Vol 3 Chapter 7 (2/2)
I couldn't remember the details, but even I had my birthday celebrated before
Toh
”When did you promise that?!”
”Froo I've told you about her before but, I was invited by my childhood friend, Mariko Does your plan have to be on the 17th?”
Eh? Not just Tomomi, Selene, Sayuri, Yuuki and Mika too had hopeless expressions
Impatiently, Tomomi responded
”N-not really, see”
What, then there's no problee today
”In that case, if you could shi+ft it it on the other day, it would be helpful”
”I-it's not good! No shi+fting! C'mon Nii-chan! If you don't come on Friday, Mika will be lonely!”
When I glanced at Mika, she lowered her head downheartedly
”It's better to treasure relationshi+p with friends, hat Mika told h”
Mika downcast her gaze and muttered
”That's right, Mii-chan said so, but”
Froe drops like jewels
This is an eency
Tomomi howled
”It has nothing to do with it! What Mika said uhh wasn't said! None of it!”
Overco
”U-uu Mii-chan isn't crying! She isn't crying!”
Why did Mika start to cry?
My words er In that case, it's my fault
Yuuki, who sat beside Mika had gently embraced her head Then Yuuki turned her face inone, she had a lonely expression
”Nii-san, is 17th impossible no matter what?”
Possible or not, Mariko was first Moreover, it's a birthday celebration Even though I didn't remember myself she did
Sayuri stared at me with anticipation and asked
”Rather than us, will Onii-sama take childhood friend's side?”
That's going into extre one, both of sides are iiven to the one as first
In the first place, Toht?
Ime behind
They didn't intend to do it!
Made me wait in vain
I was lonely, but it couldn't be helped!
I really wanted to chase after them
The one who took on receiving of the package was ht?
I endured it because I'm onii-chan and yet
psht, so in the deeps of ations were twisted, childish desire bulged up and disruptedwith it
”I've put up with today for everyone so it's fine isn't it Let me do what I want once in a while”
Maybe these were the words ofdown
The moment I noticed that, the words that have leaked froret
Rather than say so so childish, I should have forced it down and kept it inside
Like a da with a small hole, if I let it out only once what awaits, it's just a bad atmosphere
The feeling I tasted long, long tiret after I troubled Grandpa and Grandma
My fingertip was treradually increased
At my words, Tomomi opened her eyes wide in shock
”W-what's with that, Nii-chan! You don't have to put it that way, do you? Today too, everyone for Nii-chan and yet Nii-chan you idiot!”
Not good Even as I suppressed it, my lips moved by themselves
”Who are you calling idiot”
”You're an idiot so I call you an idiot! Stupid, stuupid!”
”Are you a kid?!”
Tolared at each other across the table It seeious and infected her
Mika weakly muttered
”Don't fightt”
Is this a sibling quarrel? No, wrong I'hts The one unreasonable is Tomomi
”Refrain yourself a little, pay attention to the result Suddenly calling me an idiot, you think blood wouldn't rush to my head?!”
Even I can get angry like an average person I did endure it, so that I don't clash with someone
Tory expression and pursed her lips
”I did intend provoking, you know? Nii-chan's angry? I'ry too!”
”W-ould you be angry! You've gone, and had fun shopping right?”
”I didn't have fun! I had a proper objective! Could you stop bla me like that?”
”B-bla or not, it's the truth! Since you won't even say where did you go, it uilty about, isn't it?”
I said too much Nor downhill, my words continued to accelerate for worse
Her eyes filled with tears
”I-it wasn't Ito prepare Nii-chan's birthday party, ent to choose gifts! It's a surprise so we couldn't tell you”
”eh”
The blood that rushed to my head was drained
Sayuri made a small nod in my direction
”It's true We wanted to make Onii-sama happy, so we proceeded with the plan in secret To think such a conflict in schedule would happen As not to be noticed by Onii-sa outside, we've been together the entire time”
With tears in her eyes, Tomomi forced herself to smile
”We wanted to surprise Nii-chan and it's all gone to waste”
The inside of my head hite
”That's no way is there? Sorry um what should I do?”
Tolared at me as I faltered
”Don't askfor reasons instead of thinking of our feelings that's precisely why you never get serious about anything or like anyone!”
”Idon't like anyone?”
Still ehly and hasn't calmed down yet, Yuuki spoke to me and Tomomi
”Tomomi-chan, leave it at that Come on, Nii-san too okay?”
Impatient, Sayuri spoke quickly
”U-umm! My opinion is the saenuinely love Uhh, mm that's uu, I can't put it well!”
It seems like she was confused She probably hasn't expected the situation will become like this Neither have I
I ht be an empty person The course of events made me play the role of onii-chan I tried to behave like onii-chan a fake
Because I' the role of ”onii-chan” inside of me
But
”Me too I did put an effort So that I can love you all As not to be hated Is that a bad thing? Is living as not to ? Bywill be settled well!”
I couldn't choose just one of them I had to treat them all equally
While doing that, I did the best I could and yet
Yuuki's eyes were sad
”Nii-san That's not good If you match the other person as not to be hated, won't you end up hurting them that way?”
”That's why I didn't say it Not saying it I endured and otten So far it's been working out well!”
Now that I think of it, even when I entered student council in thein the elections It wasn't that I wanted to join it By chance I allowed myself to take that role and there was no one else That's all In that role, II have finally found so I feel is fun
While it wasn't so at all
Tomomi pointed at my face
”Nii-chan is an always-escaping chicken bastard”
”What's wrong with being a coward! Until now like that it's already too late, but seeing asto start hating myself”
Self-protection That's my nature
Nothing could be done, but still, I' on how to repair the relationshi+p
Regretfully
Learning I have five little sisters and told to choose one, I didn't choose
I didn't want to be hated by the little sisters I didn't chose I didn't want to be resented Even if they said they won't, I didn't believe it escaping to my self-protection
Choices like that have stacked up, leading to now The situation I hated the most, I was bad with and escaped from, is all my own fault
It ht be a quarrel from which we could reconcile, but since I never quarrelled with anyone I didn't kno to
Selene as silent up until now, muttered absent-mindedly
”because of my deception?”
”Deception ?”
I ended up asking in response
”the package I asked Onii-chan to receive umm”
I somehow understood what Selene didn't say
”You o out and by chance don't encounter you in the city?”
She nodded lightly
The one who set that up was Selene But, I was deceived so that I don't notice the my birthday
She said a lie while thinking about me
No one had any intention of hurting anyone
I know I know that
Still, even though my head knew, my emotions didn't keep up In this situation, it was as if I was immune Because I continued to avoid Because I continued to escape
Like this, I' his little sisters I'm not suitable
Once again, Selene confirmed
”because I lied to Onii-chan?”
”I didn't say that just”
I no longer had any confidence as a brother
For a h my heart
”if you don't like it so much, Onii-chan how about you quit?”
She continued quietly
”if someone forces you, it's fine to refuse We didn't knoere little sisters in the first place, neither that we had sisters Onii-chan was raised as an only child We aren't siblings A group of only children And yet, having eldest son or eldest daughter if it's hard, you can just quit it”
Hearing Selene's words, Tomomi raised her reddened eyes
”T-that's right, yeah! Quit being nii-chan! I'll quit being nee-chan too! Everyone disband and scatter!”
So us being siblings was impossible after all
Because originally, ere ers
We were able to pretend to be a good faathered only on weekends Because eren't too close to each other, there was no conflict
Still sooner or later, an incident would happen and ere fated to disband no, it was destiny No e It can't be changed
The reason Murasaki-san said ”Hurry up and decide on a single sister, if you don't you'll regret it”, ht have been because of this
”That so! Fine then! I'll quit!”
Unable to remain on place, I stood up and then holed myself in my room
That's right I'll quit I don't have to be onii-chan
It's over Disbanding Dispersal
It's not like I wanted to become onii-chan, I'm sick of the role forced on me I don't care any more ill be, will be