Part 12 (2/2)

'So what do you actually do all day, then?' It's a fair question I suppose, and one I've asked myself a couple of times.

'Lots of things - go to lectures, read, write essays - that kind of thing.'

'And that's all? b.l.o.o.d.y h.e.l.l - all right for some . . . I'

Change the subject. 'How about you, Uncle Des, how's your work?'

'Oh, bit quiet, Bri, bit quiet at the moment. . .' Uncle Des is in the building trade - conservatories, porches and patios - or at least he was until the divorce and the recession. Now the van sits idly in front of his house, and Des spends most of the time dismantling the engine, and then rea.s.sembling it again, not quite correctly, then dismantling it again. 'People don't seem to want extensions, not in a recession. It's a luxury really, porches and conservatories . . .' and he smooths his moustache down with his finger and thumb, and stares mournfully at The Wizard of Oz, those vaguely disturbing monkeys with the wings growing out of their backs, and I feel bad for asking him about work when I know it isn't going well. After a moment or two of staring blankly at the flying monkeys, he pulls himself out of it, with a visible physical effort, sitting up as straight as the settee will allow, and clapping his hands together. 'Right, how about a drink, then? It's Christmas after all. What's your poison, Bri?' then, conspiratorially '. . . apart from Brussels sprouts!'

I glance at the clock on the mantelpiece - it's 11.55. Till have a lager please, Des,' and he bustles off into the kitchen, almost as if he lives here.

Over dinner, which we eat in the kitchen with Radio 2 playing, I decide to break the big news.

'By the way - I've got an announcement to make . . .'

Mum stops chewing. 'What?'

'Something that happened at university last term . . .'

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'Oh, G.o.d, Brian . . / says Mum, hand in front of her mouth.

'Don't worry, it's nothing bad . . .'

She glances at Uncle Des, then says nervously, 'Go on . . .'

'Well, I'm going to be on University Challenged 'What, that thing on telly?' says Uncle Des.

'Yep! I'm on the team!'

And Mum starts to laugh and laugh, and looks at Des, who's laughing too. 'Congratulations, Bri,' he says, and he puts his fork down to free up his hair-ruffling hand. 'That's brilliant news, really brilliant . . .'

'G.o.d, and what a relief,' says Mum, and takes a big swig of wine, and puts her hand on her chest to calm her heart.

'Why, what did you think I was going to say?'

'Well, to be honest sweetheart, I thought you were about to tell me that you were a h.o.m.os.e.xual!' she says, and starts to laugh again, and looks at Uncle Des, who starts to laugh again too, laughing so hard that I'm afraid that he's going to choke on his sprouts.

In the afternoon, after our attempt on the turkey, Uncle Des pours himself a large scotch and lights up a slim-line panatella, and Mum lights up a Rothman's, and we peer through the caramel fug at Top of The Pops. Uncle Des makes a growling noise every time the camera finds a scantily clad backing singer, and Mum laughs indulgently and slaps him on the wrist. She's methodically working her way through a large box of traditional chocolate liqueurs, biting the caps off the little chocolate bottles and trickling the various different spirits into her mouth, like a particularly dainty wino. This is a bizarre new development in Mum's boozing, and I'm not sure what to make of it, but keen not to be left behind, I continue work on my four-pack of lager. Because I'm a young hep-cat, and up with the current popular music scene, I help out in identifying the more obscure faces in the Do They Know It's Christmas? video, then we watch the Queen's Speech, then Uncle Des goes 139.

off to see his old mum up the road, but promises to be back at six o'clock for some leftovers and our traditional, infinitely long game of Monopoly, which Uncle Des will inevitably win, but only by nominating himself as banker and embezzling.

Then before it gets too dark Mum and I put our coats on, and head out. Mum takes my arm as we walk the mile or so to the cemetery to lay flowers on Dad's grave. The cold damp air makes her a little bit more p.i.s.sed, and I have to lean down to hear what she's saying. She smells of sage and onion and Tia Maria.

As usual I stand with Mum for a while and say how the gravestone's still looking nice, then I go and stand a little way off and wait while Mum talks to Dad. I'm always a little uncomfortable waiting around without a book to read, so instead I try to identify the birds, but it's just rooks and magpies (of the family corvidae), starlings (sturmus vulgaris] and sparrows (pa.s.ser domesticus) and I wonder why cemeteries always attract such miserable, morbid b.l.o.o.d.y birds, and after about ten minutes Mum finishes what she's got to say, touches the gravestone lightly, and walks away, head down, and takes my arm, not saying anything until she can control her breathing a little bit, and can speak normally again. It's dark now, but a couple of the local kids from the estate are riding the new BMXs that they got for Christmas in between the graves, slamming on their brakes and performing long, low sliding skids that send up waves of gravel. Mum, still with wet eyes and a little bit drunk from all the chocolate liqueurs, gets upset about this, and starts shouting at them - 'you shouldn't do that, not in a cemetery, show some respect' - and one of them flicks the V's and cycles past laughing and shouting back - 'f.u.c.k off, mind your own business, you silly cow'. I can feel Mum starting to cry again and I suddenly have this overwhelming desire to run after him, and grab hold of the hood of his parka and yank him off the back of his new bike, put my knee in his back and rub his stupid, leering face 14O.

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hard into the gravel, and see how long it takes for him to stop laughing. And then just as suddenly I wish that I was a long, long way away from here, lying still with someone, in a warm bed, falling asleep.

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QUESTION: What is the name of the cla.s.s of organic compounds with the general formula R-OH, where R represents an alkyl group made up of carbon and hydrogen, and OH represents one or more Hydroxyl groups? ft ANSWER: Alcohol.

The Black Prince is a pub that caters specifically for the under-age drinker. At school we used to call it The Creche, the rationale of the landlord being that anyone crafty enough to hide their school tie in their pocket was old enough to drink. On a Friday afternoon it looked like the set of Grange Hill, and you could barely move for satchels.

Outside of term-time, it's harder to imagine a more desolate place to meet for a drink. Brown, scabrous and dank, it's a little like sitting in someone's kidney, but at some point in the last five years it became traditional to meet here every Boxing Day night, and traditions are sacred. So here we are, me and Tone and Spencer, sat in a vinyl booth the colour of a blood clot, the first time we've met up since September. I'd been a little anxious about meeting up again, but Spencer seems genuinely pleased to see me. Tone does too, in his own special way, which basically involves rubbing his knuckles hard on the top of my head.

'What the f.u.c.k is going on with your hair?'

'What d'you mean?'

'Bit bouffant, isn't it?' Tone grabs my head by the ears, sniffs it like a melon. 'Are you wearing mousse'?'

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'No, I'm not wearing any mousse.' I am, m fact, wearing a little mousse.

'What's it called then, a haircut like that?'

'It's called a Brideshead,' says Spencer.

'It's called a short-back-and-sides. What do they call yours then, Tone?'

'It doesn't have a name, it just is. So what you drinking these days - port and lemon? Medium sherry? Sweet white wine? . . .' It's started, and I haven't even taken my donkey jacket off yet.

'A pint of lager please, Tone.'

'Special lager?'

'Go on then. Special lager.'

'Special lager' is lager-with-a-gin-top. Part of the landlord's educational remit here is to nurture experimentation and innovation, and he won't bat an eyelid, no matter what repulsive combination you order. Besides, lager-witha-gin top is actually pretty grown-up by Black Prince standards. Anything that doesn't taste of coconut or mint or aniseed counts as refined here.

This is the longest I've gone without seeing Spencer since we were both twelve years old, and I'm very anxious that there shouldn't be any awkward silences. But here it is. Silence. Spencer tries to fill it by flicking his beer mat up in the air and catching it, while I reach for the matchbox, in case there's something to read on the back of it.

'So. I thought you said you'd be down at weekends?' he says finally.

'Well, I was going to, but it got a bit busy.'

'Busy. Right.'

'Good Christmas?' I ask.

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