Part 21 (1/2)
”Ah, I wonder what Braxxon looks like nowadays. He was so handsome as a teenager.”
Is this child leaving b.i.t.c.h serious?
”He's still handsome and he's not available.” I laugh at her.
”No need to get your panties in a twist.” She grins a fake grin.
Just one d.a.m.n day, it's always something.
”For me to get my panties in a twist, I would have to be wearing some.”
Take that, you abandoning b.i.t.c.h. Yes, I know I have abandonment issues; I don't hate my mother. In fact, I love her even though I don't know her. My father wouldn't let her take me with her and I know she at least tried. But that subject is still a sore one for me.
ZZ comes rip roaring past us into the compound on his bike and barely has it throttled down and on its kickstand before he makes his way over to the gate where I won't allow her to enter.
”Mira, what the h.e.l.l do you want?” ZZ yells.
”Well look at you. Don't you look delicious?” she coos.
”Cut the s.h.i.+t woman. I haven't spoken to you in over sixteen years and even then, you didn't ask about my daughter.”
”I seen the news. How is my daughter?”
”Your daughter? She has never been your daughter, Mira. You didn't raise her. In fact, do you even know her birthday?” He smirks.
She doesn't answer and that p.i.s.ses me off. How in the h.e.l.l could you forget a date that important. A day you bring another life into the world?
”Dad.” Tatiana walks up to us with Berry at her side.
”f.u.c.k,” he groans.
Why does everyone have such bad timing around this place?
”h.e.l.lo Tatiana. I'm your mother, Mira.”
”No you're not. Berry is my only mother,” Tatiana hisses.
”Don't be silly darling; that woman is your grandmother, nothing more.”
Oh, s.h.i.+t. Where the h.e.l.l is Braxxon?
”ZZ hunny, you better get this t.w.a.t out of here before I do something that'll land me in the gray barred motel,” Berry says calmly.
”My pleasure, Mom.” He smirks, grabbing her elbow and escorting her over the threshold to the compound. He then releases her arm, and walks back over the threshold and enters the code to shut the gate.
”Well that was pleasant,” I joke.
”That dumb b.i.t.c.h.” ZZ shakes his head. ”Tatiana you're eighteen and can do whatever you want but that woman abandoned you because she didn't want a kid. I hope you make the right decision when it comes to her. She will be back.”
”I want nothing to do with her dad,” Tatiana answers evenly in a serious tone.
”Good,” he replies as the gate reopens. Braxxon enters and he's on foot. I didn't even notice his bike was here.
”You walked,” I ask him.
”Yeah I did. Just because I'm a biker doesn't mean I have to ride it every single time I leave. I saw Mira leave. Did everything go well?”
Well snap my head off why don't you.
”Baby, don't look at me like that. I just didn't wanna ride today. I took a cab because of the reporters and s.h.i.+t. I didn't want people following me today. My bike is easy to spot.”
”Okay,” I reply still not happy with his answer.
”Everything went just fine, Prez. But she will be back,” ZZ says before walking Berry and Tatiana away.
”C'mon Angel, let's go to Sated for a bit. You haven't been back since opening night last week.”
I look down at my clothes and deem them wearable for my club. h.e.l.l it wouldn't matter anyway. It's Lana's club and mine. G.o.d I miss her. If I didn't have Braxxon, I don't think I could survive this. I'd get too lonely.
”Yeah okay.” I take his outreached hand as we walk towards his bike.
”I wasn't giving you an option baby.” He laughs.
”Watch it, Breaker,” I tease.
The club is quiet and empty, not because there's no business but because it doesn't open until five tonight. Braxxon is quiet and in thought. I'm a bit worried as he sits me on the edge of one of my pole stages. He says he'll be right back and I watch as he walks to the bar and pours him two shots of whiskey and downs them. Okay, so now I'm very worried. He wipes his palms on his jeans as he walks back over to me and kneels down on one knee, pulling a box out of his pocket as his gray eyes latch onto me.
Oh G.o.d.
”Winter Belov, I love you with every d.a.m.n part of my soul, body, mind, and heart. I can't imagine my life without you and I don't ever want to. You're my Angel in my h.e.l.l and I need you. I know that may seem weak in other's eyes, but I don't care. All I care about is what you think. Others don't matter. I don't want you worried that one day I'm going to up and leave you, because baby, I can't. I wouldn't be able to breathe if I did. Ever since that day you danced into my life, I've done nothing but breathed your air. I'd suffocate without you. I know this isn't a world you wanted to be in, but I'm begging you, stay in it with me. Marry me, have babies with me, and grow old with me.”
Oh my G.o.d!
Winter is just looking at me with tears in her eyes and I know I'm holding my breath waiting for her answer. She isn't saying anything and I wonder if I've just ruined everything by doing this too soon. Her gold eyes water up even more as they take hold of me and she gets up off the stage and kneels down in front of me.
”I'll be your Angel in your h.e.l.l,” she says smiling.
I let my breath out in a rush as I shakily take the ring out of the box and slip it onto her finger. She throws her other hand over her mouth laughing and that makes me think I screwed something up.
”How did you get someone to cut diamonds into small wings so fast.” She laughs even more through her hands.
”Do you not like it?”
”Braxxon I love it. I just know that it takes time to have diamonds cut, that's all,” she says as she drops her hand from her mouth.
”I went and ordered it three days ago. Everyone works fast enough if the money is right.”
They looked at me strangely when I told them I wanted small diamond wings one each side of the large diamond. It kinda p.i.s.sed me off to be honest. I mean I was paying for it so why the f.u.c.k did it matter.