Part 21 (2/2)
'I have heard good and bad from his lips. If he spoke hastily of the world at times, mayhap it had not treated him with too much kindness.
Indeed he said as much to me, and that it was not his fault that he thought so meanly of mankind.'
'What poison this to pour into a young heart!' broke in Alfieri. 'The cattle upon the thousand hills eat not of noxious herbage; their better instincts protect them, even where seductive fruits and flowers woo their tastes. It is man alone is beguiled by false appearances, and this out of the very subtlety of his own nature. The plague-spot of the heart is distrust!'
'These are better teachings, boy, than Signor Gabriel's,' said the lady.
'You know him, then?' asked Gerald.
'I have little doubt that we are speaking of the same person; and if so, not I alone, but all Europe knows him.'
Gerald burned to inquire further, to know who and what this mysterious man was, how he had earned the terrible reputation that attended him, and what charges were alleged against him. He could not dare, however, to put questions in such a presence, and he sat moodily thinking over the issue.
Diverging from the high-road, they now entered a pathway which led through the vineyards and the olive groves, and, being narrow, Gerald found himself side by side with the Marquise, without any other near.
Here, at length, his curiosity mastered all reserve, and plucking up courage for the effort, he said--
'If my presumption were not too bold, madame, I would deem it a great favour to be permitted to ask you something of this Signor Gabriel. I know and feel that, do what I will, reason how I may, reject what I can, yet still his words have eaten down deep into my heart; and if I cannot put some antidote there against their influence, that they will sway me even against myself,'
'First, let me hear how he represented himself to you. Was he as a good man grossly tricked and cheated by the world, his candour imposed on, his generosity betrayed? Did he picture a n.o.ble nature basely trifled with?'
'No, no,' broke in Gerald; 'he said, indeed, at first he felt disposed to like his fellow-men, but that the impulse was unprofitable; that the true philosophy was unbelief. Still he avowed that he devoted himself to every indulgence; that happiness meant pleasure, pleasure excess; that out of the convulsive throes of the wildest debauchery, great and glorious sensations, enn.o.bling thoughts spring--just as the volcano in full eruption throws up gold amid the lava: and he bade me, if I would know myself, to taste of this same existence.'
'Poor boy, these were trying temptations,'
'Not so,' broke in Gerald proudly; 'I wanted to be something better and greater than this,'
'And what would you be?' asked the Marquise, as she turned a look of interest on him.
'Oh, if a heart's yearning could do it,' cried Gerald warmly, 'I would be like him who rides yonder; I would be one whose words would give voice to many an unspoken emotion--who could make sad men hopeful, and throw over the dreariest waste of existence the soft, mild light of ideal happiness.'
She shook her head, half-sorrowfully, and said, 'Genius is the gift of one, or two, or three, in a whole century!' 'Then I would be a soldier,' cried the boy; 'I would shed my blood for a good cause. A stout heart and a strong arm are not rare gifts, but they often win rare honours.'
'Count Alfieri has been thinking about you,' said she, in a tone half confidential. 'He told me that, if you showed a disposition for it, he would place you at the University of Sienna, where you could follow your studies until such time as a career should present itself.'
'To what do I owe this gracious interest in my fate, lady?' asked he eagerly. 'Is it my casual resemblance to the prince he was so fond of?'
'So fond!' exclaimed she; then, as quickly correcting herself, she added: 'No, not altogether that--though, perhaps, the likeness may have served you,'
'How kind and good of him to think of one so friendless!' muttered Gerald, half aloud.
'Is the proposal one you would like to close with? Tell me frankly, Gherardi, for we are speaking now in all frankness!'
'Perhaps I may only lose another friend if I say no!' said he timidly; and then, with bolder accents, added: 'Let me own it, madame, I have no taste for study--at least such studies as these. My heart is set upon the world of action: I would like to win a name, no matter how brief the time left me to enjoy it.'
'Shall I tell you _my_ plan--'
'_Yours!_' broke he in. 'Surely you too have not deigned to remember me?'
'Yes; the Count interested me strongly in you. This morning we talked of little else at breakfast, and up to the moment we overtook you at the gate. His generous ardour in your behalf filled me with a like zeal, and we discussed together many a plan for your future; and mine was, that you should enter the service of the King----'
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