Part 13 (1/2)

At the same time that Hugh was questioning Crystal, Dana set off for the yarn store on a similar quest, but she was at a distinct disadvantage. For one thing, her mother, who had known the man in question, was dead. For another, the affair had taken place thirty-four years ago.

Oh, and the man's name was Jack Jones. There had to be dozens of Jack Joneses in or around Madison, Wisconsin, at the time Dana was conceived. Finding the right one might be next to impossible. But she could almost understand why Hugh was desperate to know.

”Hi, Lizzie, how's my Lizzie?” Dana called into the back seat. Ironic, how the catalyst for a disagreement could be the sole comfort against it.

Disagreement? It was more than that, and it was eating at Dana. She tried to find calm in the reminder that she had a career, but when she phoned the Cunninghams about rescheduling, no one was home. The same was true with her contact for the North Sh.o.r.e Designers' Showhouse, a project she saw as her professional post-baby debut. And when she called to check on the status of the few pieces of furniture still on order for current clients, she learned nothing more than when she had called the week before.

All in all, it was a relief to be out of the house. As tentative as her body still felt, Dana relished the control that came from having her foot on the gas. Gram Ellie had it right. She said that life was like raw wool, filled with slubs and catches that required diligent spinning to smooth.

Diligent spinning. That was all. Dana would be fine. She would be fine.

Turning into The St.i.tchery's drive, she saw her grandmother's car parked beside the verandaed house. Pa.s.sing it, she went on to the shop. She climbed from the driver's seat and opened Lizzie's door. ”Hi, sweetie,” she said, leaning in with a bright smile. ”Wanna see where Mommy grew up? Want to see where Mommy's mommy used to spend time?” Her voice caught, so she busied herself unlatching the baby carrier from its base.

”You look very pretty in green,” she told Lizzie, admiring the baby's onesie and matching cap. Seconds later, though, she removed the cap and tossed it back in the car. ”We do not need this.” She fluffed Lizzie's curls and kissed the child's forehead. ”Or this,” she said, leaving the receiving blanket in the car.

She had barely opened the screen door when Gillian was at her side. In the s.p.a.ce of a breath, Tara, Olivia, Corinne, and Nancy surrounded her, all oohing and aahing over the baby.

Laughing, Dana set her bags on a bench by the door. Ellie Jo, who was leaning against the long oak table watching, opened her arms to Dana. ”You shouldn't have driven,” she scolded. ”It's too soon.”

”The doctor didn't say no. I feel fine, Gram, really I do.”

”You look tired.”

”So do you. I have an excuse. What's yours?”

Ellie Jo smiled. ”Worry.” Linking her elbow with Dana's, she drew her away from the girls. ”How's Hugh?”

”The same.” Dana looked around the shop. She loved the wild colors, raised her face to the ceiling fan, breathed in the essence of early McIntosh apples. ”Ahh,” she said. ”Better.” She turned back to the baby.

Gillian was holding Lizzie, with the others hovering around her. ”We need a picture,” Dana said.

Corinne took Gillian's camera and began shooting.

Dana directed. ”There.” The flash went off. ”Now Gillian and Lizzie alone. Oh, that's perfect.” Another flash. ”Ellie Jo, you join them now.” When someone suggested that Dana get in the picture, she did it happily, thinking that this was what having a new baby was about.

Gillian insisted on showing Lizzie the cradle that the group had bought for her.

”I love it,” Dana cried, but, with her hands covering her mouth, she was looking at the knitted quilt that was artfully arranged over its side. It had the baby's name and the date of her birth, and was so beautiful that Dana burst into tears. She hugged everyone, then insisted on taking the quilt and draping it around Lizzie. Corinne took pictures of that, too.

The baby fussed.

”Too warm,” said one of the many mothers.

”Or hungry,” said another.

Using the quilt as a cus.h.i.+on, Dana settled into one of the chairs to nurse. The speed with which Lizzie latched on-a first, really-spoke of either her hunger or the comforting atmosphere in the yarn shop. Convinced it was the latter, Dana was glad she had come. Drawing strength from her friends, she broached the issue of her father.

”I have to find him,” she said softly.

”That's a tall order, sweetie,” Gillian told her. ”Looking at Lizzie, I've been trying to remember what I know, and it's next to nothing. I grew up with your mom. We were best friends, and the only time we were apart was during college. We saw each other at Christmas and during the summer, but calling on the phone was really expensive back then. My understanding is that Liz met your father during spring break, then got involved in term papers and finals. By the time she came home for the summer, she knew she was pregnant.”

This was consistent with what Dana had already found out. ”Was he a student there?”

”I don't know. Your mom wouldn't talk about it. All she said was that it was over, that she wanted you, and that she wasn't going back to school.”

”Why wouldn't she talk about it?”

”Likely because it was painful.”

”Because she didn't want it to end?”

Gillian smiled sadly. ”I'm guessing yes. Every woman dreams that her hero will show up and whisk her away. Well,” she caught herself, ”back then, we dreamed it.”

Dana didn't think times had changed so much. With only a tiny edit or two, Gillian's scenario described her own experience with Hugh.

Getting back to her father, she asked, ”Did he know about me?”

”My impression is that he took off before Liz ever knew she was pregnant.”

”The picture I have was taken when they were at a bar. Who took it?”

Gillian shook her head. ”A friend? Maybe her roommate?”

”Do you remember the names of any of her friends there?”

”Some names. There was a Judy and a Carol. Last names? No.”

”The roommate was Carol,” Ellie Jo said. ”I don't recall her last name.”

”Would their names be in a yearbook?” Tara asked.

But Dana knew the answer to that one. ”If so, we don't have it. Mom didn't graduate. She dropped out after junior year to have me, and, besides, even if we got our hands on the yearbook, can you imagine how many Carols and Judys there are in a school of, what, twenty thousand students?” She turned back to Gillian. ”Would she have confided in anyone else? Maybe her doctor?”

”Her doctor was Tom Milton, right here in town, but he's been dead for years.”

”Then we're back to the roommate,” said Dana. ”There must be a name somewhere. Maybe in the box in the attic?”

”Textbooks,” Ellie Jo replied. ”They're only textbooks, and not many at that. Elizabeth wasn't nostalgic about school. Come the end of exams, she sold the books she was done with. She hadn't gotten around to selling these.”

”Why do you keep them?” Tara asked.

Ellie Jo thought for a minute before she said, ”Because they were hers.”

And, oh, Dana knew about that. Hadn't she kept boxes of her mother's knitting-wool that had never been worked, patterns never followed, odd-ball remnants?

”Maybe there's something in the textbooks,” she asked, ”a scribble in a margin that might mean something?”