Part 19 (1/2)
Rachel wasn't sure why she needed the doctor's approval. Perhaps because she knew she would never have anyone else's, or maybe because Schiffman's opinion mattered most. Either way, hearing those two simple words-he will-had gone a long way toward lifting her spirits.
And now, two months later, still nothing from Joshua. So many times she had thought about contacting him. It wasn't easy to defy Doctor Schiffman's advice, to ignore the woman she idolized. But after seeing her parents with the shodchin, she knew she couldn't wait any longer. Despite her confusion and fear, having no idea what she wanted from Joshua or why she craved his presence, she would go to him tomorrow.
News travels quickly in the Hasidic world, so it wasn't long before Paul Sims learned that the Weissmans had enlisted the services of Reb Nachum Blesofsky. Just two hours after the shodchin had left the Weissmans' home, the yes.h.i.+va was charged with gossip.
”What do you think, Sims, will it be you?” one of his cla.s.smates jested, while several others stood around chuckling.
”Well, I can a.s.sure you, Novitsky, it won't be you,” Paul responded.
It bothered him that his feelings for Rachel had become public knowledge, but it was his own fault. In his efforts to make friends, he had confided in one or two of the boys, believing his secret would be safe. He chided himself for not having known better, then quickly turned his attention to the more pressing issue of how to become the one.
He considered talking to the rabbi directly, but deemed it a bad idea. He was certain that the rabbi had long known of his feelings for Rachel; thus, the hiring of Reb Blesofsky could only mean that the rabbi had already dismissed him as a prospect. It was a painful realization, but he wasn't going to let it deter him. He would somehow convince Reb Blesofsky, and let the shodchin deal with the rabbi.
And that was what he set out to do.
It was a cold afternoon, overcast and gloomy. Paul waited on the corner of President Street and Kingston Avenue, within eyesight of Reb Blesofsky's home. It was unusual for a shodchin to live in such an elaborate house, on the most affluent street in the neighborhood, but rumor had it that Blesofsky had married into money, an excellent way to gain credibility in his chosen profession.
Paul didn't have much of a plan, and didn't know whether Blesofsky was already in for the evening, on his way home, or on his way out. He also didn't know if Blesofsky would give him the time of day. None of this mattered, however, for he was on the mission of his life and had to succeed.
He had considered requesting an appointment with the shodchin, but was certain he wouldn't have gotten one. He was a n.o.body in the community. So here he was, standing in the frigid air, hoping to trap Blesofsky into talking to him. What he would ultimately accomplish by this, he had no idea.
Almost an hour pa.s.sed. Paul began walking in little circles to keep from freezing. A few pa.s.sersby gave him strange looks, but he didn't care. He would remain there as long as necessary.
His determination eventually paid off, as the shodchin emerged from the house. He'd seen Blesofsky a few times in the yes.h.i.+va, and recognized him immediately, walking tall, marching down the path from the front door of the house to the sidewalk.
Paul's anxiety heightened as Blesofsky walked toward him. It was now or never. He had rehea.r.s.ed this moment a thousand times in his mind.
”Uh, excuse me, sir, are you Reb Blesofsky?”
”Pardon me?” The shodchin peered into Paul's eyes.
”I'm sorry to bother you, but are you Reb Blesofsky?”
”I think so.” He looked himself over to make sure. Humorous.
”I was wondering, sir, if I might just have a brief moment of your time?”
Blesofsky wore a curious expression that said, Well, get on with it!
”My name is Pinchus Sims...”
”Is this about arranging a match?” Blesofsky interrupted curtly. ”I don't deal with yes.h.i.+va students, only their parents. If you want something from me, your parents must phone my office for an appointment. That is how it is done.” He turned on his heel and began to walk away.
”But that's impossible,” Paul a.s.serted.
Blesofsky stopped, impatiently glanced at his watch, and decided to grant Paul a few more seconds.
”You see, my parents aren't from around here.”
”I know that, otherwise I would have recognized your family name.”
”They're not Lubavitchers.”
”What else is new?”
”They're not even Hasidic,” Paul said, feeling humiliated.
”Are they Jewish?” Sardonic.
Paul hesitated, then answered, ”They're Reform.”
Blesofsky reacted impa.s.sively, as if he wasn't the least bit surprised. ”Look, young man, this is not intended as an insult, but I don't arrange matches for Ba'alei T'shuvah. If you're interested in finding a wife, the rabbis in the yes.h.i.+va can help you meet someone from a background similar to yours. Things always work best that way. I hope you understand.”
”I do, but I'm not interested in marrying just any girl.”
”No one is, my friend.” Blesofsky glanced at his watch again. ”I'm sorry, but I must be on my way, I have an appointment.”
”The girl I'm interested in is Rachel Weissman!”
The shodchin's pearly white flesh reddened; his eyes became fierce, as if Paul had mentioned his own daughter. ”That, young man, is out of the question! I suggest you rid your mind of such nahrishkeit at once!”
”It is not foolishness,” Paul replied forcefully. ”I have known her for a long time, I have become frum and have studied hard to prove myself.”
Blesofsky was dumbfounded; his world had no tolerance for such behavior. There were traditions to be respected, channels to go through, boundaries to be honored. For a young man like this to expect to marry the daughter of a man of Isaac Weissman's caliber was unheard of. He was inclined to admonish Paul, but decided on restraint. As one who had been dealing with matters of the heart for over thirty years, he was able to distinguish love from obsession. The way that Paul Sims had waited for him in the cold night, the expression in the young man's eyes-this was an obsession. Blesofsky knew he was confronting a delicate situation, one of those headaches that-without careful handling-could turn out tragically.
”Look, young man, what is your name again?”
”Sims, Pinchus Sims.”
”Yes, well, excuse me for forgetting.” Blesofsky waited a beat. ”I can see that you have become one of us, and I think that is truly wonderful. I will even be willing to break my policy, and help you find a proper wife. If you ask around, you will find that this is an unusual offer.”
Paul remained silent.
Blesofsky continued, ”But surely you have been with us long enough to understand that in our community we do things a certain way. It is not at all that you are not worthy, or anything like that, but a B'al T'shuvah simply cannot marry someone from a family such as the Weissmans.”
”And why not?”
”Because it is not the ways things are done.”
”And I am just supposed to accept that?”
”Well,” Blesofsky pondered, stroking his beard. ”Why don't you look at it this way? In the Torah, marriage isn't always about love. There are many matches that simply cannot be. Like, for example, a Kohen, a priest, cannot marry either a convert or a divorce. Now, this does not mean that a convert is less of a Jew, G.o.d forbid, for Rabbi Akiva-as you must know-was a convert, and he was one of the greatest rabbis of all time.”
”But Rabbi Akiva would have been allowed to marry anyone he chose, even the daughter of a Kohen, for the marital restrictions of the priesthood do not apply to daughters.” Paul welcomed the opportunity to display his scholars.h.i.+p.
”I can see that you have learned much while you have been with us.”.