Part 18 (2/2)

'What is this if it is not personal? The committee is questioning my loyalty to the revolution.'

'No one is questioning your loyalty, Anna,' said Mikhailov. 'No one could question your loyalty, only the wisdom of becoming involved with an Englishman.'

'But we agreed he would be useful. You agreed,' she replied angrily. This was naked jealousy and she had to bite her lip to stop herself saying so.

'Yes, but the police have questioned him . . .'

'And he told them nothing.'

'They will question him again. The Third Section has a file on him.'

'It has a file on you and on me and on you and you and you,' Anna said, pointing to them all in turn. 'He'll be of service to the revolution. I know it.'

'Are you sure your personal feelings are not getting in the way?' said Morozov.

Anna snorted with frustration then barked a word in Ukrainian that no one in the room understood. Her cheeks were burning, her hands shaking. None of them would meet her eye. It was the son of the serf, Andrei Zhelyabov, a handsome bear of a man, who spoke at last.

'We must trust our comrade's judgement. She has earned that trust.'

Anna turned to him with a grateful smile. He understood her, he was of the people too, but they must all be told. 'You know me and you must know my loyalty is to the party,' and her voice trembled a little with emotion. 'I will do my duty to the people. The English doctor is my . . . my friend, and he can help us. I trust him. Vera Figner trusts him.'

Sophia Perovskaya reached for her hand and gave it a little squeeze.

'You understand how careful we must be,' said Mikhailov. 'Sooner or later they will have your doctor followed.'

'I will tell him.'

'Is there anything else?' Mikhailov glanced about the room at the other members of the executive committee. 'Then Anna can go.'

'There is something else,' said Anna, irritated to be dismissed as if she were a flunkey. 'I want to know why no one has told me there were plans for another attempt on the emperor's life.'

'The fewer people who know the better,' Mikhailov replied, his eyes fixed upon her.

'Well, I know now. So what are you going to do? Have me killed and dumped in a street too?'

For a few seconds the silence was broken only by the awkward shuffling of feet and the creak of furniture.

'What do you know?' Mikhailov asked at last.

'We are smuggling explosives into the palace.'

'Careless of Nikolai,' Mikhailov said with a shake of the head.

'I want to tell Anna,' said Zhelyabov, leaning forward to look Mikhailov in the eye. 'She should know.'

Mikhailov shrugged and turned to Anna. 'We've had a member of the party inside the Winter Palace since October. He's a carpenter, and for weeks now he's been smuggling dynamite into one of the cellars.'

Only small quant.i.ties could be taken at a time because he was obliged to hide the explosives in his boots and the lining of his coat, but the police patrols knew him and trusted him and he had managed to build up a supply of almost 300 pounds. 'He sleeps in the cellar with the other workmen,' said Zhelyabov, picking up the narrative. 'He used to hide the explosives in his pillow but the fumes were too much for him so now he keeps the stuff in a box with his clothes. The cellar's directly below the tsar's dining room, so when we have enough . . . boom!' and Zhelyabov flung his arms theatrically into the air.

'Satisfied?' asked Mikhailov.

'I will be when it's done,' Anna replied.

'No one must know,' Mikhailov said, looking at her intently with his small brown eyes. 'They found drawings of the palace in Kviatkovsky's apartment. They've searched the cellar more than once since.'

Anna stiffened again, struggling to control her temper. Mikhailov's pointed 'no one' meant 'someone', someone in particular.

'Surprised?' Zhelyabov asked, as if to draw the sting from Mikhailov's words. She was surprised and excited and Zhelyabov must have seen it in her face. 'To kill the tsar in his own palace will show the people that the party has a long arm,' he added.

'But when?'

'Soon. Very soon. We're almost there. The new year will be a new dawn for the Russian people.'

23.

Two Christmas days had pa.s.sed and one new year before Frederick Hadfield received word from her again. For a time he could not enjoy an idle moment without being tormented by the tune from Mozart's aria Amore un ladroncello, and he would hum it as he dressed, in the droshky to the hospital and even on the wards. Love, the thief of time and of liberty that chains the soul, and he would hold his head and curse under his breath for an incurable romantic. He had celebrated a Protestant Christmas at his uncle's gloomy table, then thirteen days later an Orthodox one. The festive season had not been without cheer. There had been a succession of extravagant parties and b.a.l.l.s and he had escorted his cousin to a glittering affair at the n.o.bles' Club, where the heir to the throne was the princ.i.p.al guest of honour. And he was to welcome the Russian New Year with the Glen family at the mansion of their neighbour, the immensely wealthy banker, Baron von Stieglitz. The general was insisting on a carriage to collect his nephew at nine o'clock. He was not to be late.

Frederick was dressing for the Stieglitz Ball when the dvornik knocked at his door. Anna's note as peremptory as before proposed a meeting at precisely the same time. It was the height of bad manners, of course, and he risked causing the sort of offence that could damage his position in embankment society irreparably, but he felt only joy at the prospect of seeing her. In the end he wrote simply that he was suffering from a fever. It did indeed feel close to the truth and who was going to argue with his diagnosis?

By nine o'clock he was waiting before the west front of St Boris and St Gleb. It was snowing hard and he was grateful for his old student coat and hat. New Year's Eve, it was below freezing, and instead of sipping champagne in the baron's opulent drawing room he was stamping his feet in an empty square in one of the poorest parts of town.

'What is so funny?'

'Where did you spring from?' Walking quickly towards her, he held her tightly before slipping the scarf down from her nose and mouth to give her a long, tender kiss, her lips soft and warm. Then he took off his gloves and held her face in his hands. 'It seems so long.'

'Three weeks.'

'So you've been counting too?'

She smiled weakly, pus.h.i.+ng him gently away. 'Come on this is no place to celebrate the new year. We're going to a party.'

She led him through the streets by the arm. From time to time they could hear the sound of happy and drunken voices through the thin gla.s.s of the poorer houses, and rough carousing from the bas.e.m.e.nt taverns. They said very little to each other, he was content holding her little hand tightly, turning sometimes to catch her eye, a p.r.i.c.kle of excitement just walking at her side. He was disappointed when they stopped at the corner of a street and she announced they were almost there. Lifting her chin, her eyes searching his face, she asked in a quiet voice: 'Do you love me, Frederick?'

'Yes,' he said, and he bent to kiss her once more.

She put her hands against his chest and held him at bay. 'So I can trust you?'

'Of course you can.'

'Then you must be careful what you say to my . . .' she hesitated for a moment '. . . to my friends. They must know they can trust you too.'

Her 'friends'. He felt a flutter of alarm.

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