Part 7 (1/2)
”No one knows the burden that the boy has been to me, but I couldn't find it in my heart to part with him.”
”If you had written to us, as you promised to do, we would have relieved you of the burden,” Mrs. Beaton replied.
”I've been going to write hundreds of times, only I'm such a bad letter-writer. And then I've intended to come and see you, but I've put off coming because things always seemed to prevent me. We stayed at Brighton three months; I don't like Brighton. I was glad to get nearer to London.”
”Where did you go when you left Brighton?” Andrew inquired.
”We came up to Lee. My niece Maria is married to a market-gardener there, a Mr. Dennett; he's a most respectable man, and he took quite a fancy to Jamie. But Maria has no children, and she doesn't care for boys; they seem to worry her.”
”And between you and Maria the poor little fellow was neglected,” cried Mrs. Beaton, in a tremor of anger.
”Don't say so; pray, don't say so; it hurts my feelings dreadfully,”
wailed Mrs. Penn. ”I'm sure I paid regularly for him and myself, and he always had enough to eat. But, as Maria has often said, it's a troublesome thing to have a child on your hands.”
”How did you lose him?” Mrs. Beaton asked. She steadied her voice as well as she could, but there was an angry light in her kind old eyes.
”I didn't lose him. He lost himself. He must have wandered away somewhere,” said this exasperating woman, beginning to cry again. ”We went to the police, and did all we could to find him, but we never caught a glimpse of him any more. After wearing myself out for nine weeks, I saw your notice in the _Daily Telegraph_, and then I thought you must have found him. I came here all in a hurry, with my heart full of hope.”
There was nothing more to be extracted from her. It was clear that she had told all she could tell.
Elsie turned to Andrew with a look of distress more eloquent than words.
As he met the sorrowful gaze of her beautiful dark eyes, a light seemed suddenly to flash from his, and he spoke out in a resolute tone.
”Don't be afraid that I shall let the gra.s.s grow under my feet, Miss Kilner. I shall go to Scotland Yard at once,” he said, rising and b.u.t.toning his coat.
He merely lingered to ask Mrs. Penn a few rapid questions about the boy's dress and general appearance, and then the door closed behind him, and he was gone.
There was a moment of silence; then Elsie, rising from her chair, went over to Mrs. Beaton and kissed her.
”I am going home now,” she whispered. ”We won't despair yet. I shall try to be hopeful.”
But her attempts at hopefulness were of little avail, and she hurried out of Wardour Street, holding her head down, crying as she went. She walked swiftly, never once slackening her speed till she had gained her own door. And inside the house she seemed to lose all courage and strength and faith, and fell sobbing into Miss Saxon's arms.
”Oh,” she said, ”it is all in vain! Jamie is lost, utterly lost, and only his angel knows where to find him!”
CHAPTER VIII
_LOOKING AT PICTURES_
”A quiet and weary woman, With all her illusions flown.”
--A. A. PROCTOR.
About this time, when there was nothing to do but to stand and wait, Elsie occupied herself chiefly with books.
One little bit of literary work (which will live, I suppose, as long as literature endures) particularly engaged her attention in these days. It was ”Dream-Children” in the ”Essays of Elia.”
She had so accustomed herself to the imaginary companions.h.i.+p of Jamie that she found it almost impossible to live without him. At nights she had fallen into a habit of glancing towards that corner of her large bedroom in which his little bed was to stand. There was the golden head burying its fluffy curls in the pillow; there was the dimpled hand lying outside the quilt.