Part 18 (1/2)
CHAPTER X.
HOW MAURICE GIVES WAY TO TEMPER, AND HOW LADY RYLTON PLANTS A SHAFT OR TWO. AND HOW MARGARET SAYS A WORD IN SEASON, AND HOW IN RETURN COLONEL NEILSON SAYS A WORD TO HER.
Maurice goes straight to his mother's room, not from a sense of duty, but a desire to clinch the matter finally. Lady Rylton would be the last person to permit backsliding where her own interests were concerned, and perhaps---- He does not exactly say it to himself in so many words, but he feels a certain dread of the moment when he shall be alone--a prey to thought. What if he should regret the move he had taken, to the extent of wanting it undone? His step grows quicker as he approaches his mother's room. His interview with her is of the slightest--a bare declaration of the fact. She would have fallen upon his neck in the exuberance of her triumph and her satisfaction, but he coldly repulses her.
”My dear mother, why such enthusiasm over my engagement to a girl of whom you distinctly disapprove?”
”Disapprove! Of t.i.ta! Dearest Maurice, what an idea!”
”We won't go into it,” says Maurice, with a gesture of ill-suppressed disgust. ”I know your opinion of her. I beg to say, however, I do not share it. Badly as I shall come out of this transaction, I should like you to remember that I both admire and like Miss Bolton.”
”I know, dearest boy, I know,” says Lady Rylton, in the tone one would use to an acute sufferer. ”It is very n.o.ble of you, Maurice.
It is a sacrifice. I felt sometimes I had no right to demand----”
”The sacrifice is hers,” says he shortly, gloomily.
His eyes are bent upon the ground.
”Hers! That little upst---- that poor unsophisticated child! My dear Maurice, why run away with things? Of course she was charmed, enchanted, _flattered_, in that you admired her so much as to ask her to be your wife.”
”She was not,” says Maurice flatly.
”Exactly what I should have expected from such a----” Lady Rylton checks herself in her fury. ”From such an innocent creature,”
subst.i.tutes she. ”But for all that, I shall consider how great is the sacrifice you have made, Maurice--how you have given up the happiness of your life to preserve the old name.”
”I am beginning to get tired of the old name,” says Maurice slowly.
”Its n.o.bility seems to me to be on the decline.”
”Oh, not now,” says Lady Rylton, who does not understand him, who could not, if she tried, fathom the depths of self-contempt that he endures, when he thinks of this evening's work, of his permitting this child to marry him, and give him her wealth--for nothing--nothing! What _can_ he give her in return? An old name. She had not seemed to care for that--to know the importance of it. ”Now it will rise again, and at all events, Maurice, you have saved the old home!”
”True!” says he. ”For you.”
”For _me?_ Oh, dearest boy, what _can_ you mean?”
”Yes, for you only. She refuses to live here with you.”
The very disquietude of his soul has driven him into this mad avowal. Looking at her with dull eyes and lowering brows, he tells himself--in this, one of the saddest hours of his life--that he hates the mother who bore him. Her delight in his engagement is odious to him; it seems to fan his rage against her. What has she ever done for him, what sympathy has she ever shown? She has embittered the life of the woman he loves; she has insulted the woman he is to marry. What consideration does she deserve at his hands?
”She refuses to live here with _me?”_ says Lady Rylton. ”And why, may I ask?”
Her small, pale face flushes angrily.
”I don't know, really; you should be the one to know.”
His tone is so cold, so uncompromising, that she decides on coming to terms for the present. Afterwards, when that girl has married him, she will remember to some purpose, so far as _she_ is concerned. There is a little tale that she can tell her.