Chapter 7 (2/2)

”I'm not making it an issue! How can you not understand this is a bad idea?” I ran one the hand that was not still behind my back through my hair.

”Because if you just gave in we wouldn't be fighting”

”We always fight, that's not going to change” I reminded him. Chases and I couldn't go more than a few hours without fighting. It's always been that way.

”Why do you keep fighting me Lee? Why is it that you can be so open with me when were in bed”

”I don't recall it being in bed most the time” it just slipped out and I saw a small smile on his face, I bit my lip because this was a slightly awkward moment.

”Don't do that. And anyways, you're open with me and you're feisty as hell but then as soon as it's over you let me hold you, and then you push me away. Why?”

”Because we can't Chase. It's not right”

”God Lee, it's just sex. What's so wrong with sex” I looked away from him.

I took a deep breath and looked up at him ”I need to get back to work”

”And you pull away from me again” and now he was just frustrating me. We were obviously not going to see eye to eye, and then he just tell me it's sex. And then wonders why I don't want to risk my relationship with my brother, the company, and their relationship?

”I'm sorry that I can't be your fuck buddy, Chase. It's just sex after all so go find someone else” I glared at him and his eyes widened. ”I left early to get you this” I set the muffin on his desk, his eyes went to it and then to my eyes.

They looked softer, he didn't look angry anymore, he looked upset and guilty.

”Lee” he started but I cut him off.

”Anything else you need Mr. Rodriquez?” I asked in the best professional voice I could.

”Brylee, I didn't”

”No? Well if you need any help just let me know.” I told him and turned to walk towards the door.

”Brylee, wait” I stopped but didn't turn around.

”Yes, Mr. Rodriquez?” I asked

”Lee, don't call”

”My name is Brylee or Ms. Acosta.” I corrected him. I didn't want him to call me that. Because to me, it wasn't just sex.

He said nothing so I continued walking out the door. I can't believe he would risk his relationship with my brother for just sex; does he not value it at all?

I've known Chase forever, and I know how he works. He doesn't have feelings for people unless it's family or friends, he doesn't do the relationship thing, it's all about sex for him.

And I let myself be his next bed buddy.

I felt disgusted and ashamed of myself. It's been so long since the last time I had sex, and I told myself I would never have sex with a guy I wasn't dating. I didn't want to sleep around, and I threw that all away for Chase. I felt like such a slut for it too.

Worst part is thinking that it actually meant something more to him. What the hell is wrong with me?

I went back to my office and my brother came in

”Make up yet?” he asked me and I looked down and just shook my head. ”Why are you guys fighting?” he asked, I just wanted him to go away.

”I don't know. Ask him” I said harshly and glared at him. He held his hands up in surrender and backed out of my office and back into his. Well at least he's gone.

But at the same time I just wanted to call him back and have him hug me and tell me it's going to be okay and that we can hire someone to kill him.

So I did what any girl would do, I called my best friend.

”Roro, I need my bestie right now. Will you come stay with me tonight?” I asked as soon as she answered, not even giving her time to say hello.

”Ryry what's wrong?” she asked

”I'll tell you if you come stay with me tonight, please.” I begged, and she seemed to pick up on the desperation in my voice.

”Alright. I'll be there after work. Love you”

”Love you too, you really are the best” and I meant that. So I just had to get through the day and then Rochelle can make it all better, she's good at doing that. She's great with advice and hopefully she can help me out of the mess I got myself into, well after she makes me tell her every detail.