Part 13 (1/2)

Richard had already explained about Sara and William's mother, in more detail than Mrs. Twitchen would share. She could understand why Mrs. Twitchen had been concerned, but she thought that she would, in time, be able to overcome the discomfort the thought of that fallen woman brought her.

Jealousy nibbled at her heart when she thought of the woman he had loved and who had given him children who were the center of his world. By his own admission the woman was beautiful and charming, and though he discounted those traits as valueless, she knew she would be tempted to hold herself against them in weak comparison, and to wonder if Richard had any last ember of feeling for the woman.

She would be strong, though; she would not let such thoughts destroy her confidence. It was as Penelope had said: he would value Vivian as Vivian valued herself. She would not let thoughts of the former mistress destroy her chance at happiness.

To let the past eat at her would be to invite a lifetime of distress, if it should happen that she and Richard were to wed. The woman, having not had the good grace to die or move to South America, would be making regular, if infrequent, appearances in Sara's and William's lives. Which meanta”if Vivian became Mrs. Brenta”in her own life, as well.

It was not a pleasant thought.

Neither was it an undigestible thought. There was much she could swallow if it meant becoming Mrs. Brent, and she was almost embarra.s.sed to admit that a fair deal of the persuasion had been done by Richard's mouth on her hand.

She had relived a dozen times his seduction of her hand, and with each remembrance her body flushed anew with pleasure, her blood warming and tingling in intimate places. She schemed in her mind for how they might next find a private moment together, when he could again take her hand and ravish it.

Or ravish all of her. Let him have her! Then they would have to marry, and she would rush to the prize without having to play all the steps in the game. Only the prize was no longer marriage for the sake of marriage, but was Richard himself.

She saw his tenderness for his children; she saw his vulnerability that he hid behind his blunt words; she saw that his scandalous decisions regarding his children were the only choices that had true honor to them, not the false honor of society. He was a good man, with a true and gentle heart.

And he made her body feel things she would not speak of to Penelope or Mrs. Twitchen for all the cakes in France.

She was so consumed with thoughts of Richard that she had eaten only half the gingerbread on her plate. It sat now in a pool of lemon sauce on the small table with her cold cup of tea.

”Is something amiss?” she asked Mrs. Twitchen, as the woman sat next to her in the window seat. She pulled up her feet to make more s.p.a.ce.

”Nothing so far, I do hope, and it is my duty to prevent what I may. Only this is so very awkward and embarra.s.sing, Mr. Brent being a relative of sorts. And from such a good family! One hesitates to say anything against him, yet I feel I must, I simply must warn you away from him.”

”Is it the mother of his children that distresses you?”

”You know about that, then?” the lady asked, surprised.

”He told me himself.”

”Then he told you as well about the other woman, the young lady of good family whom he jilted?”

Vivian sucked in a breath, taken by the same surprise with which one slips and falls on the ice.

”I see he did not,” Mrs. Twitchen said. ”Dear me, I do hate telling such tales, and about one almost in my own family! It was a horrible scandal. They were engaged, and he broke it off without explanation. The girl's father sued for breach of contract, and besides for paying her a settlement Mr. Brent was forced to put an apology accepting all blame in the Gazette. Of course, no one will have anything to do with him now.”

”Surely he had some reason?”

”If he did, he never spoke publicly of it. And who would dare to ask?”

”I can hardly warrant that he is guilty of such a thing,” Vivian said, willing herself to disbelieve.

”Mr. Brent may have kind places in his heart, but that does not mean you can trust him. Men are not always what they seem when they have their eye on a young woman and are pursuing her. Remember, even a tyrant like Napoleon probably had one or two good traits amidst all the rest, and I imagine he could be as charming as any other when he pleased.”

”Mr. Brent does not seem like such a man,” Vivian said faintly, her view of him turned upside down, tumbling away from the image she had built, all her growing affections now in peril of destruction.

”Be careful, my dear,” Mrs. Twitchen said. ”My husband and I are in agreement. We don't want to see you hurt, or what chances you have at making a match ruined.”

”Thank you,” Vivian said.

She spent the remainder of the afternoon staring out the window at nothing. And eating gingerbread.

Chapter Six.

December 28 The Feast of the Holy Innocents The great hall at Haverton rang with the excited shouts and laughter of children. The puppet show had just finished, and now the thirty or so children were going at the sweets and the games. Adults milled among them, imposing the barest sense of order.

”It's a Sudley tradition on Innocents' Day,” Penelope said, standing beside Vivian as they observed the chaos. ”I remember coming here as a child, myself. All the children of the parish are invited, no matter who their parents might be. Mama never liked me playing with the common children, but it didn't bother me overmuch that they were present, and really, it was easy enough to stay away from them.”

Watching the children, Vivian thought they showed far less sn.o.bbishness than Penelope. The well- and poorly dressed played games and ran around with the same shrieking joy, and those who stuck to their own kind seemed to do so only because they were known friends.

Her eye lit upon Richard keeping an eye on William, who was trying to play with boys larger than himself. Her heart contracted, and she felt suddenly wistful, wondering what it would have been like to grow up protected by such a loving hand. She had never met a man like Richard Brent, who was so closely involved in the rearing of his children.

Mrs. Twitchen had tried to warn her away from him, and the tale of the jilting preyed upon her mind, adding its weight to the mistress and the children as things she would have to accept, but she had to believe that once she heard Richard's side, he would prove to have had good reason for his actions.

Surely there must have been good reason? She could not have been so wrong about him, could she?

The tables of sweets beckoned to her, and she excused herself from Penelope and wound her way toward them.

Three or four women guarded the tables, ensuring that greedy fingers did not wreak havoc. They talked among themselves, and nodded their greetings to Vivian as she looked over the goods on offer.

”They're darlings, but it's a bit of a madhouse, don't you think?” someone said beside her.

She turned to see Lady Sudley. ”It's a lovely idea,” she said, feeling a little shy.

”And no doubt every child will go home sick from overeating and excitement.” And then to Sara Brent, who had appeared at her side, reaching for a jam tart, ”Sara! Little elf, what are you up to?”

”Papa said I could have some,” Sara said, her hand hovering over the prize.

”Did he? Well, I suppose that's all right then,” Lady Sudley consented. ”Miss Ambrose, this is Sara Brent.”

”h.e.l.lo, Miss Brent,” Vivian said, waggling her fingers at the girl.

Sara said nothing.