Part 26 (2/2)

Maybe not. Even if we got a name, it might not do us any good. And we don't want anyone to make a connection between St. Bart's and Guadalajara.

I gestured at the screen. No one can track that signal to here?

Not the pictures. It's an Iridium service. I decrypt them pa.s.sively from anywhere in the world. He turned off the screen. You going to the unveiling? Today was the day Jefferson and Ingram were to have finished the humanization process.

Blaze wondered whether I ought to. My feelings about Ingram are still pretty Neanderthal.

I can't imagine. He only tried to murder your woman and then you as well.

Not to mention insulting my manhood and attempting to destroy the universe. But I'm due in the Clinic this afternoon anyhow, to get my memory f.u.c.ked with. Might as well see Wonder Boy in action.

Give me a report. I'm going to stay by the screen for the next day or two, in case 'Agent Simone' tries another visit.

Of course I wouldn't be able to give him a report, because the encounter with Ingram was related to all the stuff I was having erased, or at least so I a.s.sumed-I wouldn't be able to remember his a.s.sault on Amelia without recalling what she had done to attract his attention. Good luck. You might check with Marty-his general might have some way to access FBI personnel records.

Good idea. He stood up. Cup of coffee? No, thanks. Spend the rest of the morning with Blaze. We don't know who I'm going to be tomorrow.

Frightening prospect. But Marty swears it's totally reversible.

That's true. But Marty was going ahead with the plan even though it meant the risk of a billion or more dying or losing their sanity. Maybe my losing or keeping my memories didn't rank too high on his list of priorities.

THE WOMAN WHO CALLED herself Audrey Simone, whose cell name was Gavrila, would never go back to the monastery. She had learned enough there.

It took her more than a day to put together a mosaic of Indium pictures of the two blue vehicles making their way from North Dakota to Guadalajara. By G.o.d's grace the last picture was perfect timing: the truck had disappeared and the bus was signaling for a left turn into an underground parking garage. She used a grid to find the address and was not surprised when it turned out to be a clinic for installing jacks. That G.o.dless practice was at the heart of everything, obviously.

General Blaisdell arranged transportation to Guadalajara for her, but she had to wait six hours for an express package to arrive. There was no sporting goods store in North Dakota where she could replace the ammunition she'd used up opening doors-Magnum-load dum-dum bullets that wouldn't set off airport detectors. She didn't want to run out of them, if she had to fight her way to the redheaded scientist. And perhaps Ingram.

INGRAM AND JEFFERSON SAT together in hospital blues. They were in straight-backed chairs of expensive teak or mahogany. I didn't notice the unusual wood first, though. I noticed that Jefferson sat with a serene, relaxed expression that reminded me of the Twenty, Ingram's expression was literally unreadable, and both of his wrists were handcuffed to the chair arms.

There was a semicircle of twenty chairs facing them in the featureless white round room. It was an operating theater, with glowing walls for the display of X-ray or positron transparencies.

Amelia and I took the last empty chairs. What's with Ingram? I said. It didn't take?

He just shut down, Jefferson said. When he realized he couldn't resist the process, he went into a kind of catatonia. He didn't come out of it when we unjacked him.

Maybe he's bluffing, Amelia said, probably remembering the conference room at St. Bart's. Waiting for an opportunity to strike.

That's why he's handcuffed, Marty said. He's a wild card now.

He's just not there, Jefferson said. I've jacked with more people than everybody in this room put together, and nothing like this has ever happened. You can't unjack yourself mentally, but that's what it felt like. Like he decided to pull the plug.

Not exactly a selling point for humanization, I said to Marty. It works on everyone but psychopaths?

That's the word they used to describe me, Ellie said, saintly and serene. And it was accurate. She had murdered her husband and children, with gasoline. But the process worked with me, and still works after all these years. Without it, I know I would have gone crazy; stayed crazy.

The term 'psychopath' covers a lot of territory. Jefferson said. Ingram is intensely moral, even though he's repeatedly done things that all of us would call immoral; outrageously so.

When I was jacked with him, I said, he reacted to my outrage with a kind of imperturbable condescension. I was a hopeless case who couldn't understand the rightness of the things he had done. That was the first day.

We wore him down a little over the next couple of days, Jefferson said. By not disapproving; by trying to understand.

How can you 'understand' someone who can follow an order to rape a woman and then mutilate her in a specific way? He left her tied up and gagged, to bleed to death. He's not even human.

But he is human, Jefferson said, and however bizarre his behavior is, it's still human behavior. I think that's what shut him down-we refused to see him as some sort of avenging angel. Just a profoundly sick man we were trying to help. He could take your condemnation and laugh at it. He couldn't take Elbe's Christian charity and loving kindness. Or, for that matter, my own professional detachment.

He should be dead by now, Dr. Orr said. He hasn't taken any food or water since the third day. We've kept him on IVs.

A waste of glucose, I said.

You know better. Marty waved fingers in front of Ingram's face and he didn't blink. We have to find out why this happened, and how common it's going to be.

Not common, Mendez said. I was with him before, during, and after his retreat into wherever he is now. From the first, it was like jacking with some kind of alien, or animal.

I'll go along with that, I said.

But nevertheless very a.n.a.lytical, Jefferson said. Studying us intently from the very first.

Studying what we knew about jacking, Ellie said. He wasn't that interested in anybody as a person. But he had only jacked before in a limited, commercial way, and he was hungry to absorb our experience.

Jefferson nodded. ”He had this vivid fantasy that he extrapolated from the jack joints. He wanted to be jacked with someone and kill him.

Or her, Amelia said, like me, or that poor woman he raped and cut up.

The fantasy was always a male, Ellie said. He doesn't see women as worthy opponents. And he doesn't have much of a s.e.x drive-when he raped that woman, his p.e.n.i.s was just another weapon.

An extension of his self, like all of his weapons, Jefferson said. He's more obsessive about weapons than any soldier I ever jacked with.

He missed his calling. I know some guys he'd get along with fine.

I don't doubt it, Marty said. Which makes him that much more important to study. Some people in hunter-killer platoons have similar personality traits. We have to find a way to keep this from happening.

Good riddance, I didn't say. So you won't be coming with me tomorrow? Stay here?

No, I'm still going to Portobello. Dr. Jefferson's going to work on Ingram. See whether he can walk him back with a combination of drugs and therapy.

I don't know whether to wish you luck. I really prefer him this way. Maybe it was just my imagination, but I thought the b.a.s.t.a.r.d showed a glimmer of expression at that. Maybe we should send Marty down to Portobello alone, and leave me up here to taunt him out of catatonia.

JULIAN AND MARTY MISSED by only a few minutes sharing the Guadalajara airport with the woman who had come down to kill Amelia. They got on a military flight to Portobello while she took a taxi from the airport to the hotel across the street from the Clinic. Jefferson was staying there, no coincidence, and so were two of the Twenty-Ellie and the old soldier Cameron.

Jefferson and Cameron were dawdling over breakfast in the hotel cantina when she walked in to get a cup of coffee to take back to her room.

They both looked at her automatically, as men will when a beautiful woman makes an entrance, but Cameron kept staring.

Jefferson laughed and put on the accent of a popular comedian. Jim ... you don't stop puttin' eye tracks on her, she's gonna come over and smack you one. The two men had become friends, having worked their way up from the same beginning, the lower-cla.s.s black suburbs of Los Angeles.

He turned around with a careful expression and said quietly, Zam, she might more'n smack me. Kill me just for practice.

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