Vol 1 Chapter 1 (1/2)
Chapter 01
Birth of a Soldier
Part One
On a cold, cold January night, I learned about the existence of a
conspiracy
In my tiny six-mat1
, one-room apartment, I had ensconced myself
next to my kotatsu stove2
It was a painfully dreary night
Despite it being a new ht I even
cried while eating my New Year's soup3
For an unee dropout, the
winter chill was piercing In the middle of my filthy room, where
thrown-off clothing littered the floor and the sarette smoke
had soaked into the walls, I sighed over and over
How could things have come to this?
It was all I could think about
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”Ah,” I moaned
If I didn't break out of my present condition soon, I would fall
behind completely and disappear from normal society Even worse, I was
a college dropout already I needed to find work fast and return to
society
I justcouldn't do it
Why? What was the reason?
The answer is simple: Because I am a hikikomori
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Currently, the hottest, most popular new social phenomenon—
hikikomori That's me A recluse
They say that there are now approximately two million hikikomori
living in japan Two million is a tremendous number If someone threw
a rock on the street, they would hit a hikikomoriOf course, that
wouldn't really happen Hikikoo outside, after all
Anyway, I was one of the hikikomori currently so popular here in
japan Not to mention that I was somewhat of a veteran hikikomori I
left o to a
convenience store for food and cigarettes My friends numbered zero,
and I slept sixteen hours a day
This year wouldas a hikikomori My
lifestyle had caused e
Seriously, I was such a frightful hikikomori that I should have been
approaching professional status No ainst,
I really doubted I'd lose easily to other hikikomori
In fact, I was confident that if an ”International Hikikomori
Olympics” were to take place, I would score pretty well I was certain I
would beat out other hikikoardless of country, whether it was a
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Russian hikikolish hikikomori
whose escape was through drugs, or an American hikikomori who found
escape by randouns indoors
Right! The famous founder of kyokushi+n karate,
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Mr Masutatsu
Ohyama, also known as the ”Godhand,” supposedly holed up in the
his youth in order to hone his spirit before going on to
becoest karate master If you think about it from
that standpoint, then I—who have been holed up continuously in this
apartment for a number of years—must be, at this very moment,
incredibly close to becoest man in the world
Well, it orth a try I decided to set up a beer bottle and try to
break it with a chop of the hand
”Hiii-ya!”
While wrapping e, I sat back down
at the kotatsu
Any way you looked at it,properly of
late Could it be because I get sixteen hours of sleep per day? Or was it
because I'd avoided contact with other people for more than half a year?
All day long,Even when I walked to the
bathrooait was unsteady
But I didn't care about all that
The more immediate problem was how to break out of this helpless
hikikomori lifestyle
Yes! I have to escape this festering hikikomori life as fast as possible A
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return to hu out! I'll work, find a
girlfriend, and lead a normal life!
If I continue this way, I will become a trauma victim If I continue like this,
I will be disqualified as a huht now!
Resolutions, however—such as ”Today is the day I go outside and
make myself find a part-time job!”—just faded away like mist, in fewer
than ten minutes
Why? Why is this?
Probablylife as a hikikomori had rotted away
the very roots of my spirit
I can't go on like tins Iquickly
At that point, I decided that in order to force hly
weakened spirit to recover, I would try taking so I
ordered online
Even though it's called White Drug, it's not a major stimulant or
anything It's a perfectly legal, relatively powerful hallucinogen
However, although legal, it's said to have nearly the same effect as LSD
It acts directly on the serotonin receptors in the brain and reputedly
causes unbelievably intense visions
Exactly To escape loomy situation, I had no choice but to rely
on phar to
stiens
It’s just as the famous Tatsuhiko shi+busawa6
said: ”The
enlighten and the
enlightens are, in the end, one and the same”
Or so like that
If that's the case, then let s
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I will gain enlightenment and escape my hikikomori self I will shatter my
feeble spirit and replace it with a strong sturdy courage I will place just a small
a on top of my kotatsu and, in one breath, I will snort
it up my nose!
Part Two
Oh, hoonderful, how pleasant!
In rimy, six-mat, one-room apartment, with a kitchen sink
filled with dirty dishes and a floor littered with cast-off clothing, I
actually experienced a trip!
The walls wobble and squirm while the air conditioner breathes deeply
Mr Stereo Speaker is talking
Oh! Everything is alive We are all one world
Mr Refrigerator, good evening
Mr Kotatsu, thank you for war me
Mr Bed, you're the most comfortable bed ever
Mr TV, Mr Computer, and everyone else I've met up to this point, thank
you all
”Mr Satou, break out of your hikikomori life soon!”
Oh, everyone, you're all supporting
could make me happier Now, I'll be fine With everyone's warm support, I can
escape from my life as a hikikomori
Please watch Look, right now, I ao outside It's three o'clock in
the , but that does not concern me I'm about to escape from this room
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