Part 24 (2/2)
”I should desire nothing better, sweet young lady,” replied Alizon; ”but-”
”But what?” cried Dorothy. ”You have only your own consent to obtain.”
”Alas! I have,” replied Alizon.
”How can that be!” cried Dorothy, with a disappointed look. ”It is not likely your mother will stand in the way of your advancement, and you have not, I suppose, any other tie? Nay, forgive me if I appear too inquisitive. My curiosity only proceeds from the interest I take in you.”
”I know it-I feel it, dear, kind young lady,” replied Alizon, with the colour again mounting her cheeks. ”I have no tie in the world except my family. But I am persuaded my mother will never allow me to quit her, however great the advantage might be to me.”
”Well, though sorry, I am scarcely surprised at it,” said Dorothy. ”She must love you too dearly to part with you.”
”I wish I could think so,” sighed Alizon. ”Proud of me in some sort, though with little reason, she may be, but love me, most a.s.suredly, she does not. Nay more, I am persuaded she would be glad to be freed from my presence, which is an evident restraint and annoyance to her, were it not for some motive stronger than natural affection that binds her to me.”
”Now, in good sooth, you amaze me, Alizon!” cried Dorothy. ”What possible motive can it be, if not of affection?”
”Of interest, I think,” replied Alizon. ”I speak to you without reserve, dear young lady, for the sympathy you have shown me deserves and demands confidence on my part, and there are none with whom I can freely converse, so that every emotion has been locked up in my own bosom. My mother fancies I shall one day be of use to her, and therefore keeps me with her. Hints to this effect she has thrown out, when indulging in the uncontrollable fits of pa.s.sion to which she is liable. And yet I have no just reason to complain; for though she has shown me little maternal tenderness, and repelled all exhibition of affection on my part, she has treated me very differently from her other children, and with much greater consideration. I can make slight boast of education, but the best the village could afford has been given me; and I have derived much religious culture from good Doctor Ormerod. The kind ladies of the vicarage proposed, as you have done, that I should live with them, but my mother forbade it; enjoining me, on the peril of incurring her displeasure, not to leave her, and reminding me of all the benefits I have received from her, and of the necessity of making an adequate return. And, ungrateful indeed I should be, if I did not comply; for, though her manner is harsh and cold to me, she has never ill-used me, as she has done her favourite child, my little sister Jennet, but has always allowed me a separate chamber, where I can retire when I please, to read, or meditate, or pray. For, alas! dear young lady, I dare not pray before my mother. Be not shocked at what I tell you, but I cannot hide it. My poor mother denies herself the consolation of religion-never addresses herself to Heaven in prayer-never opens the book of Life and Truth-never enters church. In her own mistaken way she has brought up poor little Jennet, who has been taught to make a scoff at religious truths and ordinances, and has never been suffered to keep holy the Sabbath-day. Happy and thankful am I, that no such evil lessons have been taught me, but rather, that I have profited by the sad example. In my own secret chamber I have prayed, daily and nightly, for both-prayed that their hearts might be turned. Often have I besought my mother to let me take Jennet to church, but she never would consent. And in that poor misguided child, dear young lady, there is a strange mixture of good and ill. Afflicted with personal deformity, and delicate in health, the mind perhaps sympathising with the body, she is wayward and uncertain in temper, but sensitive and keenly alive to kindness, and with a shrewdness beyond her years. At the risk of offending my mother, for I felt confident I was acting rightly, I have endeavoured to instil religious principles into her heart, and to inspire her with a love of truth. Sometimes she has listened to me; and I have observed strange struggles in her nature, as if the good were obtaining mastery of the evil principle, and I have striven the more to convince her, and win her over, but never with entire success, for my efforts have been overcome by pernicious counsels, and sceptical sneers. Oh, dear young lady, what would I not do to be the instrument of her salvation!”
”You pain me much by this relation, Alizon,” said Dorothy a.s.sheton, who had listened with profound attention, ”and I now wish more ardently than ever to take you from such a family.”
”I cannot leave them, dear young lady,” replied Alizon; ”for I feel I may be of infinite service-especially to Jennet-by staying with them. Where there is a soul to be saved, especially the soul of one dear as a sister, no sacrifice can be too great to make-no price too heavy to pay. By the blessing of Heaven I hope to save her! And that is the great tie that binds me to a home, only so in name.”
”I will not oppose your virtuous intentions, dear Alizon,” replied Dorothy; ”but I must now mention a circ.u.mstance in connexion with your mother, of which you are perhaps in ignorance, but which it is right you should know, and therefore no false delicacy on my part shall restrain me from mentioning it. Your grandmother, Old Demdike, is in very ill depute in Pendle, and is stigmatised by the common folk, and even by others, as a witch. Your mother, too, shares in the opprobrium attaching to her.”
”I dreaded this,” replied Alizon, turning deadly pale, and trembling violently, ”I feared you had heard the terrible report. But oh, believe it not! My poor mother is erring enough, but she is not so bad as that. Oh, believe it not!”
”I will not believe it,” said Dorothy, ”since she is blessed with such a daughter as you. But what I fear is that you-you so kind, so good, so beautiful-may come under the same ban.”
”I must run this risk also, in the good work I have appointed myself,” replied Alizon. ”If I am ill thought of by men, I shall have the approval of my own conscience to uphold me. Whatever betide, and whatever be said, do not you think ill of me, dear young lady.”
”Fear it not,” returned Dorothy, earnestly.
While thus conversing, they gradually strayed away from the cherry-tree, and taking a winding path leading in that direction, entered the conventual church, about the middle of the south aisle. After gazing with wonder and delight at the still majestic pillars, that, like ghosts of the departed brethren, seemed to protest against the desolation around them, they took their way along the nave, through broken arches, and over prostrate fragments of stone, to the eastern extremity of the fane, and having admired the light shafts and clerestory windows of the choir, as well as the magnificent painted gla.s.s over the altar, they stopped before an arched doorway on the right, with two Gothic niches, in one of which was a small stone statue of Saint Agnes with her lamb, and in the other a similar representation of Saint Margaret, crowned, and piercing the dragon with a cross. Both were sculptures of much merit, and it was wonderful they had escaped destruction. The door was closed, but it easily opened when tried by Dorothy, and they found themselves in a small but beautiful chapel. What struck them chiefly in it was a magnificent monument of white marble, enriched with numerous small s.h.i.+elds, painted and gilt, supporting two rec.u.mbent figures, representing Henry de Lacy, one of the founders of the Abbey, and his consort. The knight was cased in plate armour, covered with a surcoat, emblazoned with his arms, and his feet resting upon a hound. This superb monument was wholly uninjured, the painting and gilding being still fresh and bright. Behind it a flag had been removed, discovering a flight of steep stone steps, leading to a vault, or other subterranean chamber.
After looking round this chapel, Dorothy remarked, ”There is something else that has just occurred to me. When a child, a strange dark tale was told me, to the effect that the last ill-fated Abbot of Whalley laid his dying curse upon your grandmother, then an infant, predicting that she should be a witch, and the mother of witches.”
”I have heard the dread tradition, too,” rejoined Alizon; ”but I cannot, will not, believe it. An all-benign Power will never sanction such terrible imprecations.”
”Far be it from me to affirm the contrary,” replied Dorothy; ”but it is undoubted that some families have been, and are, under the influence of an inevitable fatality. In one respect, connected also with the same unfortunate prelate, I might instance our own family. Abbot Paslew is said to be unlucky to us even in his grave. If such a curse, as I have described, hangs over the head of your family, all your efforts to remove it will be ineffectual.”
”I trust not,” said Alizon. ”Oh! dear young lady, you have now penetrated the secret of my heart. The mystery of my life is laid open to you. Disguise it as I may, I cannot but believe my mother to be under some baneful influence. Her unholy life, her strange actions, all impress me with the idea. And there is the same tendency in Jennet.”
”You have a brother, have you not?” inquired Dorothy.
”I have,” returned Alizon, slightly colouring; ”but I see little of him, for he lives near my grandmother, in Pendle Forest, and always avoids me in his rare visits here. You will think it strange when I tell you I have never beheld my grandmother Demdike.”
”I am glad to hear it,” exclaimed Dorothy.
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