Chapter 20 - Narsena’s Regret (1/2)

—Narsena—

According to Ralma-san words, Onii-san didn’t give up just because he couldn’t use his healing magic and desperately trying to get a new ability.

…… However, even with that new ability, Onii-san was told to be untalented.

「Gh!」

… I imagined Onii-san’s grief at that time, I could feel severe pain in my chest.

Of course, that grief was nothing but imagination.

However, I had heard Onii-san’s lamentation when he was being oppressed for his lack of healing magic talent.

That was why I could clearly imagine Onii-san’s grief.

… Also, because I knew Onii-san’s past, I also felt regret.

「No, maybe it’s wrong to call him having no talent? After all, Raust learned about both magic power and ki in only a couple of months when other people would take years to do the same. Maybe rather than saying he has no talent, a genius would be a better word for him? It was a kind of talent a magic tool craftsman would want to get no matter what.」

While Ralma-san talking to herself in excitement, I bit my lips.

When Onii-san saved me, I swore to Onii-san I would become his party member.

I thought that I would protect him one day.

But, in reality, it was the opposite, I was the one being protected.

Even so, I thought I was at least supporting Onii-san’s heart.

Because Onii-san had become brighter now I joined his party.

That was why I thought I could be properly of help for Oni-san.

… But, now I couldn’t believe that either.

「But, even if that foolish disciple of mine is capable as a magic tool craftsman, that still says nothing about his talent or lack thereof as an adventurer. Then how can he gets that ability…… honestly, I don’t know, one thing I know is it’s impossible for me to imitate.」

Ralma-san’s speech had become more heated.

It was a matter of course that Ralma-san was excited.

Onii-san had achieved that much.

He, who was said to have no talent, worked so hard and finally got the ability to stand beside the world-class adventurer.

How much effort did that need?

…… But every time I remembered Onii-san’s greatness, I also reminded of his self-hatred.

Now, I could understand why Onii-san’s self-assessment was so low.

He was called having no talent and was oppressed, so he worked hard only to realize he was indeed had no talent.

Nevertheless, Onii-san kept trying desperately.

From that, he was able to get an amazing power.

…… And yet, despite doing his best, nobody recognized Onii-san’s effort.

How much did that hurt Onii-san?

That was something that I would never be able to understand.

… But, even in that situation, I couldn’t support Onii-san.

Knowing that fact, all I could feel was regret.

Rather than because not being able to do anything, I felt ashamed of myself who thought I was supporting Onii-san without noticing that.

「But well, that guy doing his best and reaching this far is all thanks to you, Narsena.」

「——Huh!?」

That was why I couldn’t hide my surprise when Ralma-san casually told me so.

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Because of Ralma-san’s casual comment, I was dumbfounded for a while.