Chapter 435 - Pamper You (1/2)
Lana was not her usual self as she prepared porridge for Liam. She would giggle without her realizing it and feel her cheeks burning in embarrassment afterward.
Liam fell asleep and that was when she sneaked out of his arms to have an online meeting with her team and hear important reports from each department. She intended to work from home while Liam was sick.
She wondered how Liam would react once he woke up.
'Will it still be early for me to expect something?' she mused as she finished her cooking.
She opened the door and saw that Liam was still sleeping. She first ate her lunch and quickly put Liam's meal on the tray to serve it to him on the bed inside the bedroom.
She went inside and put the tray on the bedside table. She sat on the side of the bed and smiled while she stared at Liam's handsome face. He was peacefully sleeping.
Lana heaved a long sigh as she lovingly touched Liam's forehead. He was still warm, not
normal but it was better compared to his temperature in the morning.
”Do you know how much I missed you? All the time that I was away… I also left my heart, Liam. It was too much of a struggle. I wanted to be with you but everything was getting worse with each passing day. The guilt was eating me, killing me each day whenever I was with you. I lost our baby and it was technically my fault. I went there alone, knowing the risks, knowing that it could put my unborn child in danger.” Lana, without her knowing, started opening up.
Maybe it was because Liam was sleeping and she felt more confident that way. She actually did not care whether Liam could hear it or not but somehow she wanted to pour her heart out and not keep her reason for leaving inside anymore, despite knowing that it would sound like nothing more but an invalid excuse to anyone who hears it… even Liam.
She sighed and continued, ”At that time, there was no other choice for me but to do what I did for my mother. My mother was my everything, Liam. She was the person who brought me back to light after the darkness I experienced at such a young age. She continued to guide me as I grew up, nurtured me with so much love and passion that I had never even experienced from my own blood Liam.
The mere thought of losing her because of that monster with whom I shared my blood was making me go crazy already. I just couldn't and I was willing to do anything for that not to happen even if it would cost me my own life… because my mother is the one who gave me life, Liam. I was like a dead person when she found me, and she gave me another reason to live.
I know, it's not your fault and it was my mother's decision to sacrifice herself to save you. I knew she saved you thinking about me and our baby… But for some reason… that scene, that became a nightmare for me, Liam.
Whenever you were with me… I couldn't help it… That scene would always play in my mind as a flashback over and over again. My mother's face with a smile while she spurted blood from her mouth, hugging you. It was not a good sight and it became a nightmare that I had a hard time overcoming while you stayed by my side.
I know it was very unfair for you and I'm really sorry… Do what you must but I will also do what I must to stay by your side no matter what. Mom saved you so I can have and keep you… And I intend to do that. I may be late, but… I'm now back and I will take every opportunity that I will have, to get you back.”
Liam was actually awake already and he was listening to every word Lana said. He kept his eyes closed because he was confused with the mixed emotions he was feeling inside him. He wanted to console Lana so he quickly decided to open his eyes in the end.