Part 47 (1/2)

As she drove to the cemetery, her bitterness turned against Ansell, who had kept her husband alive in the days after Stephen's expulsion. If he had not been there, Rickie would have renounced his mother and his brother and all the outer world, troubling no one. The mystic, inherent in him, would have prevailed. So Ansell himself had told her. And Ansell, too, had sheltered the fugitives and given them money, and saved them from the ludicrous checks that so often stop young men. But when she reached the cemetery, and stood beside the tiny grave, all her bitterness, all her hatred were turned against Rickie.

”But he'll come back in the end,” she thought. ”A wife has only to wait.

What are his friends beside me? They too will marry. I have only to wait. His book, like all that he has done, will fail. His brother is drinking himself away. Poor aimless Rickie! I have only to keep civil.

He will come back in the end.”

She had moved, and found herself close to the grave of Gerald. The flowers she had planted after his death were dead, and she had not liked to renew them. There lay the athlete, and his dust was as the little child's whom she had brought into the world with such hope, with such pain.

x.x.xIII

That same day Rickie, feeling neither poor nor aimless, left the Ansells' for a night's visit to Cadover. His aunt had invited him--why, he could not think, nor could he think why he should refuse the invitation. She could not annoy him now, and he was not vindictive. In the dell near Madingley he had cried, ”I hate no one,” in his ignorance.

Now, with full knowledge, he hated no one again. The weather was pleasant, the county attractive, and he was ready for a little change.

Maud and Stewart saw him off. Stephen, who was down for the holiday, had been left with his chin on the luncheon table. He had wanted to come also. Rickie pointed out that you cannot visit where you have broken the windows. There was an argument--there generally was--and now the young man had turned sulky.

”Let him do what he likes,” said Ansell. ”He knows more than we do. He knows everything.”

”Is he to get drunk?” Rickie asked.

”Most certainly.”

”And to go where he isn't asked?”

Maud, though liking a little spirit in a man, declared this to be impossible.

”Well, I wish you joy!” Rickie called, as the train moved away. ”He means mischief this evening. He told me piously that he felt it beating up. Good-bye!”

”But we'll wait for you to pa.s.s,” they cried. For the Salisbury train always backed out of the station and then returned, and the Ansell family, including Stewart, took an incredible pleasure in seeing it do this.

The carriage was empty. Rickie settled himself down for his little journey. First he looked at the coloured photographs. Then he read the directions for obtaining luncheon-baskets, and felt the texture of the cus.h.i.+ons. Through the windows a signal-box interested him. Then he saw the ugly little town that was now his home, and up its chief street the Ansells' memorable facade. The spirit of a genial comedy dwelt there. It was so absurd, so kindly. The house was divided against itself and yet stood. Metaphysics, commerce, social aspirations--all lived together in harmony. Mr. Ansell had done much, but one was tempted to believe in a more capricious power--the power that abstains from ”nipping.” ”One nips or is nipped, and never knows beforehand,” quoted Rickie, and opened the poems of Sh.e.l.ley, a man less foolish than you supposed. How pleasant it was to read! If business worried him, if Stephen was noisy or Ansell perverse, there still remained this paradise of books. It seemed as if he had read nothing for two years. Then the train stopped for the shunting, and he heard protests from minor officials who were working on the line. They complained that some one who didn't ought to, had mounted on the footboard of the carriage. Stephen's face appeared, convulsed with laughter. With the action of a swimmer he dived in through the open window, and fell comfortably on Rickie's luggage and Rickie. He declared it was the finest joke ever known. Rickie was not so sure. ”You'll be run over next,” he said. ”What did you do that for?”

”I'm coming with you,” he giggled, rolling all that he could on to the dusty floor.

”Now, Stephen, this is too bad. Get up. We went into the whole question yesterday.”

”I know; and I settled we wouldn't go into it again, spoiling my holiday.”

”Well, it's execrable taste.”

Now he was waving to the Ansells, and showing them a piece of soap: it was all his luggage, and even that he abandoned, for he flung it at Stewart's lofty brow.

”I can't think what you've done it for. You know how strongly I felt.”

Stephen replied that he should stop in the village; meet Rickie at the lodge gates; that kind of thing.

”It's execrable taste,” he repeated, trying to keep grave.

”Well, you did all you could,” he exclaimed with sudden sympathy.