Part 56 (2/2)
”No, ser. I don't see any percentage in doing it. Reseune-has its advantages. More than Planys does.”
”Even if Defense might promise you residency with Jordan.”
He took a breath and felt the unease of the Silencer to the roots of his teeth. It was hard to ignore. ”I have have thought of that. I hope to get him back here, ser, not-not put both of us there. He understands. He hopes for the same thing. Someday. Or we could have leaked this to Defense. Neither of us has.” thought of that. I hope to get him back here, ser, not-not put both of us there. He understands. He hopes for the same thing. Someday. Or we could have leaked this to Defense. Neither of us has.”
”Jordan never has liked liked Defense,” Denys said. ”They certainly didn't help him at his hearing.” Defense,” Denys said. ”They certainly didn't help him at his hearing.”
”You've counted on that,” Justin said quietly. ”He could have talked to them. He didn't. Not that I ever know of.”
”No, you're quite right. He doesn't trust them. But mostly the consideration of your career. And Grant's. Let's be frank. We know-how far he could push us... and why he won't. Let me go on being honest with you. He has every motive to lie to us and to you: to convince us you're valuable in your own right, to make sure you're protected-if he gets careless. You're very naive if you think he wouldn't do that.”
He ignored the body blows and kept his face unmoved. ”He values Grant too,” he said. ”And I do. You always have a hostage. All you have to do is keep him untouched.”
”Of course. That's why Grant doesn't travel.”
”But once-alone-even for a few hours-that trip would be worth it to Grant. And to my father. What's a hostage worth, if the one you're holding him against-forgets his value?”
Denys gave a heavy sigh. ”Son, I don't enjoy this situation; and I had far rather have peace with the Warrick clan, G.o.d knows how, without making a slip that gets someone hurt. I'm being utterly honest with you, I'm telling you my worries in the matter. I still believe in you enough to have you in on the Project on Yanni's say-so. We're solvent again, but we're sure as h.e.l.l not taking chances or spending wildly, and you're asking for a major amount of effort here, on something that's already been a headache to Sociology-”
”You say yourself, if those projections are wrong, if Sociology is working on flaws, then Defense ought to be interested. I'd call that a major matter, ser, I don't know what more it takes to qualify.”
Denys frowned. ”I was about to say, young friend, -'but, over all, a benefit.' All right, you get your test subject. Six-month run.”
”Thank you, ser.” Justin drew a whole breath. ”I appreciate your honesty.” Like h.e.l.l. Like h.e.l.l. ”And I hope-from my side-you understand the meeting yesterday-” ”And I hope-from my side-you understand the meeting yesterday-”
”Absolutely,” Denys said. ”I do. I appreciate the call. Ari has lunch in there now and again. You can't stay in hiding. You handled it exactly right.”
”I told her Ari was my instructor. Since she asked about my knowing her. I figured-I'd better say how I knew her-early.”
”That falls in an area she can't research. But yes, I see your reasoning. I have no objection to it. Sometimes you have to make fast a.s.sessments with her-G.o.d knows. You should live live with her.” Denys chuckled, and leaned back again. ”She's a challenge. I know that, believe me.” with her.” Denys chuckled, and leaned back again. ”She's a challenge. I know that, believe me.”
”I-” G.o.d, it was an opening. It was lying in front of him. ”The other thing I wanted to talk with you about: the Rubin sets, ser, I wish-wish you'd take a look at that, yourself; and my arguments. Working with Ari, the way you do, -I thought you-could give me a viewpoint-I don't have.”
”On the Rubin case? Or regarding Ari?”
”I-see one bearing on the other. Somewhat. Ser.”
Denys rocked his chair back and forth and lifted his brows. ”Yanni told me.”
”I just wonder if you'd take a look at the latest paper.”
”I have have looked at it. Yanni sent it over. I'll tell you, a lot you're doing is quite, quite good. I'm aware of your personal profile. I know what a strain it is for you to work real-time, or anything close to it, and I appreciate the stress you've undertaken-for that boy on Fargone. I know it's hard for Morley to appreciate how much pressure you're under . . . your tendency to internalize these cases. d.a.m.n bad thing for a clinical psychologist. About Ari, let me tell you, of looked at it. Yanni sent it over. I'll tell you, a lot you're doing is quite, quite good. I'm aware of your personal profile. I know what a strain it is for you to work real-time, or anything close to it, and I appreciate the stress you've undertaken-for that boy on Fargone. I know it's hard for Morley to appreciate how much pressure you're under . . . your tendency to internalize these cases. d.a.m.n bad thing for a clinical psychologist. About Ari, let me tell you, of course course the cases are linked and of the cases are linked and of course course your worry for the Rubin boy is going to spill over in worry about Ari, your personal mindset guarantees it. -But we your worry for the Rubin boy is going to spill over in worry about Ari, your personal mindset guarantees it. -But we can't can't hand you the whole of both projects, you do understand that, Justin, no more than we can find you a planet to test with.” hand you the whole of both projects, you do understand that, Justin, no more than we can find you a planet to test with.”
”I just-” He had had enough people calling him a fool in his life he should be less sensitive; but Denys didn't bludgeon, Denys was stinging and unexpected as a paper-cut. ”-just hoped-if you had time, ser, you might want to consider contingencies.”
Riposte to Denys.
Denys rocked forward again, leaned on the desk. ”We're working an emergency course change with the Rubin baby. You're giving us a useful perspective on the Rubin case, because we have have a problem, but we sure as h.e.l.l aren't in that situation with Ari-” a problem, but we sure as h.e.l.l aren't in that situation with Ari-”
”Rubin worked till the thing blew up, forgive me if I misunderstand, but the matter went deeper than Jenna Schwartz and Stella Rubin-” worked till the thing blew up, forgive me if I misunderstand, but the matter went deeper than Jenna Schwartz and Stella Rubin-”
”Let me tell you, Justin, I do do worry about someone who's so sure he's right he can't conceive of being wrong. I know Yanni's talked to you about that problem.” worry about someone who's so sure he's right he can't conceive of being wrong. I know Yanni's talked to you about that problem.”
”I'll send you my project papers. I'll pay for them. Enough for your d.a.m.n committee. Point of information-is that interference?” He drew a breath. ”I happen to think it's He drew a breath. ”I happen to think it's sane sane to consider related data in a case where a committee is running an untested program. I'm not asking you for data; I'm not asking you even for data on the Rubin case that I d.a.m.n well need to work with, because I know I haven't got a chance in h.e.l.l of getting it. But I can hand it to you, at my own expense, since Reseune can't afford the faxes, in the theory you ought to have it available. I don't call that interference. Shred it if you like. But at least I'll have tried!” to consider related data in a case where a committee is running an untested program. I'm not asking you for data; I'm not asking you even for data on the Rubin case that I d.a.m.n well need to work with, because I know I haven't got a chance in h.e.l.l of getting it. But I can hand it to you, at my own expense, since Reseune can't afford the faxes, in the theory you ought to have it available. I don't call that interference. Shred it if you like. But at least I'll have tried!”
Denys rubbed his lip, and picked up another pastille. Popped it into his mouth. ”d.a.m.n, you're persistent.”
”Yes, ser.”
Denys looked at him a very long time. ”Tell me. Does your own experience-as Jordan's replicate-bear on your confidence that you understand the Project?”
The question he had not wanted asked. Ever. His heart hit bottom. I don't know. Everything bears on my ideas. How can I sort it out?”
”It's interesting to me. You were never aware of yourself as a replicate-until you were-how old?”
”Six. Seven. Something like. I don't remember.”
”Always in Jordan's shadow. Always willing to take Jordan's opinion over your own. I think there is something in you . . . possibly a very important something. But sometimes I see other things: Jordan's stubbornness; his tendency to be right right beyond all reason.” Denys shook his head and sighed. ”You have a h.e.l.l of a way of applying for finance. Attack the people who can give it to you. Just exactly like Jordan.” beyond all reason.” Denys shook his head and sighed. ”You have a h.e.l.l of a way of applying for finance. Attack the people who can give it to you. Just exactly like Jordan.”
”If politics matters more than what is, -”
”d.a.m.n, more and more like your father.”
Justin shoved the chair back and got up to leave. Fast. Before he lost his temper altogether. ”Excuse me, then.”
”Justin, Justin, -remember? Remember who funded funded your research time? That was out of your research time? That was out of my my budget, at a time we could hardly afford it. I take everything you've said as an honest intent to help. I a.s.sure you. I have your report; I'll have my secretary fax it for the committee. And any other material you want to send.” budget, at a time we could hardly afford it. I take everything you've said as an honest intent to help. I a.s.sure you. I have your report; I'll have my secretary fax it for the committee. And any other material you want to send.”
He was left, on his feet, with the anger still running through him. It made a tremor in his muscles. He jammed his hands in his pockets to hide their shaking. ”Then thank you, ser. What about my Test request?”
”G.o.d,” Denys sighed. ”Yes, son. You have it. No change in that. Just-do us all a favor. Don't Don't intrude any further into the Project. Keep on being prudent as you have been. Ari's handling everything very well. She's accepted being Ari's replicate, taken everything in stride. But she likes you. And she doesn't know how her predecessor died. Her time-frame on Ari is constantly lagged. The Ari she knows is five going on six, and beyond that, she's seen only a few pictures. Remember that.” intrude any further into the Project. Keep on being prudent as you have been. Ari's handling everything very well. She's accepted being Ari's replicate, taken everything in stride. But she likes you. And she doesn't know how her predecessor died. Her time-frame on Ari is constantly lagged. The Ari she knows is five going on six, and beyond that, she's seen only a few pictures. Remember that.”
”When will will she know?” she know?”
”I'm not sure,” Denys said. ”I tell you that honestly. We make decisions real-time on this side of the Project; there's no way for me to answer that question. But believe me-I will warn you, when it becomes-immediate. That's one of the things we worry about as much as you do.”
vi It was shots shots again. Ari winced as the hypo popped against her arm, not one hypo, but three, besides the blood tests she had had every few days of her life. again. Ari winced as the hypo popped against her arm, not one hypo, but three, besides the blood tests she had had every few days of her life.
Nothing wrong with you, Dr. Ivanov had told her repeatedly. Dr. Ivanov had told her repeatedly. We just do this. We just do this.
Which was a lie. Dr. Ivanov had finally said so, when she found out she was a replicate and asked whether the first Ari had had something wrong with her: No, but the first Ari had tests just like yours, because her maman knew she was going to be somebody special, and because tests like these are valuable information. You're a very bright little girl. We'd like to know if something special goes on in your bloodstream. No, but the first Ari had tests just like yours, because her maman knew she was going to be somebody special, and because tests like these are valuable information. You're a very bright little girl. We'd like to know if something special goes on in your bloodstream.
But the shots made her dizzy and sick at her stomach and she was tired of getting shots and having needles in her arm.
She frowned at the nurse and thought where she would like to give the nurse a hypo, right when her back was turned. But she took the thermometer under her tongue a second till it registered, then took it out and looked at it.
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