Part 4 (1/2)

These were wild words. If he had spoken them wildly, I might have shared the butler's conclusion that his mind was deranged. There was no undue vehemence in his voice or his manner. He spoke with a melancholy resignation--he seemed like a prisoner submitting to a sentence that he had deserved. Remembering the cases of men suffering from nervous disease who had been haunted by apparitions, I asked if he saw any imaginary figure under the form of a boy.

”I see nothing,” he said; ”I only hear. Look yourself. It is in the last degree improbable--but let us make sure that n.o.body has followed me from Boulogne, and is playing me a trick.”

We made the circuit of the Belvidere. On its eastward side the house wall was built against one of the towers of the old Abbey. On the westward side, the ground sloped steeply down to a deep pool or tarn.

Northward and southward, there was nothing to be seen but the open moor.

Look where I might, with the moonlight to make the view plain to me, the solitude was as void of any living creature as if we had been surrounded by the awful dead world of the moon.

”Was it the boy's voice that you heard on the voyage across the Channel?” I asked.

”Yes, I heard it for the first time--down in the engine-room; rising and falling, rising and falling, like the sound of the engines themselves.”

”And when did you hear it again?”

”I feared to hear it in London. It left me, I should have told you, when we stepped ash.o.r.e out of the steamboat. I was afraid that the noise of the traffic in the streets might bring it back to me. As you know, I pa.s.sed a quiet night. I had the hope that my imagination had deceived me--that I was the victim of a delusion, as people say. It is no delusion. In the perfect tranquillity of this place the voice has come back to me. While we were at table I heard it again--behind me, in the library. I heard it still, when the door was shut. I ran up here to try if it would follow me into the open air. It _has_ followed me. We may as well go down again into the hall. I know now that there is no escaping from it. My dear old home has become horrible to me. Do you mind returning to London tomorrow?”

What I felt and feared in this miserable state of things matters little.

The one chance I could see for Romayne was to obtain the best medical advice. I sincerely encouraged his idea of going back to London the next day.

We had sat together by the hall fire for about ten minutes, when he took out his handkerchief, and wiped away the perspiration from his forehead, drawing a deep breath of relief. ”It has gone!” he said faintly.

”When you hear the boy's voice,” I asked, ”do you hear it continuously?”

”No, at intervals; sometimes longer, sometimes shorter.”

”And thus far, it comes to you suddenly, and leaves you suddenly?”

”Yes.”

”Do my questions annoy you?”

”I make no complaint,” he said sadly. ”You can see for yourself--I patiently suffer the punishment that I have deserved.”

I contradicted him at once. ”It is nothing of the sort! It's a nervous malady, which medical science can control and cure. Wait till we get to London.”

This expression of opinion produced no effect on him.

”I have taken the life of a fellow-creature,” he said. ”I have closed the career of a young man who, but for me, might have lived long and happily and honorably. Say what you may, I am of the race of Cain. _He_ had the mark set on his brow. I have _my_ ordeal. Delude yourself, if you like, with false hopes. I can endure--and hope for nothing.

Good-night.”

VIII.

EARLY the next morning, the good old butler came to me, in great perturbation, for a word of advice.

”Do come, sir, and look at the master! I can't find it in my heart to wake him.”

It was time to wake him, if we were to go to London that day. I went into the bedroom. Although I was no doctor, the restorative importance of that profound and quiet sleep impressed itself on me so strongly, that I took the responsibility of leaving him undisturbed. The event proved that I had acted wisely. He slept until noon. There was no return of ”the torment of the voice”--as he called it, poor fellow. We pa.s.sed a quiet day, excepting one little interruption, which I am warned not to pa.s.s over without a word of record in this narrative.

We had returned from a ride. Romayne had gone into the library to read; and I was just leaving the stables, after a look at some recent improvements, when a pony-chaise with a gentleman in it drove up to the door. He asked politely if he might be allowed to see the house. There were some fine pictures at Vange, as well as many interesting relics of antiquity; and the rooms were shown, in Romayne's absence, to the very few travelers who were adventurous enough to cross the heathy desert that surrounded the Abbey. On this occasion, the stranger was informed that Mr. Romayne was at home. He at once apologized--with an appearance of disappointment, however, which induced me to step forward and speak to him.