Part 4 (1/2)
Just the same, as I watched Lili in her dark bangs and pearl necklace and tight little gray dress that reached barely to her knees, and Bruce hulking over her tenderly in his snazzy hussar's rig, I knew that I was seeing the start of something that hadn't been part of me since Dave died fighting Franco years before I got on the Big Time, the sort of thing that almost made me wish there could be children in the Change World. I wondered why I'd never thought of trying to work things so that Dave got Resurrected and I told myself: no, it's all changed, I've changed, better the Change Winds don't disturb Dave or I know about it.
”No, I didn't die in 1917--I was merely Recruited then,” Lili was telling Bruce. ”I lived all through the Twenties, as you can see from the way I dress. But let's not talk about that, shall we? Oh, Mr.
Marchant, do you think you can possibly remember any of those poems you started in the trenches? I can't fancy them bettering your sonnet that concludes with, 'The bough swings in the wind, the night is deep; Look at the stars, poor little ape, and sleep.'”
That one almost made me whoop--what monkeys we are, I thought--though I'd be the first to admit that the best line to use on a poet is one of his own--in fact, as many as possible. I decided I could safely forget our little Britons and devote myself to Erich or whatever needed me.
CHAPTER 3
h.e.l.l is the place for me. For to h.e.l.l go the fine churchmen, and the fine knights, killed in the tourney or in some grand war, the brave soldiers and the gallant gentlemen. With them will I go. There go also the fair gracious ladies who have lovers two or three beside their lord. There go the gold and the silver, the sables and ermine.
There go the harpers and the minstrels and the kings of the earth.
--Auca.s.sin
NINE FOR A PARTY
I exchanged my drink for a new one from another tray Beau was bringing around. The gray of the Void was beginning to look real pleasant, like warm thick mist with millions of tiny diamonds floating in it. Doc was sitting grandly at the bar with a steaming tumbler of tea--a chaser, I guess, since he was just putting down a shot gla.s.s. Sid was talking to Erich and laughing at the same time and I said to myself it begins to feel like a party, but something's lacking.
It wasn't anything to do with the Major Maintainer; its telltale was glowing a steady red like a nice little home fire amid the tight cl.u.s.ter of dials that included all the controls except the lonely and frightening Introversion switch that was never touched. Then Maud's couch curtains winked out and there were she and the Roman sitting quietly side by side.
He looked down at his s.h.i.+ny boots and the rest of his black duds like he was just waking up and couldn't believe it all, and he said, ”_Omnia mutantur, nos et mutamur in illis_,” and I raised my eyebrows at Beau, who was taking the tray back, and he did proud by old Vicksburg by translating: ”All things change and we change with them.”
Then Mark slowly looked around at us, and I can testify that a Roman smile is just as warm as any other nationality, and he finally said, ”We are nine, the proper number for a party. The couches, too. It is good.”
Maud chuckled proudly and Erich shouted, ”Welcome back from the Void, _Kamerad_,” and then, because he's German and thinks all parties have to be noisy and satirically pompous, he jumped on a couch and announced, ”_Herren und Damen_, permit me to introduce the n.o.blest Roman of them all, Marcus Vipsaius Niger, legate to Nero Claudius (called Germanicus in a former time stream) and who in 763 A.U.C. (Correct, Mark? It means 10 A.D., you meatheads!) died bravely fighting the Parthians and the Snakes in the Battle of Alexandria. _Hoch, hoch, hoch!_”
We all swung our gla.s.ses and cheered with him and Sid yelled at Erich, ”Keep your feet off the furniture, you unschooled rogue,” and grinned and boomed at all three hussars, ”Take your ease, Recuperees,” and Maud and Mark got their drinks, the Roman paining Beau by refusing Falernian wine in favor of scotch and soda, and right away everyone was talking a mile a minute.
We had a lot to catch up on. There was the usual yak about the war--”The Snakes are laying mine fields in the Void,” ”I don't believe it, how can you mine nothing?”--and the shortages--bourbon, bobby pins, and the stabilitin that would have brought Mark out of it faster--and what had become of people--”Marcia? Oh, she's not around any more,” (She'd been caught in a Change Gale and green and stinking in five seconds, but I wasn't going to say that)--and Mark had to be told about Bruce's glove, which convulsed us all over again, and the Roman remembered a legionary who had carried a gripe all the way to Octavius because he'd accidentally been issued the unbelievable luxury item sugar instead of the usual salt, and Erich asked Sid if he had any new Ghostgirls in stock and Sid sucked his beard like the old goat he is. ”Dost thou ask me, l.u.s.ty Allemand? Nay, there are several great beauties, amongst them an Austrian countess from Strauss's Vienna, and if it were not for sweetling here ... Mnnnn.”
I poked a finger in Erich's chest between two of the bright b.u.t.tons with their tiny death's heads. ”You, my little von Hohenwald, are a menace to us real girls. You have too much of a thing about the unawakened, ghost kind.”
He called me his little Demon and hugged me a bit too hard to prove it wasn't so, and then he suggested we show Bruce the Art Gallery. I thought this was a real brilliant idea, but when I tried to argue him out of it, he got stubborn. Bruce and Lili were willing to do anything anyone wanted them to, though not so willing to pay any attention while doing it. The saber cut was just a thin red line on his cheek; she'd washed away all the dried blood.
The Gallery gets you, though. It's a bunch of paintings and sculptures and especially odd knick-knacks, all made by Soldiers recuperating here, and a lot of them telling about the Change War from the stuff they're made of--bra.s.s cartridges, flaked flint, bits of ancient pottery glued into futuristic shapes, mashed-up Incan gold rebeaten by a Martian, whorls of beady Lunan wire, a picture in tempera on a crinkle-cracked thick round of quartz that had filled a stars.h.i.+p porthole, a Sumerian inscription chiseled into a brick from an atomic oven.
There are a lot of things in the Gallery and I can always find some I haven't ever seen before. It gets you, as I say, thinking about the guys that made them and their thoughts and the far times and places they came from, and sometimes, when I'm feeling low, I'll come and look at them so I'll feel still lower and get inspired to kick myself back into a good temper. It's the only history of the Place there is and it doesn't change a great deal, because the things in it and the feelings that went into them resist the Change Winds better than anything else.
Right now, Erich's witty lecture was bouncing off the big ears I hide under my pageboy bob and I was thinking how awful it is that for us that there's not only change but Change. You don't know from one minute to the next whether a mood or idea you've got is really new or just welling up into you because the past has been altered by the Spiders or Snakes.
Change Winds can blow not only death but anything short of it, down to the featheriest fancy. They blow thousands of times faster than time moves, but no one can say how much faster or how far one of them will travel or what damage it'll do or how soon it'll damp out. The Big Time isn't the little time.
And then, for the Demons, there's the fear that our personality will just fade and someone else climb into the driver's seat and us not even know. Of course, we Demons are supposed to be able to remember through Change and in spite of it; that's why we are Demons and not Ghosts like the other Doublegangers, or merely Zombies or Unborn and nothing more, and as Beau truly said, there aren't any great men among us--and blamed few of the ma.s.ses, either--we're a rare sort of people and that's why the Spiders have to Recruit us where they find us without caring about our previous knowledge and background, a Foreign Legion of time, a strange kind of folk, bright but always in the background, with built-in nostalgia and cynicism, as adaptable as Centaurian shape-changers but with memories as long as a Lunan's six arms, a kind of Change People, you might say, the cream of the d.a.m.ned.