing at him. ”Because I love you. You occupy my mind every day. Every second. In your absence I have counted down days to get a chance to see you again. I love you, Dr. Wang Huang Shishi. I love you.”

A tear slides down from his eyes, and she tip-toed to kiss it away. Then moving to brush his bleeding lips with hers. ”That night you asked about your place in my life. But you had already answered it by saying that you see love in my eyes. That was the truth you saw! Silly, Honey was already with me, so what do you think I was crying for? The only thing that was hurting me was the thought of not getting you in my life.”

”What about people?”

”We'll face them together. I don't want to be a coward.”

”Future uncertainties?”

”Haven't you said to trust our upbringing?”

”Think again, Suyin. I don't want to hear nonsense from you again.”

Suyin shrugged. ”Zhao Suyin doesn't want to use her brain anymore in matters related to the heart. A mistake once done shouldn't be repeated.”

He smiled. Finally, he smiled. ”You have troubled me a lot.”

”I can say the same. Do you have any idea what my situation was when you left me alone?”

”I do. Dr. Jeff kept me updated.” Suddenly, his voice grew timid. Apprehensive. ”I have a confession to make.”

”What?”

”The next day when I woke up Dr. Jeff came to me to explain your case.” the weight of Wang Shi's words grew in the room, making her feel as if walls were moving, shrinking the room.

”Is there something wrong with me? I know I'm weird. Am I nuts? Insane? Mad?”

”No. No.” He held her in his embrace tight when her eyes watered. ”He was there to tell me something about you-- something that he had found during the treatment and it was important for me to know.”

”Go on. I'm listening.”

”I need you to understand that the seeds of your fears and uncertainties originated inside you in your early childhood, with abuse at the hands of your cousin, aunt, gender-biased mistreatment, emotional and physical abuse at the hands of your ex, and then the loss of your son. Even your mentor, Master Gong, never gave you the correct treatment but manipulated your fragile mind for his own motive. All this build up over the years and eventually exploded at the wrong person. Me.”

Suyin gasped. ”Why you?”

”I asked the same.” Wang Shi rubbed her arm to ease her shivering. ”The person you get most angry with is also the one whom you love the most. According to Jeff's analysis, I have a huge impact on the mind of the fragile Suyin when she was only a weak girl. Remember, I'm your decade-old crush? That's why you overthink when it comes to me.”

Realization struck, and she exhaled. ”Yes, that's true. I have experienced nothing like this with someone else other than you. My decisions are always swift, confident, but with you, I'm stuck on an edge. Undecided. Scared. Until--”

”Until someone guides you or pushes you to have faith and take a step ahead.” That's where her family and James came to help her. ”It was never my plan to leave you alone in El Sandrios. No matter the circ.u.mstances, Wang Shi would never leave his Suyin alone. I did it on Dr. Jeff's instructions. He thinks I'm the needed push in your treatment to make you move past the bottleneck. He was sure you'd accept your feelings.”

Suyin covered her mouth. ”So you were aware of the plan?”