Part 13 (1/2)
”Yes, of course,” was the reply, and with this Heidi ran to her room.
Sitting down on a stool she folded her hands and poured out her heart to G.o.d, imploring Him to help her and let her go home to her grandfather.
About a week later, Mr. Candidate asked to see Mrs. Sesemann, to tell her of something unusual that had occurred. Being called to the lady's room, he began: ”Mrs. Sesemann, something has happened that I never expected,” and with many more words the happy grandmama was told that Heidi had suddenly learned to read with the utmost correctness, most rare with beginners.
”Many strange things happen in this world,” Mrs. Sesemann remarked, while they went over to the study to witness Heidi's new accomplishment. Heidi was sitting close to Clara, reading her a story; she seemed amazed at the strange, new world that had opened up before her. At supper Heidi found the large book with the beautiful pictures on her plate, and looking doubtfully at grandmama, she saw the old lady nod. ”Now it belongs to you, Heidi,” she said.
”Forever? Also when I am going home?” Heidi inquired, confused with joy.
”Certainly, forever!” the grandmama a.s.sured her. ”Tomorrow we shall begin to read it.”
”But Heidi, you must not go home; no, not for many years,” Clara exclaimed, ”especially when grandmama goes away. You must stay with me.”
Heidi still looked at her book before going to bed that night, and this book became her dearest treasure. She would look at the beautiful pictures and read all the stories aloud to Clara. Grandmama would quietly listen and explain something here and there, making it more beautiful than before. Heidi loved the pictures with the shepherd best of all; they told the story of the prodigal son, and the child would read and re-read it till she nearly knew it all by heart. Since Heidi had learned to read and possessed the book, the days seemed to fly, and the time had come near that the grandmama had fixed for her departure.
XI
HEIDI GAINS IN SOME RESPECTS AND LOSES IN OTHERS
The grandmama sent for Heidi every day after dinner, while Clara was resting and Miss Rottenmeier disappeared into her room. She talked to Heidi and amused her in various ways, showing her how to make clothes for pretty little dolls that she had brought. Unconsciously Heidi had learned to sew, and made now the sweetest dresses and coats for the little people out of lovely materials the grandmama would give her.
Often Heidi would read to the old lady, for the oftener she read over the stories the dearer they became to her. The child lived everything through with the people in the tales and was always happy to be with them again. But she never looked really cheerful and her eyes never sparkled merrily as before.
In the last week of Mrs. Sesemann's stay, Heidi was called again to the old lady's room. The child entered with her beloved book under her arm. Mrs. Sesemann drew Heidi close to her, and laying the book aside, she said: ”Come, child, and tell me why you are so sad. Do you still have the same sorrow?”
”Yes,” Heidi replied.
”Did you confide it to Our Lord?”
”Yes.”
”Do you pray to Him every day that He may make you happy again and take your affliction away?”
”Oh no, I don't pray any more.”
”What do I hear, Heidi? Why don't you pray?”
”It does not help, for G.o.d has not listened. I don't wonder,” she added, ”for if all the people in Frankfurt pray every night, He cannot listen to them all. I am sure He has not heard me.”
”Really? Why are you so sure?”
”Because I have prayed for the same thing many, many weeks and G.o.d has not done what I have asked Him to.”
”That is not the way, Heidi. You see, G.o.d in heaven is a good Father to all of us, who knows what we need better than we do. When something we ask for is not very good for us, He gives us something much better, if we confide in Him and do not lose confidence in His love. I am sure what you asked for was not very good for you just now; He has heard you, for He can hear the prayers of all the people in the world at the same time, because He is G.o.d Almighty and not a mortal like us. He heard your prayers and said to Himself: 'Yes, Heidi shall get what she is praying for in time.' Now, while G.o.d was looking down on you to hear your prayers, you lost confidence and went away from Him. If G.o.d does not hear your prayers any more, He will forget you also and let you go. Don't you want to go back to Him, Heidi, and ask His forgiveness? Pray to Him every day, and hope in Him, that He may bring cheer and happiness to you.”
Heidi had listened attentively; she had unbounded confidence in the old lady, whose words had made a deep impression on her. Full of repentance, she said: ”I shall go at once and ask Our Father to pardon me. I shall never forget Him any more!”
”That's right, Heidi; I am sure He will help you in time, if you only trust in Him,” the grandmother consoled her. Heidi went to her room now and prayed earnestly to G.o.d that He would forgive her and fulfill her wish.
The day of departure had come, but Mrs. Sesemann arranged everything in such a way that the children hardly realized she was actually going. Still everything was empty and quiet when she had gone, and the children hardly knew how to pa.s.s their time.
Next day, Heidi came to Clara in the afternoon and said: ”Can I always, always read to you now, Clara?”