Chapter 359 Tang Yians Heart 3 (1/2)

Before he had spoken, Tang Yian wasn't sure what was going on anymore. It was like his whole mind was jumbled but after his eyes landed on Lu AnLing, all seemed to become clear.

But as the storm cleared over his eyes, his mind felt a rush. Right then, he felt dizziness and an intense pain emerge from his chest and throat and, as if it was being crushed, he could not breathe anymore but this was different from his headaches because unlike when he experienced those, he knew the cause of his suffocation.

Tang Yian backed away into his chair causing it to fall onto the floor with a loud smacking sound.

Hearing this, everyone else, who was frozen in place could not believe what had just happened.

Dad...?

Lu AnLing had called Tang Yian dad and he had stopped and called out to her with such gentle love that everyone would feel.

Hearing this, even Lu AnLing was a bit shocked. Her father had always been a much more hard-boiled character. At some time, too much so, but right then, when she had finally broken through to him, it was as if she had even broken through the barriers he had set up when she was a child; when Lu Xiaoling had left him.

Seeing her big eyes stare into him now, Tang Yian gulped slightly. Her eyes looked innocent, yet accusing. They were the eyes he had always seen her have, even as a baby. The eyes which always blamed him for Lu Xiaoling leaving them...

Lu AnLing hated him! He believed this completely now. Why else would she compliment Xu Shen so much in front of him?

Tang Yian felt a familiar feelings crawl up from the darkest places in his heart but then, suddenly, they subsided when he hear Lu AnLing speak.

D-dad?” Lu AnLing said a bit awkwardly this time but obvious emotions of hope and fear remained.

Hearing this, many turned to Lu AnLing who stared straight at Tang Yian.

Seeing her expression, like a little fawn who walked over to its parents for the first time, Tang Yian felt his heart fill but break at the same time.

He was an idiot!

Tang Yian was ashamed of himself. How could he have believed that she hated him. What was he thinking? What was going on? He didn't know... Until he suddenly realized... He was just trying to make himself feel like the victim, but he was not. Lu AnLing was the one who had to suffer in a world without him, believing that he had died, while he lived in subtle happiness with a fake daughter.

A fake...

Thinking about this, Tang Yian unconsciously looked at Tang Yiling and then back to Lu AnLing. Physically seeing the two, at that moment, caused Tang Yian's throat to contract. Feeling this, animal instincts kicked in and Tang Yian hurriedly made his way out of the room.

Seeing this, Lu AnLing sighed.

”If you'll excuse me.” Lu AnLing said as she pushed herself away from the table and followed Tang Yian, to the living room, leaving all the others in complete shock.

”Dad!” Lu AnLing screamed once she was in the other room. This stopped the man dead in his tracks but he didn't turn to face her.Then Lu AnLing said, ”D-do you remember me?”

Of course, he did! But how stupid he had been for not remembering her before... His own daughter!? He made her go through such a painful ordeal...

”My little siren... I'm so sorry... your father is... a complete disgrace.” Tang Yian said without turning around. He couldn't. For what he had done, he couldn't even apologize enough. Deep down, Tang Yian knew that what had happened wasn't his fault. He didn't choose to lose his memory but still... not remembering his daughter and then having her replaced was the most atrocious crime he could have unknowingly committed.

Tang Yian could not forgive himself and if he couldn't... how could he expect Lu AnLing to forgive him.

He half expected Lu AnLing to tell him that he was right. That he was trash and that she hated him and a part of Lu AnLing did. She really did. But all that hate, turned to nothingness the moment her father had called her by the nickname he had given her.

And so, when she saw Tang Yian running away, Lu AnLing couldn't help but run after him.

Lu AnLing could only assume how the man felt. Mostly considering how she had felt when she had first found out about her father's situation. Lu AnLing was angry and that was normal, and if Tang Yian was the same father that he was before he would see fault with the one responsible, and so, right now, he found himself the most responsible and Lu AnLing had to stop these seeds of destruction from growing within him.

Lu AnLing went up to her father and she took his hand, forcing him to turn to face her and then when he was turned around, Lu AnLing, who felt tears stinging her eyes, said,

”No, dad. Don't say that! This isn't your fault.”

It wasn't the right moment to talk about who was really at fault for this situation, in Lu AnLing's heart she knew that this would ruin her reunion with her dad with extreme hate towards Tang Huian, so instead, Lu AnLing said,

”If we didn't argue that day... if I didn't say that I hated you and I wanted to leave.. we would have noticed the car speeding towards us. We would have avoided all of this.”

Saying this, Lu AnLing herself was shocked. She had blamed herself back then, but she had thought she had gotten over it... but it seemed that wasn't so.

Hearing this, Tang Yian's eyes grew wide and he put his hands on her shoulder and bent down slightly to look at her in the eyes.

”What are you talking about!? How could that possibly be your fault? Where you the driver? No! Don't say such stupid things.” Her father scolded.

Hearing this, Lu AnLing felt herself about to laugh. It had been a long time since she'd been scolded by the man. This was one of the many things that she had missed... but just when she was about to laugh, tears flowed from her eyes like a waterfall.