101 Considering My Feelings (1/2)

”You were confused about why I treat you so well but you also thought that it was impossible.” He stared at me intently.

”I don't know what you are talking about.”

”You know very well what I am talking about, Evie. Your lack of pride in yourself is really hindering your judgment in this case. You are beyond charming. Even your sharp tongue is something that attracts people to you. You should be more confident in yourself. I can tell you the names of every student in the classes you sit in on that are dying to ask you out but are afraid that I will hunt them down.”

I glared at him as he chuckled.

”Why would they think you will hunt them down?” I rolled my eyes. ”You might be scary, but you won't kill anyone. Everyone knows that.” I smiled.

”Because I told them explicitly that it was out of the question.” He laid back and looked at me from under his lashes. Where had he learned to make this coy expression?

”You're really weird,” I grumbled.

He started to give me a list of students who liked me. ”I catch them glancing at you in class all the time.” I frowned.

”You ask them a lot of questions, too.” Surely, they weren't paying attention in class.

”I don't care if they pay attention in class or not. They can learn these things from books or wherever they want. It's their exams, not mine. It's not because of that.” He gave me a pointed look.

”Don't avoid the answer,” I huffed.

”You have their numbers, don't you? Why don't you ask them personally?” He shrugged.

”And talk to the people who you deem like me? Don't you know men think you are interested if you call them?” I shook my head.

”No, they don't. Not when you ask about another man. That puts them in the friendzone. Try it.” His eyes blazed.

”How do you know that?” I scoffed.

”You kept talking about a future boyfriend and living with them, so I felt it firsthand. I had been friend-zoned very badly.” I burst into laughter.

”What? Do you like me?” Was I supposed to believe that?

”I don't think you are ready to find the answer out,” he replied. ”You don't think it is possible, so nothing I tell you will make you believe me.” That indicated that he did have feelings for me. Or, he was just reiterating what Dr. Knight had said.

”Sebastian, I asked you a question,” I said firmly. ”I don't like not knowing things and being confused.” I pleaded with him with my eyes.

”Why are you confused, Evie? Did you not know I was pursuing you?” he asked incredulously. I gaped at him. ”You know I never lie, Evie. So, you must think carefully.” He sat back and watched as I fought against my irrational thoughts.

But the words came out anyway. ”What if you feel bad as an investigator in the case? You saw me first-hand and felt that you had somehow not helped.”

”Well, is that what you hope, Evie?” he asked, softly. He was not offended. Instead, he was patient and understanding. ”See? You are not ready to face it. Dr. Knight wanted you to go through those exercises so that you could accept yourself and another person in your life.”

”You are part of my life, Sebastian.” And it scared the living shit out of me. ”You work a dangerous job. And I work a dangerous job. I have let you into my life without thinking about it heading towards a permanent and romantic relationship. But you... you are breaking everything.”