Volume 1 Chapter 59 How Long Has It Been Since I Had A Candy? (2/2)

Just then he heard a nonchalant voice from behind.

”Do you regret it?”

Startled, Lu Jin turned his head and looked at Sia who was standing behind holding two juice can's in her hand.

With a faint smile, he asked ”Oh...it's you”

turning his head back, he gazed at the setting sun and said ”No...I don't regret it. Infact I'm quite relieved”

Sitting next to Lu Jin, Sia opened the tin and passed it to Lu Jin before she opened hers and sipped the juice before she said ”You don't have to pretend in front of me. Though you might look good from outside, I know you're torn apart inside”

With a bitter smile, Lu Jin plucked a stalk of grass and said ”I don't want to make them worry unnecessarily at the same time I don't want to pressure An Ran”

”Even at this moment, you're still thinking only about An Ran's well being?” Sia asked while sipping the juice

”Heh....sister Sia, do you know...I did not develop my feelings towards An Ran a year back in fact I had been in love with her for five years. I saw her for the first time at my friend's birthday banquet. She was dressed in a cute pink dress and she looked extremely adorable. That was when I fell for her. From then on I attended every banquet hoping to see her again but I never dared to approach her and befriend her but then it was first brother and fourth brother who introduced her to me. As we got closer I could no longer hide my feelings and I proposed her. But I never expected that she would accept me. That moment when she agreed to be my girlfriend, I almost felt that I was floating in the air. But due to some incident, I was forced to break up with her. Even when I broke up with her a year back though I was hurt I could still cope up but now....”

In the end, his voice choked as he continued ”But now I-I feel worse. I feel as if my heart is pierced with countless needles and is torn apart. My heart hurts so badly that I want to kill myself”

Not able to control himself, he hugged his knees and start to cry .

Seeing her cheerful little brother crying like a little kid, Sia felt her heart squeeze.

Pulling Lu Jin into her arms, she hugged him and patted his back gently and let him cry as much as he wants in her arms.

Feeling a sense of warmth, Lu Jin hugged Sia tightly and let out his heart.

”W-what should I do? I-i really don't want to break up with An Ran. I-i really love her, I-i love her s-so much that i-I'm willing to g-give up my life for her. Just-just imagining her walking out of my life makes me want to-want to kill myself...Sister I-i really don't want to let her go, I really really love An Ran...I-i love her so much”

Patting Lu Jin's head gently, Sia gazed at the setting sun and said ”Lu Jin, sometimes life is very unfair. Don't complain if you feel unfair instead fight to make it fair because everything you wish for is your own greed and need. But sometimes, it's better to let go of your greed, not for yourself but your loved ones...Lu Jin, the words I spoke now...I hope you will keep it in your mind”

Receiving no response, Sia turned her face and looked over her shoulder only to find the latter sleeping peacefully.

Patting his head gently with a faint smile on her face, Sia turned to look at the setting sun and exclaimed ”Sigh.....the sun looks soo delicious just like candy...Ah! speaking of which, how long has it been since I had a candy?...hmm, should I get some tomorrow?”

While Sia was mumbling, Lu Jin opened his eyes and gazed at Sia with mixed feelings before he closed his eyes and fell asleep.