Chapter 59 Want Me To Stay (1/2)

Jean thought for a while before shaking her head, ”No, I am afraid I am keeping you from something more important. I don't intend to push you away, but I just……”

”Do you want me to stay?”

Upon hearing Zed's question, Jean fell silent. With no clarity about her feelings about Zed and their marriage, Jean had no idea what to say to him. For so long now she had convinced herself that her relationship with Zed could be reckoned as marriage in name only. But, in fact……

Jean really wanted him to stay.

Instead of answering Zed, Jean turned and left in a hurry.

Zed chased Jean. He grabbed her arm and spun her around to face him. ”Do you want him instead of me? Are you wishing someone else were here with you now?”

”Someone else? Who? What are you talking about Zed? This is making no sense!” Jean couldn't understand whom Zed was referring to and she was too tired to try and guess.

”Ethan Lei.” Zed spat out bitterly. He had always felt that she was a little absent-minded when he was around Jean. Although her relationship with Ethan ended a long time ago, Ethan still came between them like a thorn.

”Ethan……” Jean stood there in complete amazement. How was it that everything always ended with the mention of Ethan? Jean couldn't help thinking about that night when Zed asked her to leave his villa.

She still remembered clearly the expression on Zed's face, his harsh words, and treatment. Although it was just a misunderstanding, he had overreacted terribly. Remembering that difficult time, upset Jean more.

”I didn't create that Weibo post.” She tried defending herself. She didn't know what Zed truly thought about that incident. Since he was so hard to read, Jean didn't even know if he would believe her.

”I know that, but do you still have feelings for him?” Zed was, understandably, also tired of constantly bringing up Ethan Lei. He wanted clarity about Jean's relationship with Ethan. And so he asked directly, and looked at her for an explanation.

Jean was a little surprised and said, ”I……”

”Answer my question!” Zed hissed.

”I, I ......……” After hesitating for a long while, Jean didn't know what to say.

”Forget it.” Zed sighed in defeat. He couldn't understand why Jean found it so hard to talk about these things. Zed withdrew his hand. A part of him felt relieved as he didn't want to know her answer.

Still, disappointed as he was, Zed turned and walked away. He needed some space and he needed some time to think. Jean's shoulders sagged in defeat. This was all too upsetting for her.

Jean stood still for a long while. She kept her gaze on the ground as she debated over the questions Zed had asked and why she had found it so difficult to answer him. She whispered, ”What's wrong with me?”

Now, were her feelings about Zed different from those she had in the past? She knew she had wanted Zed to stay. She even felt a little sad when she watched him leave. Couldn't she have shown greater affection for him over the past few days?