Chapter 60 Moving Too Fast? (1/2)

Lu AnLing's phone buzzed again but she didn't dare to look back at it.

'The one I like is you…' The words sounded hard in her ears. For a moment, the girl was left speechless. Waiting, as if to create suspense, Lu AnLing staired into Kang Jun's eyes. Hers communicated many complex emotions but Kang Jun's only had one; affection.

Her heart internalized the emotion and reciprocated it with hard and fast beats.

The girl wanted to grip her chest and scream at her heart to stop its incessant action but it wouldn't listen even if she commanded it, so all she could do was try her best to deny the man's feeling, no matter how cruel it may seem.

Lu AnLing: ”You can't.”

Kang Jun couldn't help but raise his eyebrows to the girl's statement.

What did she mean by that? Was she doubting that he could fall in love with someone like her? or that someone like him could fall in love with her? Despite the small changes, both phrases posed distinct questions; it was about selling one or the both of them short.

”Why?” Kang Jun asked.

Lu AnLing's brain lagged for a second.

She opened her mouth unsure of what she was about to answer.

”Because I have a goal to accomplish and I can't do that while in a relationship.”

Her words weren't lies.

Finally, after so long, she'd found a lead about her child. An albeit small lead but still a lead nonetheless. No one who knew about her pregnancy back then would help her now, just like back then. Lu AnLing was fine with that. Yes, the path might be a lonely one but it was one she was willing to accept.

She wasn't planning on telling anyone about those incidences from back then either so it was impossible to be in a relationship.

Lu AnLing believed that relationships were built on honesty and trust. Even more so now than she did when she was dating Yang Yize. That was one of the many reasons why she refused to get into romantic relationships in the present.

No matter how Kang Jun would be kind and honest to her, she wasn't sure if she would be able to do the same to him.

Kang Jun: ”So you don't dislike me then? If that's the only reason, then I could help you with it.”

Lu AnLing threw her head back in frustration.

”Or do you like someone else?” Kang Jun's voice held a hint of resistance. It was like he himself wasn't sure if he wanted to ask the question.

It rang loud and clear in Lu AnLing's ears, causing guilt to rise within her.

Did she like someone?… She wasn't even sure how to answer that herself. It wasn't that she didn't like someone but at the same time it wasn't that she did either. She wasn't completely sure about what her feelings were. And the one who caused this confusion was sitting right in front of her…

Not hearing a reply, Kang Jun frowned and his face darkened.

”Who?”

You?...

The sound of his voice shook her to her core.

God… she wanted him. Lu AnLing couldn't deny her attraction to Kang Jun. It was impossible. But as soon as the feeling emerged in her she wanted to slap herself.

What was she thinking? Kang Jun was everything that she had told herself to avoid but Lu AnLing couldn't help but kind of, sort of, like him.

But the small tinge of liking wasn't enough for her to compromise everything she'd done over the years and chose to accept him.

Ever since her resolve to find her child had been reignited in her and all those memories of pain and suffering were felt, the walls that Kang Jun had been able to send crumpling down had rebuilt themselves.

”No one. I don't like anyone.” Lu AnLing said with determination.

Kang Jun was not quite convinced but he didn't pry into the subject, partially because he feared that her answer could be worse.

He gazed at her phone with gloominess in his eyes.

”Why do you even like me?” Lu AnLing continued. She didn't want to say those words but she just had to know.

As soon as Kang Jun heard them, he looked deep into the girl's eyes. Her words had been somewhat twisted in Kang Jun's mind. It resounded as 'why do you like someone like me?'.

Kang Jun frowned.

”Must there be a reason to like someone.”

Lu AnLing didn't know.

If asked about it now, she couldn't quite remember why she'd fallen in love with Yang Yize in the past but she could remember the times she'd felt love for him.

Hearing her silence, Kang Jun approached her slightly.

”Look, I'm not telling you to say yes right now. I'm asking you to give me a chance.”

Lu AnLing looked up to meet his gaze. His eyes were glistening and begging her. Feeling something pull on her heartstrings she parted her lips as if to say something but Kang Jun spoke first.

”Just three months.”

Hearing his words, Lu AnLing paused to think. When she had finally made her decision, Lu AnLing looked away.

”Fine. Three months.”

Lu AnLing accepted that though she felt kind of bad because no matter how much he tried he was bound for failure. She didn't plan on getting herself emotionally involved with anyone. She realized just in time that she was too close to falling for Kang Jun and now, she had to stop.