Part 20 (2/2)

”Hey,” she said, c.o.c.king her head, ”why do you look...blue?”

”It's totally stupid.”

”Tell me.”

”I just...I'm hoping he'll be there tonight. And he won't be. I know he won't be. I'm just being an a.s.s.”

”No you're not,” she countered, her eyes sad. ”You care about him still. I get that.”

”I acted so weird when I saw him in the supermarket last Sunday, Tori.”

”How so?”

”I was totally awkward...like I couldn't get a sentence out without sounding totally ridiculous.”

”I'm sure he didn't think so. You're being overly critical of yourself.”

”No, Tori, it didn't go well. He looked...I don't know, cold and offish by the time he walked away. You know, like...See ya, have a nice life, Carolyn. I felt like running after him and asking him for a do-over. I felt this need to talk to him, really talk.”

”So then you'll do that. You'll talk to him. But,” she added, shaking her head, ”I'm pretty sure he won't be there tonight.”

”You spoke to him?”

”Just texted. I asked if he was coming and he said no.”

I nodded, resigned.

”He's off on Sundays, Carolyn. Comes in at eight-thirty every Sunday morning, like clockwork. Grabs two coffees to go and a crumb cake.” She smiled. ”I think he times it so he gets there right as the crumb cakes come out of the oven.”

”Two coffees?”

Tori rolled her eyes. ”He goes to see his grandfather every Sunday morning.” Rubbing her palms together and smiling, she said, ”Anyway, I suggest you come in for coffee this Sunday morning.”

”We'll see,” I said, trying to sound undecided but unable to hide the grin that was blooming across my face.

After some last minute set-up, I stationed the girls at their respective posts. Tori and Ava would be walking about the room, selling raffle tickets, while Taylor, the most persuasive of our group, was manning the basket table, luring in prospective bidders with details about the decadent treats that awaited them if they were lucky enough to win.

I noticed as the room started filling up, that a great deal more men were stopping by the basket table, asking questions and dropping large amounts of raffle tickets into the bags. Taylor looked like she was having fun with it, breaking out her old wily charms. I smiled because this was play acting for Taylor now. She had grown up a great deal, committing herself to one person for the past year. Marcus was a slightly older guy who seemed to be head over heels for her.

”It's more crowded than usual, don't you think?”

”Definitely, Mom. I think tonight's going to top last year's total by a lot. Is there anything you need me to do?”

”Just keep selling. Everything else is under control.”

All the girls selling raffles had a silver balloon tied to a string attached to their wrist, so that we were easily recognized. I made my way about the room, generally only making it a few feet before being stopped by another patron. As the champagne flowed, the wallets opened.

Beth Peterman bought five hundred dollars-worth of tickets from me. I watched as she took them and approached the basket table, wondering which getaway she would bid on. I quickly grasped her ulterior motive; she practically needed a crowbar to pry the very distinguished looking, but very old Mr. Peterman away from Taylor. Beth, I decided, probably lived under the constant worry of when, not if, Mr. Peterman was going to trade her in for a newer model.

”Now I know who you are!” I turned abruptly and was face to face with Andie, her expression pleased but a little stunned. She shook her head, bewildered, as she said, ”You're true beauty.”

”Thanks for the compliment?”

Andie laughed. ”You do look great tonight, Carolyn, but I'm referring to the painting. True Beauty? It was donated by a student...well, a former student. It has to be you. Come see,” she said as she took my wrist and led me into the adjoining s.p.a.ce, which had been set up as a gallery.

Andie stopped in front of a large canvas, looking at me expectantly before she dropped my arm. I stood speechless, my mouth surely hanging open in shocked surprise.

It was me all right, perched on that stool, in nothing but my tiny white skivvies. It was a modern piece. The female form was rendered in charcoal but the borders were splashed in swaths of red, with some yellow accents. It gave the impression of burning light surrounding the girl.

I swallowed back tears when I looked closely at the face. I was looking at him with an expression that conveyed my deep love and also my desire. My shoulder was arched back a little and one hand rested on my inner thigh. I remembered back to that night; I'd positioned myself so that he had no choice but to look at the curve of my breast as he worked. Jeremy had wanted the session to be chaste, while I'd wanted to tempt him, break him down, get him into a state where he'd need me-have to have me.

”So you know Jeremy Rivers?” Andie asked softly, bringing me back.

”Yes,” I whispered, nodding. ”I knew him a long time ago.”

”This piece is so hauntingly beautiful, so very evocative. It's spectacular, really. I almost feel bad that he parted with it. Someone is going to get a bargain tonight.”

”Did he donate anything else,” I asked, turning back to Andie.

”Um, yeah, two other pieces,” she said, a sympathetic frown creasing her brow as she gestured across the room.

I felt like the wind was knocked out of me again as I took in Blue Gingham. It was me, standing at the water's edge. It was all charcoal, in black and white, but I smiled thinking about his obsession with that one particular bikini. I was dipping my toe into the lake tentatively, my arms out at my side for balance, my face tilted down, peering into the water, possibly scoping it out for vipers? The detailing in the landscape was striking. It was if he'd given the reed gra.s.s movement; you could almost hear the whisper of a breeze pa.s.sing through the fronds. I smiled again as I took in the female form and noticed the slightly exaggerated size of my b.r.e.a.s.t.s. Wishful thinking, Jeremy.

A couple approached then and I went back to selling tickets as I moved about the gallery, looking for his third canvas. I made two loops and came up empty. I was just about to go find Andie when I came upon it. It was small in comparison, no more than two feet square, ent.i.tled My Friend. It was two kids...No, it was me and Jeremy at around age twelve. Our foreheads were almost touching and we were looking into each other's eyes, smiling in a way that was nearly imperceptible. My gla.s.ses were sliding down my nose. He was reaching a finger up, looking as if he was about to right them. There was such an intimacy in what pa.s.sed between the two.

”His work takes my breath away, Carolyn. I hope someday he decides to pursue this. He's more talented than most people I know.”

”He says the same thing about you, Andie.”

She chuckled. ”Yeah, well we have a long-standing mutual admiration society-thing going. But really, his style has changed. When I last saw his work, he was drawing portraits and figures, but they were bland. These are powerful and stripped down-raw in their intensity, you know?”

She was looking at me, gauging my reaction. I did my best to hold myself together. I simply nodded. ”Well, the auction ends in an hour. I have to work the room and get some of these people to part with their cash,” she said, winking at me. ”Oh, and by the way, two people have already bid on your b.u.t.terfly but you can still snag that for a song. True Beauty, though, is commanding some nice bids. I don't know about you, but if I was the subject of that piece, I'd want to look at it hanging over my mantle when I turned old, wrinkly and gray. A nice reminder of what once was, you know?”

Before walking away, I looked at the bid sheet for My Friend. Three bids so far, with Beth Peterman topping the offerings at nine hundred. Making my way around the room, I noticed she also was among the several bidders for Blue Gingham but not the top bidder. Under the guise of approaching patrons for raffle ticket sales, I stopped at each canvas. Funny, but her name wasn't on any other bid sheets. I stopped at Thomas's b.u.t.terfly then, smiling as I put my name last on the list, outbidding the closest potential buyer by fifty dollars. Hopefully, no one else would want this and I could snag it for the eight-five dollars I'd bid. A few people were standing in front of True Beauty as I approached. An older couple stood close together, speaking in hushed tones that I strained to hear.

”I really think we should snag this, dear. I mean, have you ever seen such a sensuous rendering?”

I blushed, knowing that it was my body they were looking at. But I realized in that moment that I didn't feel one ounce of shame. I looked at that girl and saw someone who was beautiful-someone who was in love. That was me and I had no sense of shame over the person I had been when I was with Jeremy.

”Someone's young lover,” he replied, smiling wistfully.

”I'm upping the last bid,” she whispered conspiratorially. Geez, this woman keeps outbidding me by a hundred dollars. Who is Beth Peterman?” she asked to no one in particular, annoyed.

”No idea, dearest.”

After they walked away, I perused the bids. Yep, Beth had bid on this piece four times so far. My sympathy had evaporated-was not liking her so much anymore. The highest bid was now two-thousand, eight hundred dollars.

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