Part 3 (1/2)
”I had you!” said Lucilla, taking both Miss Bury's hands. ”I felt it was such a blessing. I would not have let Tom stay for luncheon if you had not been there; and now I am so glad, because it has shown me the danger of letting him bring people. I am quite sure it was a special providence that made you think of coming here to-day.”
”Well, my dear,” said Miss Bury, who was naturally mollified by this statement of the question, ”I am very glad to have been of use to you.
If there is anything I desire in this life, it is to be useful to my fellow-creatures, and to do my work while it is called day. I should not think the time lost, my dear Lucilla, if I could only hope that I had impressed upon your mind that an account must be given of every careless word----”
”Oh, yes,” said Lucilla, ”that is _so_ true; and besides, it is quite against my principles. I make it a point never to speak of anything about religion except with the greatest respect; and I am quite sure it was a special providence that I had _you_.”
Miss Bury took her farewell very affectionately, not to say effusively, after this, with her heart melting over the ingenuous young creature who was so thankful for her protection; but at the same time she left Miss Marjoribanks a prey to the horrible sensation of having made a failure.
To be sure, there was time to recover herself in the evening, which was, so to speak, her first formal appearance before the public of Carlingford. Tom was so ill-advised as to come in when she was having her cup of tea before dinner to fortify her for her exertions; and the reception he met with may be left to the imagination. But, after all, there was little satisfaction in demolis.h.i.+ng Tom; and then Lucilla had known from the beginning that the success of her undertaking depended entirely on herself.
_Chapter VIII_
The evening pa.s.sed off in a way which, if Miss Marjoribanks had been an ordinary woman, would have altogether obliterated from her mind all recollection of the failure at lunch. To speak first of the most important particular, the dinner was perfect. As for the benighted men who had doubted Lucilla, they were covered with shame, and, at the same time, with delight. If there had been a fault in Dr Marjoribanks's table under the ancient regime, it lay in a certain want of variety, and occasional over-abundance, which wounded the feelings of young Mr Cavendish, who was a person of refinement. To-night, as that accomplished critic remarked, there was a certain air of feminine grace diffused over everything--and an amount of doubt and expectation, unknown to the composed feastings of old, gave interest to the meal. As for the Doctor, he found Mrs Chiley, at his right hand, not so great a bore as he expected. She was a woman capable of appreciating the triumphs of art that were set before her; and had indeed been trained to as high a pitch of culture in this respect as perhaps is possible to the female intelligence; and then her pride and delight in being admitted to a partic.i.p.ation in those sacred mysteries was beyond expression. ”My dear Lucilla, I feel exactly as if I was going to be made a freemason; and as if your dear good papa had to blindfold me, and make me swear all sorts of things before he took me downstairs,” she said, as they sat together waiting for the commencement of the ceremony; and when the two ladies returned to the drawing-room, Mrs Chiley took Lucilla in her arms and gave her a kiss, as the only way of expressing adequately her enthusiasm. ”My love,” said the Colonel's wife, ”I never realised before what it was to have a genius. You should be very thankful to Providence for giving you such a gift. I have given dinners all my life--that is, all my married life, my dear, which comes to almost the same thing, for I was only a baby--but I never could come up to anything like that,”
said Mrs Chiley, with tears in her eyes. As for Miss Marjoribanks, she was so satisfied with her success that she felt at liberty to tranquillise her old friend.
”I am sure you always give very nice dinners,” she said; ”and then, you know, the Colonel has his favourite dishes--whereas, I must say for papa, he is very reasonable for a man. I am so glad you are pleased. It is very kind of you to say it is genius, but I don't pretend to anything but paying great attention and studying the combinations. There is nothing one cannot manage if one only takes the trouble. Come here to this nice easy-chair--it is so comfortable. It is so nice to have a little moment to ourselves before they come upstairs.”
”That is what I always say,” said Mrs Chiley; ”but there are not many girls so sensible as you, Lucilla. I hear them all saying it is so much better French fas.h.i.+on. Of course, I am an old woman, and like things in the old style.”
”I don't think it is because I am more sensible,” said Miss Marjoribanks, with modesty. ”I don't pretend to be better than other people. It is because I have thought it all over, you know--and then I went through a course of political economy when I was at Mount Pleasant,” Lucilla said tranquilly, with an air of having explained the whole matter, which much impressed her hearer. ”But for all that, something dreadful happened to-day. Tom brought in one of his friends with him, you know, and Miss Bury was here, and they talked--I want to tell you, in case she should say something, and then you will know what to believe. I never felt so dreadfully ashamed in my life--they talked----”
”My dear! not anything improper, I hope,” cried the old lady, in dismay.
”Oh, no,” said Lucilla; ”but they began laughing about some people having no souls, you know--as if there could be anybody without a soul--and poor Miss Bury nearly fainted. You may think what a dreadful thing it was for me.”
”My dear child, if that was all,” said Mrs Chiley, rea.s.sured--”as for everybody having a soul, I am sure I cannot say. You never were in India, to be sure; but Miss Bury should have known better than to faint at a young man's talk, and frighten you, my poor dear. She ought to be ashamed of herself, at her age. Do you think Tom has turned out clever?”
the old lady continued, not without a little finesse, and watching Lucilla with a curious eye.
”Not in the very least,” said Miss Marjoribanks calmly; ”he is just as awkward as he used to be. It is dreadful to have him here just now, when I have so many things to do--and then he would follow me about everywhere if I would let him. A cousin of that sort is always in the way.”
”I am always afraid of a cousin, for my part,” said Mrs Chiley; ”and talking of that, what do you think of Mr Cavendish, Lucilla? He is very nice in himself, and he has a nice property; and some people say he has a very good chance to be member for Carlingford when there is an election. I think that is just what would suit you.”
”I could not see him for the lamp,” said Lucilla; ”it was right between us, you know--but it is no use talking of that sort of thing just now.
Of course, if I had liked, I never need have come home at all,” Miss Marjoribanks added, with composure; ”and, now I have come home, I have got other things to think of. If papa is good, I will not think of leaving him for ten years.”
”Oh, yes; I have heard girls say that before,” said Mrs Chiley; ”but they always changed their minds. You would not like to be an old maid, Lucilla; and in ten years----”
”I should have begun to go off a little, no doubt,” said Miss Marjoribanks. ”No, I can't say I wish to be an old maid. Can they be coming upstairs already, do you think? Oh, it is Tom, I suppose,” said Lucilla, with a little indignation. But when _They_ did make their appearance, which was at a tolerably early period--for a return to the drawing-room was quite a novelty for Dr Marjoribanks's friends, and tempted them accordingly--Miss Marjoribanks was quite ready to receive them. And just before ten o'clock, when Mrs Chiley began to think of going home, Lucilla, without being asked, and without indeed a word of preface, suddenly went to the piano, and before anybody knew, had commenced to sing. She was a great deal too sensible to go into high art on this occasion, or to electrify her father's friends with her newly-acquired Italian, or even with German, as some young ladies do.
She sang them a ballad out of one of those treasures of resuscitated ballads which the new generation had then begun to dig out of the bowels of the earth. There was not, to tell the truth, a great deal of music in it, which proved Lucilla's disinterestedness. ”I only sang it to amuse you,” she said, when all the world crowded to the piano; and for that night she was not to be persuaded to further exertions. Thus Miss Marjoribanks proved to her little public that power of subordinating her personal tastes and even her vanity to her great object, which more than anything else demonstrates a mind made to rule. ”I hope next time you will be more charitable, and not tantalise us in this way,” Mr Cavendish said, as he took his leave; and Lucilla retired from the scene of her triumph, conscious of having achieved entire success in her first appearance in Carlingford. She laid her head upon her pillow with that sweet sense of an approving conscience which accompanies the footsteps of the benefactors of their kind. But even Miss Marjoribanks's satisfaction was not without its drawbacks. She could not get out of her mind that unhappy abortive luncheon and all its horrors; not to speak of the possibility of her religious principles being impugned, which was dreadful in itself (”for people can stand a man being sceptical, you know,” Miss Marjoribanks justly observed, ”but everybody knows how unbecoming it is in a woman--and me who have such a respect for religion!”); there remained the still more alarming chance that Miss Bury, who was so narrow-minded, might see something improper in the presence of the two young men at Lucilla's maidenly table; for, to be sure, the Rector's sister was altogether incapable of grasping the idea that young men, like old men and the other less interesting members of the human family, were simple material for Miss Marjoribanks's genius, out of which she had a great result to produce. This was the dread that overshadowed the mind of Lucilla as she composed herself to rest after her fatigues. When she slept the sleep of the innocent, it still pursued her into her dreams. She dreamed that she stood at the altar by the side of the member for Carlingford, and that Mr Bury, with inflexible cruelty, insisted upon marrying her to Tom Marjoribanks instead; and then the scene changed, and instead of receiving the salutations of Mr Cavendish as M.P. for the borough, it was the amusing man, in the character of the defeated candidate, who grinned and nodded at her, and said from the hustings that he would never forget the luncheon that had been his first introduction to Carlingford. Such was the nightmare that pursued Lucilla even into the sphere of dreams.
When such a presentiment takes possession of a well-balanced mind like that of Miss Marjoribanks, it may be accepted as certain that something is likely to follow. Lucilla did her best to disarm fate, not only by the sweetest submission and dutifulness to the Doctor and his wishes, but by a severe disregard of Tom, which drove that unhappy young man nearly desperate. Far from saying anything about luncheon, she even ignored his presence at breakfast, and remained calmly unconscious of his empty cup, until he had to ask for some coffee in an injured and pathetic voice, which amused Dr Marjoribanks beyond description. But even this did not prove sufficient to propitiate the Fates. When They were gone--and it may be well to say that Lucilla used this p.r.o.noun to signify _the gentlemen_, in greater or smaller number as it might happen--and she had finished all her arrangements, Miss Marjoribanks decided upon going to Grove Street to pay Barbara Lake a visit, and practise some duets, which was certainly as innocent an occupation for her leisure as could be desired. She was putting on her hat with this object when the bell in the garden rang solemnly, and Lucilla, whose curiosity conquered her good manners for the moment, hastening to the window, saw Mr Bury himself enter the garden, accompanied by a black figure in deep and shabby mourning. All the tremors of the night rushed back upon her mind at the sight. She felt that the moment had arrived for a trial of her courage very different from the exertions which had hitherto sufficed her. Nothing but the most solemn intentions could have supported the Rector in that severe pose of his figure and features, every line in which revealed an intention of being ”faithful”; and the accompanying mute in black, whose office the culprit could not divine, had a veil over her face, and wore a widow's dress. Miss Marjoribanks, it is true, was not a woman to be discouraged by appearances, but she felt her heart beat as she collected all her powers to meet this mysterious a.s.sault. She took off her hat with an instinctive certainty that, for this morning at least, the duet was impracticable, when she heard Mr Bury's steady step ascending the stairs; but, notwithstanding, it was with a perfectly cheerful politeness that she bade him welcome when he came into the room. ”It is so good of you to come,” Lucilla said; ”you that have so much to do. I scarcely could believe it when I saw you come in: I thought it must be for papa.”
”I did hope to find Dr Marjoribanks,” said the Rector, ”but as he is not at home, I thought it best to come to you. This is Mrs Mortimer,” said Mr Bury, taking the chair Lucilla had indicated with a certain want of observance of his companion which betrayed to the keen perceptions of Miss Marjoribanks that she was a dependant of some kind or other. The Rector was a very good man, but was Evangelical, and had a large female circle who admired and swore by him; and, consequently, he felt it in a manner natural that he should take his seat first, and the place that belonged to him as the princ.i.p.al person present; and then, to be sure, his mission here was for Mrs Mortimer's as well as Miss Marjoribanks's ”good.” After this introduction, the figure in black put up its veil, and revealed a deprecating woman, with a faint sort of pleading smile on her face. Probably she was making believe to smile at the position in which she found herself; but anyhow she took her seat humbly on another chair at a little distance, and waited, as Lucilla did, for the next golden words that it might please the Rector to say.
”My sister told me what happened yesterday,” said Mr Bury. ”She is very sorry for you, Miss Marjoribanks. It is sad for you to be left alone so young, and without a mother, and exposed to--to temptations which it is difficult to withstand at your age. Indeed, at all ages, we have great occasion to pray not to be led into temptation; for the heart of man is terribly deceitful. After hearing what she had to say, I thought it best to come up at once this morning and talk to Dr Marjoribanks. I am sure his natural good sense will teach him that you ought not to be left alone in the house.”
”I do not see how papa can help it,” said Lucilla. ”I am sure it is very sad for him as well; but since dear mamma died there has been n.o.body but me to be a comfort to him. I think he begins to look a little cheerful now,” Miss Marjoribanks continued, with beautiful simplicity, looking her adversary in the face. ”Everybody knows that to be a comfort to him is the object of my life.”